Diary of an Evening Tea

How was it yesterday
How is it going on today
No idea whatsoever
I am sure you would have
Longed to share
After a very long day

How was it every moment
How you excelled-confident
Radiance emanating from
Your deep seated eyes
Incessant strength
Transcending your voice

And I would have died
To take your head in my lap
As I firmly keep me held
Against you in tightest wrap

My lips in yours smothering
Togetherness slowly dissolving
My nails softly caressing
My hands delicately cajoling

Your cascading crown of hair
In a curly loving endeavor
As you speak your heart out
I would have loved to hear

All your accomplishments
Small little chronicles
Over a single cup of Tea
I melt in you n You melt in ME

Trying to make you feel soft
And serene, and let you adopt
More vitality more will power
For the next day's encounter
With the rest of the world

Azure Indigo Blue Red
I love you in every shade
I know you are able to conquer
Everyday Every time n Everywhere

My love for you will be timeless
Waiting for these undying moments
Missing in you every ways
Craving for you till my dying days

PS: I didn't get an appropriate pic.. if you get time give it a masterpiece

Some Thoughts

Earvin Magic Johnson
You're the only one who can make the difference. Whatever your dream is, go for it.

Anonymous
Whatever you see or
Or Whatever You seem
Is nothing but a DREAM
Inside a DREAM

Gita
Dishonor is more disgraceful
Over death
In the eyes of your most loved


Ayn Rand
Throughout the centuries there were men who took first steps, down new roads, armed with nothing but their own vision.

Uta Hagen
We must overcome the notion that we must be regular... it robs you of the chance to be extraordinary and leads you to the mediocre.

Anonymous
Sometimes we let affection, go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the best.

Lao Tzu
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Boris Pasternak
Love is not weakness. It is strength.

Leo Buscaglia
Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself.

Antoine de Saint-Exupery
For true love is inexhaustible; the more you give, the more you have. And if you go to draw at the true fountainhead, the more water you draw, the more abundant is its flow.

Miss You

Missing You like anything
When Its Raining
Nowadays I hate rains
They carry no significance
Without being
In the Rain
Clutched in your Embrace
Kiss The Rain
When you miss ME
Remember ME
Forget me not If possible
In your loving grace

Prize of Prizes...My Pristine Dazzler

Eosin
No idea how was it yesterday
But I am sure you shone
Shone in your own soothing radiance
Like the pearls of amazon

Today will be even better
You never know
Anything where
you put in 30% of YOU
Is equivalent to
120% of others ALL put together

Because its none other than YOU
Am sure you will do wonders
Its not the amount of efforts given
But the quality and from whom its coming
Passionate about everything
That surely will differentiate
And make you the STAR of all the STARS
YOU ARE what YOU ARE

Love you EOSIN ..love you so very much...and missing you even more ..
BP nominations went to next round..

Don't Know

Don't Know
How Are You
Where Are You
What Are you doing
Why are you so far yet so near>> that I am not able to think of a anything when I have spent alone without YOU in countless thoughts!!!

Each and every moment beyond my own plain somewhat robotic existence I am only thinking about YOU and YOU and YOU
Missing you every micro seconds!!!!Not able to breathe as well..
No idea where life take turns.. and how long can this journey in desolate isolation groping in darkness ceases to haunt..

I am just about OK..Performing as you are doing ALL duties bound to be done as a civilized social creature..

Survival is continuing at the pace of 1sec/sec ..
But deep inside a black hole is engulfing from every corner every angle ...Not able to look beyond..

Waiting and dying to get back to YOU somehow in some REAL format...may be just your voice or a glimpse or something ...can't think of how..
Waiting for mercy of nature in whatever form she unites me with my life once more before its too late!!!!

Where are you?

Missing You desperately,
Feeling very vulnerable,
Dying to talk to you,
Not able to concentrate into any thing.

Hope you are doing OK.
I’m OK too some how.
It’s very difficult to count moments like this.
Waiting for you with my existence.

Loved it

My wish is your command..
And you simply make them true
Makes me more greedy for you
And imbibes more belief in YOU

I have immense belief in yourself
Complete trust in your abilities
Full faith in your capabilities
More than anybody else
Even more than you have in you

I strongly believe
If I wish
You will make it TRUE
Even if that is bringing
The MOON from sky
You will capture it for me..

I hope all my wishes likewise
In your crimson hues
Someday someway
From a distant dream of today
Become ours OWN
A much cherished reality!!!

