Saturday, September 3, 2011

Baby

I love you sona.... Tor jonno e to ekhono beche aachi re.... Noy to sotti more jetam.... Love you so very much.... Love you and you and you and only you....

Jaaanuu

Yes...what 2 sedatives n 3 q bottle of drink cudnt do...some vague
open heart surgery kind of discussion with u cud give me some
cure..atleast cure to endure the indignity...n accept the
unacceptable..

I slept..but same in the trance i was keeping on asking for a
cover...he is asking to visit a doc..

But akhon tomar blog pore mone hoy doc lagbe naa i have to go through
it as long as my mind is trapped in it...E5 was nt working..now its
again wrking..

To sum it up following the perfect 28 days cycle..am bleeding n
bleeding v v heavily since fall of evening...

Feeling like fainting without you,,,,
i have to make all of your belongings which hang around me that you
are very far off from them...n they also need to endure as much my
heart is doing..

Yes i was only born for u...much earlier than u...god took 5 long yrs
to make u a perfect match for me..in the process of perfection he
missed the deadline...

Yes no one can ever touch me like you...like you touch my body my hand
my soul my heart my sensistivity...no one cud ever do or can...

Its u who have taken my virginity...

And yes I am missing you..missing my husband in you..missing my best
freind in you missing my lover in you missing my soulmate in you..

Its you and you with whom i have known what is love what is success
what is reward n what is death...all 4 quadrants of life..

If you are my Man and you love me more everyday am sure you would be
able to take me to you to your home forever where i will stay with you
glued and with pride n be the mother of your baby..you can do it n
make me do it..
I will be with you...with all my love..

Love you n take care

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Slept

Did you sleep a little bit? Even though it is discreet. Please let me
know. Love you so much Jaan. Missing you.

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Baby, my baby

Yes, I'm born to make you happy and satisfied, both mentally and
physically, for my entire life and life after. And no one can ever
touch your heart, soul and body the way I do. Tell me if I'm not
correct.
Sotti tui amar life e Magic. Sara rat and sokal khali chot fot
korechi, kepe kepe utechi. Just a talk session for some minutes made
so much differences. Odvut ekta re-assurance. Amar buke guli bidhleo
mone hoy tumi just kotha bole sei batha kom kore dite parbe.
The blog that i was talking about is with subject 'Santi...'
Love you sona, just love you....

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Hiii

She is working now...i realised now i cant do anything means anything w/o u...
E5 was not working for sometme n i went mad...immediately calld u for f1..
Love u so much n also love my dependance on u...

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Love you

Tomar sathe kotha bole praan fire pelam...kirom akta shanti
lagche...kichu na sudhu koyek min kotha...tumil bolle blog
korecho..akhono paini...pore abar dekhbo..akhon aktoo sowar chesta
kori...sokal theke pagol pagol lagchilo..akhon slight btr...

I dont what is in future but i atleast need to talk to u to keep
pushing each day

love you so much
u r just born to love me n me for u

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Santi...

Oh! Ki proshanti.... Sara din e ektu santi pelam re Jaan... You are so very true.... You are the lone person who can give some solace to my wound... No body else.... Tor sathe kotha bolle mone hoy, beche thakar ekta karon aache.... Whether we can be together or not , time will revile... But promise me once thing, you will never stop talking to me....
Amy ektu buke chepe dhorbi Sona, amar buker modhe dhukbi tui? Ami to r parchi na re.... Khub kosto hoche... Tui j amar ekmatro santir jayga.....

Friday, September 2, 2011

Love

Just 2 mins of ur voice...but it made me feel alive...
Ami just blank suye achi akhon..sob janla dorja bondhyo kore..
Am not able to face the daylight
sokal theke karo sathe aktao kotha bolini..refused all calls from ma baba..
Akta bondho ghore mora r moto pore achi..etai thik lagche..baki r
kichu korar strength amar ei muhurte naai...
Brain is not coordinating..
Let me be in the comatose for sometime..

N i need to suffer...
Yes am not able to come out of that room not for anything else but the
indignity of our love...which was the best ever gift of life to me n
we risked our love our life knowing everything it can happen any day
any moment...

Job is imp...but not life..
We left job in most indignified way...but thats still ok...
But the indignity of love is crucifying me..

