Baby

Jaanu, Ki korcho? Ami just kichu korchi na... vabla mere boshe aachi... Kichu korte parchi na...
Sokale amar Sasuri Bazar e geyechilo... Amay naki dekeche ami khub intense vabe phone e kotha bolchilam, tai naki dake ni... I got to know after coming back home... I little tension is going on around that... as usual... tired of every thing...

I love you... Missing you... need to smell you to breath again properly... Jani na seta abar kobe hobe... Waiting for you..

Kothay tumi?

Jaan, kothay tumi... Ekbar sara dao... Please ebar ektu contact koro... At least an SMS... Dying in tension...

Love you so very much...

Love you jaan

Kichu bujte parchi na... Sob ki rokom ek e pattern mene hoche... A very uncanny resemblance ... Last year er ek e time, tor barite sei jhamela... Catastrophic situation... Tar modhe amar trip... Ek e destination... Khun uncanny lagche re...

E dike maa bar bar fon kore khoj korche j amar chuti holo ki na... Ki j boli decide korte parchi na... Tor offer tao golay eshe atke aache... Uff, ami r parchi na, ekdom valo lagche na...

E bar jodi jai, and maa, dada and boidir samne abar sei aager barer moto nightmare fiire aashe, ami ta hole pagol e hoye jabo... Sojjer to ekta limit aache... O jeno kichute na jante pare ami out of town... Matha ta chire jache re...

Please give me a call for 10 mins when you have time... I really need to talk to you before I finally say yes or no to my mother...

You take care... I do not know how... I'm really very very worried for two of us... Under this mental pressure we will not sustain much long...

Wipro offer ta close koro, ask them when you will get the hard copy of the offer letter and the other details of joining like joining time and contact person....

Worried like hell... Feeling trapped in life... I really don't know what kind of game life is playing with us, and where would it end? Probably with any of our death!!!

Love you so very much Baby...

P.S. inspite of all this, you were looking extremely beautiful today in that red dress... Chokh ferate parchilam na...

Love You

Love You Jaaan...
call korte parbo ki na janinaa..prochondo jhogra cholche re..sei ak routine ak pattern..calling up parents etc..
new baynakka is JS er mathay haat rekhe promise kora that I wont communicate with you in any forms..
R na hole he will commit suicide etc and write you and me are responsible for his death..and ruining his life
JS k ghore niye giye bolche j ami ok niye berie giye tomar sathe thakbo..and amader itor lifestyle e o nosto meye toiri habe..moreo jete pare..because we will not take care of him..
Telling her tor ma more jayna kano rather than being somebody else (read your name)kept..
O bolche j na ota to amar ma tumi kano bolcho more jete...I love ma..
She cried like hell..fupiye fupiye kede jachhe bechari.
feeling sick at nerves...
Amra hoyto sotti happy hote parinaa...Is it that Shona??to be happy you need to have legal permission?? Think about it!!!

Tui long drive plan korechili naa?? You will have plenty of them with your legal family while being on trip ..and everyone will think YOU are happy...as THEY will be happy and LEGALLY wrapping YOU with so called care and comfort..YOU are SUPPOSED to be HAPPY

Happiness is not our cup of TEA.. we will die like this..

I am telling you..if at all thats an option tui study ta complete kor..and I will simply pack and go..and then fight out..loop er vetore theke fight kora aombhob..ar jekhane every step we are getting caught by public in wrong foot when emotionally we are drop dead down..

Our love getting raped in public every instance..ami nite parchi naa ar humilitaion..of our so precious love..
Oboshyo tui deputattion e gele the other venom of our life will follow you wagging her tail acrrying her legal power..
so i really dont know and cant hope much!!!Lets just die..

Dying for you

I have reached. Please call as per your convenience. I love you and love only you...

Khub mon kharap lagche. Kichu valo lagche na. Amra ki ektu o khushi hote pari na re jaan!!!

Updates??

what do you mean by sob kichu thik ache??
Thik nei..ki thik ache na ache ami janinaa ..ami thik nei,,just nei..
Am tired of dying everyday.. cats and dogs jhogra hoyeche,,,prochondoo..
Am simply fatigued and weary.. If only I could get some peace somewhere..

We were (mostly he was) quarreling for long long times..saying so many things.
Was telling me j ami koto niche gechi .coming from a good family etc ..
wagera wagera..breaking the family home and ruining so many lifes..including yours'..
Was telling n number of times j tumi amay several times refuse koro..reject koro..tao ami kano somostyo self esteem khuiye tomar pechone pore thaki..
I have upfront told him..that ami ok chara bachte parina.. tai ok phone kori..
and it doesnt count to me what is feelings for me..
I get immense amount of peace in him..in confiding in him..and I cant live without communicating with him

And can never survive that day..when I would know I will never ever get to communicate with him..

Things went out of proportion...we fought like anything ja hoy..
amar details dite bhalo lagchee naa
feeling extremely down..
more so as probability of meeting you tomorrow becoming more and more bleak ..feeling too caged too indignant..

I might not be able to reach Salt Lake tomorrow..shedding all off.but I need to meet you to survive..
I can go to Mom's place 8B beauty parlor anywhere..tell me a place and meet you..during the morning 9 AM??
If you can make some options...
ami jani parbe naa.. You also are caged have no EXCUSES to come out just like that..
We cant go out somewhere JUST LIKE THAT>> WE NEED EXCUSE to LIVE our LIFE even if its for 10 mins..

kalke habe naa porshu habe naa.. tarpor din o hoyto habe naa (Thursdays being nightmares at present) Friday tumi thakbe naa till next Friday..jobe firbe tarpor weekend tarpor next Monday dakha holeo hote paree..coz we will again take the shade of our Office Umbrella ...


Perhaps need to drink tonight to keep me knocked off..
Talk to you tomorrrow..

Love you so so very much...beyond everything..
Not asking how is your wound.. I dare not ask YOU!!!


P.S>> I have thought about deeply and I am sure ELOPING is the ONLY OPTION if at all else we need to die every moment ..roasted in bonfire alive!!!!

Jaanu

Jaanu baby,
Ki korchish re shona... Sob thik aache to re... Khub down lagche... Please 1 line update dish baby... Khub kosto hoche re...

I love you