I love you...

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...
I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.

I made you cry...

I'm Sorry Jaan

Forgive me, if you can....

It was our day. It was suppose to be the day of Grand calibration.
It was suppose to be the day of togetherness.
When My Sweety Pie got appreciated by the World for her effort and
I was the proudest father to cherish My Love’s success.
I was so very happy for her, that I can’t express…..

You waited and waited for me silently,
helped me in all possible ways to finish my work swiftly
Waited for me to finish my work and take me in your arms,
to make me dissolve in you and make me calm..

But alas! As a perfect idiot, I screwed up everything.
Babe, I know I messed up pretty bad,
I know I have hurt you, I made you cry,
I know you do not deserve any of this,
I know things can and will be better,
I know you still want this or you would not be here,
I know you are probably reading this and already know what I am saying but
I also know that we have a lot of life to live, together.

It’s what I do all the times. The time I am forced to spend apart from you, with utter loneliness and pain, I reflect that on YOU.
No one has ever had me the way you do.
I wonder sometimes why we are where we are,
For me at least I know it is because I love you, unconditionally, deepest from my heart.

Yes I do mess up sometimes and I wish I was perfect, but I am not.
It’s beautiful knowing that you know that and have accepted that and me.

Reverse LapTop Day

I just wish you to forget everything that mundane eyes see

I just wish you forget everything and come rushing to me

I just wish you forget everything and put your head to rest

I just wish you forget everything and find my lap your nest

I just wish to forget everything and run my fingers across your face

I just wish to forget everything and put your bruised heart to solace

I just wish to forget everything softly put you to sleep and remain awake

I just wish to forget everything and whisper words of love till dawns break

I just wish to forget everything and watch my love in peaceful slumber

I just wish to forget everything and watch your adonis face for hours

good morning

i dont know how you are and how you spent the night... i missed you violently over the long hours of sleepless melancholy fight..out of sight out of mind? Can this b true when everything is imbibed so very deep inside... missing you desperately my dear husband...v v intensely as every wife can want... missing her husband n silently shedding tear drops holding the pillow to her bosoms..not feeling like doing anything eat drink sleep or roam.. if only if we could have our tiny home..I REALLY CANNOT MISTREAT YOU LIKE THIS EOSIN NEITHER CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME... ARE'NT WE TOO PRECIOUS TO EACH OTHER.. TO CONVEY OUR LOVE WE ALWAYS NEED OTHER'S DISCRETION???                     DOES NATURE ALLOW U TO MISUSE THE MOST TREASURED GIFT OF YOURS JUST LIKE THIS? GIVE A CALL TO YOUR DYING SOUL ONCE YOU READ IF WITHIN LIMITS... NOT FEELING LIKE GOING TO WORK ANYMORE AS I DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO LOOK FWD TO...CANT CONCENTRATE..FEELING FEEBLE DEAD NUMB DESPERATE

Eosin

They are numerous of them deep n bold, smoldered by those loving hands of gold..Marks r red cuts are sore but each one of them I do adore and crave for more From my core.... But the bruises  which r invisibly deep -beyond heart Cannot be composed they r too deeply cut....  I -perhaps know why the intrinsic pain is so deep n intense..its just inversely proportional to the happiness of TOGETHERNESS