I want a life with you to live once with you to love you n be loved by
u with dignity..

We will do it... Yes process will be v v difficult n we might
fail..chances of failure will be much more..

Whatever end result is...i love u n everyday i will love u more...even more..

But rt now am not able to come to terms that how i live thse days
without talking to you or seeing you or communicating with you...not
able to sustain...

Porasona to dur asto am not able to think even 2 mins ahead...head
reeling korche..

Love you
take care
dying here n still mentally cheating everyone around who are still
selflessly trying to help us becoz of their true love...
But am not able to...able to keep u out of my mind even for a microsecond...
Coz ours is also tru love...may be even more...just doesnt have the stamp...

We r enduring deathsentence...but love is beyond that... Love is
ultimate reality...
Love u
am finding this dark room a solace somewhat

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Fighters

Kichu valo lagche na, paagol hoye gele mone hoy valo lagto....
Tui moner jor rakh jaan.... Tui to ekmatro amar strength... Jani amader sathe khub kharap hoyeche, amai korechi.... But it's not over, rather it might be a new beginning ....
Lets keep our finger crossed.... Lets fight with the situation together....
1. We have to calm down and come out of that room.
2. We have to forget about the company that we worked for. Remember want Narayan Murty said, "Always love your job (that we loved like anything), not the Company". I'm sure we will do even better in our next challenge, which would be a new beginning.
3. Study and get your self prepared for the Interview. Send the CV to as many places as possible. Update the Monster and Naukri portals. Let start fighting, else the past will kill us. Let admit that we have done a mistake, but that is not the end of road my Love. "Miles to Go before I sleep".
4. One thing came to my mind as a flash. Even Vivek let job without any offer, Ashutosh was shown pink slip. And now they are even more happy in their current job. Then why not us. Even Amitava let the company that he build in his own hand, Anjan Ukil left PwC, which was like his brain child, then why not US can have a better tomorrow. We will fight, and fight hard.
5. I'll never leave you. If not as my legal wife, you will always be my sole-mate,  and best friend. And I do not repent on why we did. I did foolish thing, at the most wrong place and time, but I did that only with my LOVE, I did that with YOU Jaan.
6. We are not going to quit. Never. Fight Baby Fight.

I'll try to call ASAP. Till that time, just keep on fighting with me and for US.

Baby

Getting mad here ... Give me a line that you are OK...
Was not able to reach you over phone....
Love You so very much.... 

Sona

Mone hoche pagol e hoye jabo.... Kichu valo lagche na, kothao ek
jaygay boste parchi na, darate parchi na, sute parchi na, ghumate
parchi na.... The entire equity earned is gone... You are gone,
forever... Is this a nightmare that would be over if I can open my
eyes some how? Or probably not... Tor to sob kichu destroy kore dilam
ami, dream of your house, your status at workplace, your MBA...
Everything that you have earned with all your effort...
You have to get a job for me... Promise me that you will give your
best shot.... I know you will...
Some how i'm feeling very guilty to him and the little angle... They
never did any harm to you, instead kept on trying to help you in all
possible way... Trusted us, and return what i did with you, what i did
with them??? Probably death would have been the right sentence for us.
But keno j more jachi na.... He deserves not to be cheated like
this... And same goes at my end... I'll, offer them the truth, and
already have started giving it to her... Both of us cried for a long
time last night... Ami r nite parchi na go.... Dhongsho hoye jachi....
Kal abar kotha hoyeche o US chole jabe, after the study and I might
move to other city becaus traveling to US is no more an option to
me.... And if we feel, we will go for seperation at permanently...
Jani na asol somoy ki hobe, but kal ei porjontoi kotha holo....
Once you get a job, try to negotiate at your end... Try to convince
about the fact that you are not happy and neither is he, so would he
give you a divorce if you want???
Ami sokal sokal tomay phone kore boshechilam.... Sara rat ghumai
ni.... Ami pagol hoye jachi... Vabtei parchi na j tomar sathe regular
dekha hobe na amar.... Ami bachbo ki kore??? Please uttor dao, ami
bachbo ki kore???

