Eosin

i abruptly disconnected ur call n vommited out everything.... not merely some digital transitions but i pucked my entire being.... my life our life which is in the comatose lifeline and a solutionless perplexed question.... imaginary fool ...such a stupid.... i merely forgot we r cancer patient merely counting days..n ur three worded sentense evolving from purest form of love n utmost care....instantly made every minute things crystal clear....we dint hav a past niether a future just counting moments of a scary hazy present...trying to reamin glued to each other every moment...which we can grab or steal the unfathomable vacuum we try to feel...i know perhaps i am too good for you and so with all my goodness will get lost in silent solitude....futile cries for you will remain unheard in the stone hard world..:: u know me better than me In every step of life...so you shudder before giving any shock to me in core...i Love you for that as well...the clarity of mind which you posses rather being cocconed in shell...i dint misunderstand you a bit...trust me dear...may be first time in life i understood crystal clear...no hope no ray to aspire...just a burning illogical immatured desire...that i cant stay without you eVer....without investing in present a directionless creature craving for a virtual future...Please forgive me for being so cruel.....unfeeling to you who has taught me how to feel... love you n would never be able to forgive me....ITS NOT YOUR DEMAND THAT IS INTRIGUING BUT THE LESS OF IT IS KILLING... NOT YOUR FORCE WHICH KEEPS ME STUCK TO YOU...BUT THE SACRIFICIAL ENDURANCE THAT KEEPS ME PUSHING TO YOU................STRANGEST THING IS THE UNCANNY GLOW ON MY FACE WHEN I STAY WITH YOU IN SPITE OF KNOWING IT FOR ONLY LIMITED DAYS AND I KNOW FOR SURE ITS ONLY FOR SOME INTANGIBLE MOMENTS...LOVE YOU N WUD KEEP ON DOING SO HERE THERE EVERYWHERE...