If not in this life
Where we float in timeless ocean
Then for sure next life I grab you
Like the morning Bird
And love you the most
Till such time we meet again

Just Wait

You Asked for it, for us, for our dignity
I asked for 1 week from you.
And You know your wish is my command,
So now you get it.
Wait for the week to begin.
I have earned something for you.
And I know you would be proud again.

All the Best my dearest

All the best for your exams and tasks
Go and conquer the waves
Paint the world in your own shades
So different so unique
Which makes you as in ONLY YOU

Love You so very much and missing you so very intensely!!!!!
Your love is so overflowing in my heart that there is not even any place for a dot to fit in..

Love you JELLY

What are you doing?

Missing you ....for everything...but mostly that am not able to hear your voice for a single moment in all these 24*4 hours..
You don't know how your voice even a one lines feels to me soaking away everything from me ...all possible tensions all possible miseries all possible sadness ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING...
Even things I myself have no idea of...

BP

I have seen a very humane and wonderful face of a person today whom I never thought so..
He has made the entire exercise of BP with a very scientific and human approach..
A true people friendly leader..will share with you the end to end of the story later!!!
But feel good the entire BP exercise will now be revisited as scientifically as possible at top levels over the weekend..and for that people need to work over the weekend.

Pains

Some pains are so very blissful in relishing every minute every bit of it..Even the slightest move of the pain gives you so much of peace and relief and lovefilled happiness...that you blush every time you relive the pain and die in peace reminiscising the source of it...

If waves of time has met in proper axes I sincerely believe it would have been my home and would have been such a proud wife in possessing all of it..... Its my husband's home after all..where every brick has the strongest foundation of love every wall painted in shades of creativity with a very small kitchen and a different wall to hold post its of love ..like bloggers spot to share some good thoughts or titbits during tiny quarrels and FYI msgs...
A slender study to unlease the colors of innovationof my loving hubby...and so on....
Cant write more....It hurs to be so painfully virtual

A breathe of O2

Nature was someway merciful and from its store brought out with her magical wand some moments of ecstasy for 2 dying creatures in agony....such that they can for some miniscule of time relive this and able to breathe before going to ventilation again...

Love You

Please stop loving me Eosin....
Am not able to take the pain myself..which I have inflicted in you
I have no answer that how could I hurt you my life so brutally..
Am not able to bear it...
Am shuddering every moment I am thinking of it.. how could I do it..

I was diseased mentally crippled when I have done all these and was also out of that paralyzed mental state by an alchemist which is YOU like in the process in which an ugly pumice stone slowly turns into sparkling gold... in your flawless selfless divine overflowing love.

Am thankful to life that I got the chance to comes across someone so wonderful as YOU and has in each and every term actually lead me through the path of emancipation...And most imporantly the change which you have brought in is like a soft serene gradual one without me or you even noticing it..

True it did hurt you brutally at a time when I was OUT of the disease...by your golden touches..
But a hurt so intense probably I also cannot take it off from you my entire lifetime..
Even if you are out of it.. I will keep on living with this thought that I have hurt someone who has loved me so much put everything on stake in loving me..

Love you so very much my sweetheart...
You are my lifeline...but above all you are mine..
And I cant stop loving you no matter what..and I don't care how much you love me or not I love you love you like anything a love I never felt before so soft and with so much o honor and no matter what befalls in life I will keep on loving you more increasingly everytime I breathe.

Ghost of Life

I really do NOT know how can all 3
Betray where they are supposed to be
Miss someone so very much
And simply deny their own existance

Its looong after you have
Unfurled me off your embrace
Have drudged the long way back
Alone in the drizzling rain

She denied me in every step and off she shook
Kept on flowing incessantly like the brook
In rainyseason..who had no idea whatsoever
What to do with all these water
That is gushing from deep inside
She kept on craving for someone in insanity
Some one who was not even in the farthest proximity

She kept on wanting him more and more
Inspite of knowing he can not be close
Irrespective of how much he does care
He cannot hold her soothe her
Or make her feel as his own
Till such times if it at all comes
She has to weep alone

But still for hours together
She yearned and craved for her beloved partner
With some undying hope deep instilled
That someday someway he would be Closer
And neither Time nor the Place
Will then become the constraint
And for endless time together
He can make her feel his power
Of a magic called love in every hour
With the serenity of smile deep on lips
With soft fulfilling loving kiss
He will make her feel as his very OWN
And nothing to think on days bygone

When at those times you feel like clutching
And denied of that minimum peace
When you have to depart far
Having been closest deep somewhere
When you cant even pull yourself
And can exchange everything for a moments grace
And that very moment you have to disengage
You know what brutality of Life is!!!!