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Hi

Ami thik jani na amar kemon lagche... Completely blank... Thik biswas
korte parchi na, j sob ses.... Chakri, togetherness, all out work
together... Just within a flash... Bomb blast hole ki e rokom hoy?
Jani na, jara blast dekeche tara validate korte parto...
I love you, and i'll always love you... No matter i see you or not
everyday... If i don't see you, i'll just spend my days with a hope
that i'll see you once again... May be next moment, or next hr, or
next day, or next month, or next year, or next life.... My i'll never
quit hopping... Cause with out the oxygen of that hope , i'll quit
breathing.... Feeling shattered... Lost, but i'll come back, only for
you... I have to fight back, if life gives me a chance...
In your own words, Let's hope against hope, we will be together...
Else i'll die with our golden memories, which YOU have giftted me, yes
only YOU my love....
But even if you fail to come out of your cage, I'll be loving you
equally or may be even more, day by day... I'll be waiting... Some
day, any day, if you can get out of every entangle of life, i would be
waiting for you ...
Love you, only you, always and all ways, my Jaan...

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Hi

Am just too worried abt u...
Amader karo akta nervous breakdown na hoy...am too scared for us..khub
bhoy pachhi ami amader ei mental state ta k..

Love you bbs
plz take care

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Love

Have rchd...dont know what exactly feeling...only a vague gloominess
is looming large

while coming ppl were trying to help me on job search using their contacts...
I vehemently refused as o cudnt see him helping under any situation...
I told since both of us are in (me n u) same boat...let us struggle
equal n pls dont try to help me..

He flared up...but i felt good that i cud tell him that am gonna miss you...

He said that means u r still missing him n u ppl are trying to join a
diff but same comp once more...n start from scrath

this time if if thats gonna happen pls start a live together with him..
Amar khub kosto habe but mene nebo..i cant die on a daily basis like him...


Things were tersely n freidnly discussed both ways... But i found if
we really join a same company...it wud be similar reaction both ends..
Am sure both end will say the same ...things will blow out of
proportion n hopefully finally fall in place....but at present none of
us hav anything...so no point thinking of so much ahead..

Just feeling completely lost..
Love u
missing you
n will miss you every moment cell by cell

take care plzzzz just for me...

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Thursday, September 1, 2011

Pagol hoy jachi na keno...

Yes, the worst nightmare ever possible... The same date gave me sweetest Dream and Worst nightmare .... Only a year difference....
Ami jani na, more jachi na keno... Pagol o to hote pari.... Kichui hochi na keno.... Majhe majhe kemon mathat high voltage er shock moto lagche ....
Amar ekhon kichu mathay dhukche na, tomar ekta job na howa porjonto....
Ami du chokher pata ek korte parbo na.....

take the archive file of LN
Pay slips of last 2 yrs
forms 16s
Compensation letters
FWD the resignation acceptance letter to gmail.

 Take the amex, TP in the ibm bag tomorrow....

Love

Feeling devastated..with the indignity life has stored for us as punishment of love..
This is tha maximum indignity and humiliation a lady can have...
I could not believe that a bad dream can actually be so true.. ( ppl says bhorer sopno sotti hoy)
Am i getting superstitious...people are actually right..we were wrong..but our love is not wrong..

Feeling absolutely betrayed..and trapped in the most humiliating moments of life..
Probably we will never be ever be able to sleep even for a minute anymore..never again till such times we respire..
Did we really deserve this indignity?? Both of us have always been good loving and helping to others..
Kano more jachhi na boloto after such insult.. Am I a witch??

But daily indignity niye hoyto ar sotti parchilamnaa..It was hitting on nerves...everyday we used to bleed and die...
Plus none of us believe in taking favors in our life.. and we were slowly adopting of taking favors from the working place...and hence the return..

This was meant to be..jobless on road..and fight begins for a new life without favoritism..
I have imbibed you in me Eosin..Dont worry about me.. You please take care
Love you always now before and forever..

I also want to now believe in reincarnation.. If a morning nightmare can be true ..why not reincarnation??/
I want to live Eosin.. I want to be happy.. I want to be loved by my man my best friend my soul mate  and love my man from Day 1
I want to remain committed to him every moment I give myself to him..
I want to fill our lives in suffocating love..
I want to love and be loved and I want a life with you..

