I Don't Want To

I don't want to buy your thoughts,since they come for free you keep on offering them to me. I will not get convinced by any of them unless and until you take my hands in yours look into my eyes and really make me feel yours then sell your intelligent thoughts.

I don't want to look pretty even if am doing...When you cannot put your hands around me and put on the camera scanner of your eyes which make me blush in red..stop saying and listening I look good..

I don't want to smile when there are no reasons to feel good or look forward to..when you cannot hold my face in your hands and kiss the smile..My smile if at all beautiful was meant only for one person who cannot touch them ever...

I don't want to be get carried away by your philosophies when you cannot keep me glued to you like a sticky pie don't give those damn philosophies to me..trust me they are not any kind of solace...

I don't want anybody to talk to me or even look at me or pass ANY kind of friendly gestures when I cannot have my best friend with me speaking and listening the hearts out for timeless ages.....

I don't want to get help from anybody when I know the only person whom I can shamelessly and helplessly ask for help is so very far from me. Please do not help me with Tips and Tricks when you cannot show them to me sitting beside me......

I don't need any help line. when my lifeline is not with me. I don't want to get any suggestions from any one I have had enough of them and every little bit of them is actually nauseating when I know for sure what/who can make or break my life..

I don't want other people's view in it. Its MY Life afterall. I don't want to feel good as I have stopped feeling good all about when I know the person who can make me feel divine like magic has been taken off from me for ever by a tragic witchcraft .....

I don't want to have anyone around me, when I know the only person my only friend for whom I have waited for my entire life for every minute aspect has been cruelly separated from me without the minimum anesthesia.......

Just leave me alone and let me die my way..I will be fine anyway