And long after the hours passed
Your ownself denies you aghast
You get to know what craving is
And what the intensity of missing means

When you cannot anymore hold on to you
You act like slave of some one true
You miss him awake or asleep living or dead
You know exactly what you desrve to get

When you know the entire waterfall is for you
But still you cant even get a handfull to
Quench your burning thrist
And you die thristy just beside by the running river
You know for sure what
Life can offer and what denial of life means so far!!!

Before she dies atleast once in her entire lifetime
She would long to hold on to him for ages and ages
In an undying love without thinking of anylthing else
She would simply want to die in a blissful helplessness!!!!!!

rains

came out n know what..its drizzling.. felt the first few drops of rain in the format of u..missing u like a caracass.. 845 pm

I know.. but perhaps You Dont

You will never know
WHAT YOU ARE TO ME
What each word of YOU
Mean to me
Coz they are not coming from
Anyone else
But from YOU

So out of 100% of what you say if I am not able to withstand 5% its my psychich problem..but trust me that 5% is ALL about YOU which keeps me grieved not something about me.. If it is something about me I will NOT even be bothered.....

I also know from where you are telling all these..I am totally aware of the intrinsic love and care that are fostered somewhere so deep even I can't touch..

YOU CAN NEVER EVER even if you TRY say something to me which is NOT triggered from selfless LOVE and CARE..
If you are NOT aware of that never bother I know for sure how much convinced I am....

Take it very straight Eosin
YOU have GIFTED Me MY LIFE
Which was LOST in OBLIVIION
Given me the RIGHT INSIGHT
Carried me Everywhere Every moment
At times even those... when I myself
Was not even aware of
That I needed your help

You have never said me anyting
Which was not evolved from Love and Care
Without expecting anything in return
You have always showered me
With unrestricted selfless love

All those words for which I was hurt
Are not related to any fault
And I know before me how those words
Have ripped you apart

But true I cannot take something from you
Which has an underlying shade of undermining you
And that comprised of the remaining 5%
You will never try to know what was that figure from
And keep on saying something which is again wrong

It wrong that you have given only sufferings
Disturbance and tear drops to me
You always tend to ignore the fact
That I believe in you more than I do in me
To me You are the ALCHEMIST

I don't care if you believe it not
But I will be never tired of stating that
That how special you are to me
In every possible and impossible ways
You have gifted my life to me

And at times I don't dare to dream
Something together With You
Because you are too precious
Too pristine for me to hold on to
Can someone so wonderful
Ever belong to me?

But its really cruel the way of snatching my ONLY FRIEND away from me so far where I can never venture.. Its must be lawful and done in everyone's good but not right...

Even a lifesaving operation cannot sustain a non-anesthetic approach.

I only care for – YOU!

Yes, some of my words are true, some of them are right,
Same of them are required, some of them are necessary,
But they are not 100% correct.

It’s very easy to comment on something, when you are not actually part of it,
Because you are not going through the actual situation,
Taking the turmoil of the emotions.

Things are not only Black or White, There are array of grey shades,
Life is complex to explain than to experience,
It’s always easy to postmortem.

Don’t take my words, Don’t take my rules either,
But to live your life with dignity,
You must delineate your own set of rules,
And stand for them at any cost.

You can’t take negative from me, It’s painful for you,
But one thing you don’t know,
Saying a single harsh word to you,
Rips me apart from deep inside.

But I’ll say upfront, And keep on saying,
Because it’s not my pain that I care for,
I only care for – YOU!

Morning Thought

75 almost = 29+34+5+5 (2 yrs is lost in counteless counting) :)

at times

at times relationships r more imp than life so imp that life becomes insignificant to this relationship.. true ife is the bigger platform but there are some - Keystones without which platform cannot exist..written on fly..techy techy way

You cant take the sky from Me

Take my love, take my land, take me where I cannot stand
I don't care, I'm still free, you can't take the sky from me