I love you..and will always do forever till I die...You are in each and every cell of my existence..

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Sundori, kothay tumi?

Baby,
Mar khub kosto hoche, toke achre kamre chinno vinno korte eecha korche.... Tui amay chere ki kore thakish Jaan... Ami toke khub beshi miss korchi re... Khub khub beshi.....
Love you Sona.

Mon chilo moner i chaya te

Mone pore aksathe kole bose khawa..khete khete kota katakati..but tao
cholte thake khwanao plus khawa...this was really unimaginable..
Ador .. Adoer opr ador abar ador...kono sesh ba suru nei...
Brush kore eshe u saw me in the blue floral dress...ur jaw dropped...i
felt beautiful as a woman,,, it was perhaps the best compliment of my
life ...ur mesmerized looks...the best sense of belongingness from
both the hearts...

The most beautiful moments trapped in a soda bottle where life bubbled
with effervescense....

Just remembering each and every moment...minute to minute details...

Caressing together crying together...that night i remember u never slept...
U were too shocked by the painful bump on my backhead...
U patted my head and hair for endless time ...i slept off in a trance
melting in you softly ...snug on your chest my head resting on ur
arms...i cudnt remember anything else..
When i woke up in the morning..i found u still unmoved in that
position...u must have gone stiff ur body aching in that bent
position...but an innocent smile on ur lips...
Because i have slept...n u kept awake...for the entire night...

Its too vivid eosin...killing

if that was real then is this real too?
Perhaps u are right
it was all in our mind...a perfect creation of 2 unison mind..in love

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Sondeho hoy!!!

Jaan, mone aache sei tor amay khaeye dewa.... Nijer hate... Room e order deye...
Mone aache amader eksathe prothom ghumano.... Tor amar hater upor matha rekhe ghumiye pora...
Mone pore sei duto nogno sorir, sarata khon ek hoye thaka, lepte saper moto....
Mone aache sokale ghumtheke uthei abar ekprostho bilashi odorer pala.....
Tar por kono rokome ready hoye, doure berono, kono rokome din ta kateye tor kache fire ashbar jonno....
Vablei bishwas hoche na j oi din gulo sotti esechilo amadr life e....
Swapno o mone hoy oto sundor hoy na, seta ek kolponar e jogot chilo mone hoy,
Amader dujoner creative mind e best ever mutual creation probably...
"An illusion of two beautiful minds"

Cloud

We were in 7th heaven...for the very first time in my life i realised
that its so effortless to spend time and life if you are with your
soulmate with your best friend...its so obvious overflowing n natural
to share your mind body soul heart everything with your best
friend...its just that 2 bodies n one mind...its fun to fight its
peaceful to cry n its satiating to make love...
Ar konodino asbes Eosin orom mayabi raat orom sopnil somoy orom aram
er din gulo...
I still remember how handsome you looked drenched in drizzling
rain...waterdrops on ur crowning hair...the T n cargo shorts u came
rushing to me...with a heart winning smile in your lips...saying
'Anything for you love'...
Everything rushing and clouding the mind..bringing tearsdrops of joy n
sorrow together in eyes...
cant think of the trip as u say beyond honey moon...honey galaxy...
Cant take the pain of the memories..they r as brutal now as they were
fascinating 365 days back..
Love u Eosin love you so very much...
The pain is unbearable...feeling like a comatose...of
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Ufff

Baby, gaay kata diche re. Ki j darun chilo sei trip ta. No, that was
not honeymoon, that was something beyond. It was so very exciting.
First outing with my solemate. The excitement of exploring eachother
for the first time. Spending the first night together, sleeping for
the first time together. Eating the first dinner together. Everything
and anything was so very special. We were exploring eachother we were
exploring life once again. And I was you, the most beautiful you in
that ravishing Nightwear. Was stunned by your physical beauty as
well. Can't forget a single moment for a moment now.
"Sriti ese roj dorjate, kora nare r hat pate,
R venge pore kannate.
Utpate hoye dishe hara, tar voy hoi ghor chara,
Deay polaone ashkara, amay."
Love you.

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Time

Whats the best time of calculating time?
When it flies so fast that you run after it and want to pause at every
micro n mili seconds n realize the entire day went by in a flash?

