Jaan, called you up. Probably you were still sleeping.
I'll call you again around 10:30 11:00. Keep the E5 off, if its not possible to talk.
Not able to write a single word. Not even able to think anything to write. Really falling short of words.
Simply going crazy, tor jonno chintay... Ki korbo kichutei bujte prchi na... Should I take you to a psychiatrists for consultation... This way you will fall seriously sick... I'm very very scared... really feeling helpless ...
Love you so much.
Take care, just for me.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Good Night
Aj saradin even in the long hours of sleep had multiple siezures of the MC trauma..somehow not able to come out of that episode in my subconcious..
Had and still having horrifying mental state whichi is not known to me...When awake its still better but when not fully conscious or in some kind of sleep driven state the motion like pictures are coming in forefront and causing bouts of shivering muscular relaxation etc..
Dont know how to really get out of that deadly 5 mins of life and deal with that ghost of memory upfront..
so trying to postpone the going to bed part as far as possible..
Love You
Take Care
Hope tomorrow would be a better day.
Had and still having horrifying mental state whichi is not known to me...When awake its still better but when not fully conscious or in some kind of sleep driven state the motion like pictures are coming in forefront and causing bouts of shivering muscular relaxation etc..
Dont know how to really get out of that deadly 5 mins of life and deal with that ghost of memory upfront..
so trying to postpone the going to bed part as far as possible..
Love You
Take Care
Hope tomorrow would be a better day.
Call your tomorrow
Asole ami aircel ta on korini...
Thanks a lot that you slept after ages...
Call might not be possible...
Take care...
Love you...
Doing nothing.. Actually was not able to.. Now as I got your message, would try to study a little...
Thanks a lot that you slept after ages...
Call might not be possible...
Take care...
Love you...
Doing nothing.. Actually was not able to.. Now as I got your message, would try to study a little...
Hii..
Sms was sent to your aircell number..at 4 am not sure why u dint
get..anyway...oto deadly hours bole normal number e pathainii..
What r u doing?love u.
get..anyway...oto deadly hours bole normal number e pathainii..
What r u doing?love u.
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Sent from my mobile device
Love You
Love..
Kalker porpor 2 tu alprazolam affected today feeling somewhat feverish.. slept off around 2 and woke up at 8:45 and still feeling like a zombie..
Oi Interview ta abar dekhlam..really felt much lighter..
Nobody woke me up not even JS. She was told not to disturb me..
Akhon aktoo raastay jabo..just dombondhyo lagche bari te tai..ghar byatha ta komeni..hoyto aktoo hete asle better laagbe..
Parle Phone koro..
Love You Take Care
Kalker porpor 2 tu alprazolam affected today feeling somewhat feverish.. slept off around 2 and woke up at 8:45 and still feeling like a zombie..
Oi Interview ta abar dekhlam..really felt much lighter..
Nobody woke me up not even JS. She was told not to disturb me..
Akhon aktoo raastay jabo..just dombondhyo lagche bari te tai..ghar byatha ta komeni..hoyto aktoo hete asle better laagbe..
Parle Phone koro..
Love You Take Care
Baby
Shona, where are you? No update. Sorir ta ki abar kharap holo? Or just
not feeling to communicate? Worried. Please let me know.
Love you, only you and you. Take care.
not feeling to communicate? Worried. Please let me know.
Love you, only you and you. Take care.
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Sent from my mobile device
We shall overcome, very soon
Feeling shattered after talking to you. Actually I haven't received any sms from you, hence was trying to call you since early morning. But your cell was switched off. Hence was not able to talk.
Whatever ever happend to you yesternight, probably i saw it coming. You were extremely depressed for last few days that you have stopped talking to me even. Yeasterday was out burst of it. Which is quiet normal. As you are so brave and mentally so storng, you were able to hold on for such long time, before out brusting finally. Given your situation, any one, including me, would have done this long back and would have continued doing every day. I really respect you. You are a woman of strength.
But I know that we shall over come. We shall overcome big way. You are putting your best, and make sure you do the maximum you can do, even if after that we fail, we know that we have tried the level best.
Keep the faith. I know its a long path that you are traveling and traveling alone, but at the destination you will get the payment. Life squares it up, all ways and always. Just keep walking.
I know, I can do nothing to support you, neither I can hold you on to my chest to give you my share of strength. Nither can i take your hands in mine for that long awaited reassurance. But still I say that I love you, I care for you and I'll always be there with you. Even if that with my few dry words. Because you are to precious for me to let go for a moment.
Love you. And trust me, we will be able to join the dots in future looking backwards. How, that we don't know now, but I know we will be able to win it for sure. Just listen to your heart and do what you love the most. No one can take you out of the dark room, but YOU. I know you will be able to walk out of that darkness on your own, because you have that power in you.
Love you so so so very much. Watching you all the time, silently.
Only yours.
Love.
Whatever ever happend to you yesternight, probably i saw it coming. You were extremely depressed for last few days that you have stopped talking to me even. Yeasterday was out burst of it. Which is quiet normal. As you are so brave and mentally so storng, you were able to hold on for such long time, before out brusting finally. Given your situation, any one, including me, would have done this long back and would have continued doing every day. I really respect you. You are a woman of strength.
But I know that we shall over come. We shall overcome big way. You are putting your best, and make sure you do the maximum you can do, even if after that we fail, we know that we have tried the level best.
Keep the faith. I know its a long path that you are traveling and traveling alone, but at the destination you will get the payment. Life squares it up, all ways and always. Just keep walking.
I know, I can do nothing to support you, neither I can hold you on to my chest to give you my share of strength. Nither can i take your hands in mine for that long awaited reassurance. But still I say that I love you, I care for you and I'll always be there with you. Even if that with my few dry words. Because you are to precious for me to let go for a moment.
Love you. And trust me, we will be able to join the dots in future looking backwards. How, that we don't know now, but I know we will be able to win it for sure. Just listen to your heart and do what you love the most. No one can take you out of the dark room, but YOU. I know you will be able to walk out of that darkness on your own, because you have that power in you.
Love you so so so very much. Watching you all the time, silently.
Only yours.
Love.
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