Staring Far

You always

Wished to see me in a similar dress

After a long search

I was able to capture

This image Staring far

Alone but not in her

Towards the future

With all her Heart and Soul

One thing you have imbibed

In me over the period of time

To fight out my problems or pains

I would not need Anyones support

It might take time

But I strongly believe

I would be able to win

Its all about the strength

Which you have ingrained

I pledge you to not to

Believe in my words

But am sure

Someday life would offer

Where I would be able to prove

Keeping faith in each other

What I can do for my love

Since the occasions of

Exchanging thoughts

Are now rarest of rare

I preserve every moment of it

With utmost care

I love listening to You Silently,

Over speaking

As every single moment spent together

Imparts a tremendous insight

Deep inside

Which even you cannot take off

Irrespctive of how hard you try

Your thoughts deeprooted in my

Heart will never deny

They are so pristine so different

So unique

Just as yours

Different hues

Each of the thoughts

Imbibed by you

Makes me more like you

Have you ever seen

The Red Eosin

When spread in water tranquil

And then

It slowly smoothly spreads

With an unseen cadence

In the entire Water

With all its existance

And the colorless water

Slowly turns RED

Deep inside

In each and every corner

And no matter what

The eosin can never

Be taken out of the water

Its an irreversible change

Which the Eosin has made

With its own color

Has painted

Without even knowing

The water in its very own shade!!!!

Home

My dream home lies in your arms

Where time stands still

And Mind is freed

Wee bliss in a satiated peace

Serenity rules over the weary heart
Even if thats for a moment

We know none can ever make us part

I will be will be always for you

Waiting for you to build the home

Clutch me in your arms I want to sleep

Over the miseries lying in heap

Those long long days and even longer nights

Where we had traumatic sleepless fights

I know one can take care of you

More than I can do

I can make you safe and rest for a while

And soak away like a sponge

All the faigue with a smile

The lines of strain

Marking offlate your forehead

The weary heart which needs a nest

The tiring body which needs a place

To rest for a while before it can start again

For another day

I hate to see those lines

Which gives you strain

I know how to take care of them

In a minute plain

May be its just one more day spent in solitude

Would take off all of those magnitude

And then someday I am sure

I will be ALL yours

When not us but time will be at our mercy

Nature will come up with her justice

Forever and ever till death takes its share

I will be in my dream home

Protected in lovefilled care.

You just do NOT know what you are to ME

You made each day of my life

With your alchemy

Made all those mundane ugly stones

Turned into dazzling Gold

With your divine heart and angelic smile

You made me a fairy in just a while

I feel like a princess with you beside

Pouring every drop of love

Every moment even thinking of you

Makes my sordid life a golden paradise.

Are you ok?

Are you ok?

Screams my failing heart
Seems like the world is falling apart
Not being able to respire even
Dying in an unknown tension
Not sure how are you all these moments
Must have been just fine busy with daily chores
But still why I have an uncanny insight!
Some eerie thoughts ringing the bell!
That what if you are not that well...
I wont even come to know and die inside
The most painful agonising death
I have no means and right to know
Whats going on to my OWN other side
The flowers wither fast in manmade wreath
With one to spray some rain drops fresh
And happily see the flowers dry
Looking COOL in the arrangement
They have purchased the flowers and
Paid for the bouquet
So they have the right to posses it
And observe the decay
knowing well with no matter
Of tap water
They shower
Each and every flower
Would still aspire
For just a drop of fresh rain water
Which can make it feel like life
But they would be always denied
Of the most basic need of Life
Deprived,
Each of the flowers would hastily die
But the flowers are bought
So the death is just okay
As long as they
Have to glorigy
MY own purchased bouquet
The world is in an unmatched frolicing time
But my soul imprisoned like a prisoner
As after a grotesque crime
Shackled like the bird in the cage
The bird who owns the sky
And flutters its wings
In an indignant cry
To let it fly
And meet the tranquility
Higher than high
But no deaf ears can hear its scream
Happy to see the bird in iron rim
Heaves a heavy
Sigh of Relief
That after all these efforts
Of months put together
Finally the bird is set to die!!!
In my
Own entrapped custody

Thinking of You

How was the day? Must be as busy as it can be...doing class and presentations, homework, work at home ,class work ,work at class et all... :)

Did you meet anyone interesting?

Did you find something worth sharing?

Did you hear something fascinating?

Did you see something eyecatching?

Did you go somewhere worth driving?

Did you feel something worth shivering?

Did you taste something worth savoring ?

Did you happen to love someone worth loving ?

Did you dream something worth closing your eyes?

Did you miss someone worth remembering?

Did you happen to be the ONE as Meaning f Life for someone?