Or you just cannot survive the day n strain counting every nano seconds of it?

Can one person make such differentiator to time whose speed is
universal constant of 1 sec per sec?

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Very low

Janinaaa....kichhu bhalo lagche naa r..khub miss korchi tomay pagoler moto
mone hochhe first thing tomay rcv korte gechilam pagol pagol...
Tarpor aksathe fera aksathe khawa...ur travel in drizzling rain...the
excitement was killing then with ecstacy n killing now with
melancholy...

Just love you Eosin..aj ke akbar dakhao holo naa....
The same city we were born n brot up gile khete asche...feels like an
alien ciry...

Ukil fukil mathay utheche...ato miss korchi tomay....ar kichhu bhalo
lagche naa..

I hate my life...n i hate the fact that i cant stay with you my
life..i need you to survive Eosin.. Aj ukil habe naa..matha jha jha
korche..karor sathe r kotha bolte ichha korche na E5 chara..

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Baby

Monta khub udash hoye gelo re, Yes, our HoneyMoon.... It was WOW!! 3 days, that I'll never be able to forget before I die.... Missing you even more now....
Kheyecho? Ki ki khele?

HDFC thekei newa jay loan ta, ta hole complications kom hobe.... But still we will talk to the Bank of India manager.... Govt banks are still more reliable on the cost front..... Service wise HDFC preferred....

Lawyer er kotha ta bolo, ota khub important....

Love You

Honey Galaxy

This day today
We touched the Honey Galaxy
You and Me
Resting in the dreams are the memories
Rare as diamond and sweet as dreamland fairies
Memories filling up my senses
Dancing in front of my mind mirror
When I close my eyes
And like a phantom vanishing in thin air
When I open my eyes

I could see you smell you feel you all across
The first adventurous days of our Honeymoon

Missing you all over me as I survive like a moss
With the only hope to see you soon!!!

Resending Love



Jaanuuu...
Kichhu korchina...ma r bari eschi babar sathe kotha bolte.. HDFC 10.4%
akhon naki orai lowest.. Ar kono processing fee nebena for our
employment type..
 E barite kaku kakima eseche biyer kotha bolte...am feeling v
suffocated as am dying for my husband here...

Amader biye r kotha discuss korte parena ora?jani parena...

Am dying for u Eosin...not able to sustain...but still keeping up the
endurance as i know tomorrow i would still be able to meet you talk to
u curl up to you...

Kawke atota miss korchi j nijer ajante chokhe jol chole asche...chaapiye

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Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Love You Jaan

Ki Korche amar Gubli gubli Sony Baby ta.... Jake ami pagoler moto valo bashi, and tar thekeo beshi miss kori...
Kothay amar Jaan, Pran, Mon ta, Khub busy??? Gubli Shona Paul Ki korche re....
Amar j ok pagoler moto chotkate eecha korche , r or gayer sundor ghamer gondho ta chete chete khete eecha korche...

Whispering Murmers

To your wide open chest
My fatigued head I rest
I feel cradled I feel protected
To your wide open chest
My tired soul I rest
I feel cared I feel sheltered
All my wearies get absorbed

I feel light
I listen to you heart beats
Bit by Bit
From your lub-dub rythms emanate
A ray of hope of so confident
Thats empowers me to go out
And face the world sturdy and stout

I feel like I can
I feel like I will
I feel like I am
I feel like The Woman
Born for you times byfgone
Only for you
For ages due
I have been there
Waiting for you
I feel the only truth
That I belong to you

To your wide open chest
 My weary heart I rest
I feel snug like a quivering bird
Returning to her nest
The very own nest which will protect
Her, Cradle her to breast
The storms outside may be violent
Battering and cruel and adament
But till such time the nest remains
The bird will find a home back in solace
She will rest her wings in the nest
Gather all her strength
And prepare herself
To fight back the tempest

To your wide chest
My sleepless eyes I rest
I feel the power of tranquility
As if I had never had any
Slightest shade of being stressed

As if my entire world has stopped
In that 6 by 12 square inch of plot
Which is only curved out for me
With special effort and dignity
My heavenly abode my place of caress
My only home my place of eternal bliss

To your wide open chest
My lonely mind I rest
I feel like submitting to you for ever
I feel like time should pass by never
I feel the magical love and her power
I feel like internalised in you till death do us part

To your wide open chest
My everything I rest
I feel the sense of belongingness
The power of your firm embrace!!!






Love You so much Eosin... Since I had to post this my heart was dying to post this all gadgets betrayed..since long..
But I couldnot quit.. resarted the TP 4 times installed everything and could make it finally
I had to pass on my message to you...

Love you so much.. I feel so barren so incompelte without you..

The most intrinsic form of love. ..is that " You cant see your love in pain.. It deep cuts your heart and breaks your ribs ".. Its more traumatic than the power of feeling happy when your love is happy..


Sona

Jaan, ami toke khub miss korchi. Kal tui ektu o ghumash ni. Ami
chotfot korchi ekhane. Jani na, but tui kosto pele, ektu o kosto pele
ami pagol hoye jai.
Ami toke vishon valo bashi re. Tor smiling face ta dekhle amar mon ta
vore jay. Love you so very much. I die on you my Love.

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2E2 pakhi

Ki korcho?do we go for a walk?but ami jani if i was now with you i wud
been in deep sleep in ur arms...so cudnt have gone for a walk.
Love you
good morning

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Januuu

Ghum asche na re..akfotao na...kichutei
Du chokher pata ak hochhe naa ...they r so dry...perhaps sei karone
mukh so fola fola..

Can u make me sleep somehow plz? I know u can do that in 5 mins..

I know these mails r stressful for you but r kake boli bolto...u r the
only person to share my everything...
I dont have anyone barring you Eosin
u have become every relation for me ...from husband to best freind to
soulmate to lover to all time companion

love u my dear

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Raat jaga pakhi

Ghum aschenaa....missing you tooo much...could you make passionate
love to me right now right here...pin me down with all your manhood
make me feel complete n so tired that i simply fall asleep on you like
a tiny leaf.....

Love you
n dont say anything... I know we dont have an answer to each other...
Barring silence n huge huge endurance of time n fate....
Love u eosin with all myself
will wait for u in every way

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Just loved it

Last blog of yours was to strong. Touched somewhere very deep, not
only my heart but even deeper, probably my soul.
Yes, I know you will make me proud, and I'm still the proudest man one
earth to have the best woman on earth.
I'll try to call you tomorrow. Keep the phone on. you.

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My love my life my eosin my babyling

I am missing my love... For the first time in my life i was not
enthusiastically happy on her happiness... I am missing my husband
here with all my mind soul n body with every bit of my existence...
I have no idea how to sustain this huge loooong day without even
hearing your voice so much...
How come u love me so much Eosin that it aches... EOSIN thats really a
perfect name for you in transcending my life...
I am sure you will feel pride with my strenth to deal with the outer
world... I will work on this...
Your love will never let me say QUIT
I LOVE YOU EOSIN...U are the only person in my life whom I have ever
loved just loved... And would strive till my last drop of blood to
stay with you ...its a promise...
I dont care about any formal relation yes most of times i feel bad n
crib for all these hide n seek and constant threat but those are
nothing in front of my love for you...
I am too confident n shameless about my LOVE towars you...I take pride
in the fact that I LOVE YOU MADLY
all these cribings sad feelings are there coz u r there Eosin ...only
in front of you...the moment i think of a moment without you... My
tears dry...n i feel depleted of any moistness anywhere in my body
heart n soul
love
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Monday, August 29, 2011

Can I talk to you for 2 mins?

Yesterday was a Bitter day, but today would be a Better day....
We will go for a long walk and lengthy chit-chat...
I get better orgasm when I talk to you than when I enter you...
I love spending time just talking to you, and yesterday that is what was missing,
and we lost everything ...
Really I dye to talk to you Jaan... Missing you, missing your beautiful lips...

Hi

Ami akhon kotha bolte parbo... But kichu pore phn sw off thakte
pare... Ppl r already awake...now at snan so can spk..

Puro matha byatha korche ...kalke evening theke..
Aktoo komechilo tomar sathe intrinsic somoy katiye....but were soon back..

Missing ur hardness n softness together...
Love you

btw i have a call with Vivk at 10 to 11... Will be working from B n M
today..wont go to D...love

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Jaanuu

Aj anek sokale ghum bhenge gache... Chotfot korchilam bichanay...
But cudnt get up...
Amar mone hoy kalker bhoy ta khub deep e basha bedheche...haunting me..
Sob kichu miliye ghete jachhe sob ...clouded...not able to see any
light thru the overcast...
Love you...
N still breathing for u...

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Sweety

Toke na chotkale amar mon bishakto lage re Baby. Just love you. Little
too much. Ami tor jonno pagol, totally.
Good night and sweet dreams.
Call you tomorrow. Need to hear you to sustain.

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Missing u too much

U r just mine n cant belong to anyone else not even u... Missing u too
v much..love u madly...
Unbearable distance....

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Jaan

Missing you like hell. Pagoler moto mone hoche amader kotha. Thakte
parchi na. Ami tomay khub beshi valobashi sona. Love you so very much.

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Rched

Reached somewhere very far unseen
unmatched with the memories within
off from you by an unknown veil
a burden of existence bitter n evil
will still drag on somehow every minute
with a hope against hope to meet
you at the end of the night
suffering every trauma of plight
in a make belief world of ours
blemish free unscathed of any scars
I still live with the only desire
that someday somehow i will be there
where you would be waiting for me
with outstretched arms n smile divine
at the end of the road only for me
where i will melt in you for eternity

i had been born to bury in your core
of your love nothing less nothing more

just to tell you if i had to bargain life
to get one moment of ur togetherness
i will happily to the fact
to get u in my life in any format

love

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Sunday, August 28, 2011

Magic has a Reason

The Magic is not Me Honey  Its all in your Love
The beautiful pristine overwhelming love you never have
Its all in your mind sweetheart -I am just an object
Love is in your heart so overflowing so I seem perfect

That's the only reason why silly uneventful things
Casts world-less magical aura in every single doings
Its all in your love baby that transforms the mundane-ness
In so unique soul fulfilling once in life loving experiences 

That's the sole reason darling you always see me pretty
Even the ugliest version of me to you seems like a deity
Its all in your love honey that adds life to lifelessness
Brings meaning to the otherwise placid morbid existence

The Magic is not in the morning not in any wake up calls
The Magic is in the waking up together as love casts her falls
Its not the way we have touched before all the hugs embraces
Were just a part of doing them, now love makes the difference

Its not about being with life just for sake of being
What has lacked always was the Love missing -unknowing
Its not that the act of kissing or making love that counted special
But the fact of love in life now makes every time so magical

So it not me honey which you think to be magical in me
Its only that you have seen love now which you didn't see
The day love will be lost or vanish like spirit in thin air
The magic in me or of mine will never be ever there


And that's the sole reason why next moment of departure
You calculate next steps of  life and in your arms to take her
The more you get to get love in all her magical variety
The more you crave for love and all her divine rarity

The Magic is not in me my friend -Its all in your eyes
The same eyes of yours dear where now love resides
The Magic is not in me my honey Its all in your mind
The same mind -beautiful now touched by love so kind




Sudhu tumi

সোনা,
জানি  না , জানতাম  ও  না এই Magic টা .... The Magic is YOU... তোমার সাথে  যত  সময়  কাটাই , তৃষ্ণা  আরো  বেড়ে  যায়  অনেক  বেশি ....  তোমার সাথে কথা বললে  মনটা আরো ছঠফট করে  কথা বলার  জন্য .... আমি  বুজতেই  পারি  না  তোমার  সাথে থাকলে  সময় এত  দ্রুত  কি  ভাবে  কেটে যায়, অবিশ্শ  গতি  তে .... কিছু  বোঝবার  আগেই , দেখি  সময় শেষ ....
এই  তৃষ্ণা কি কখনো  মিটবে  না রে ,  তোমাকে পাবার  তৃষ্ণা,  তোমার সাথে অনর্গল  কথা বলার তৃষ্ণা, তোমাকে বুকে  নিয়ে  থাকবার  তৃষ্ণা, তোমার সাথে জড়িয়ে  থাকবার তৃষ্ণা????
আমি জানি  মিটবে না... এখন  ভাবি  একসাথে  থাকাটা মনে  হয়  সমস্যার  সমাধান , কিন্তু  আমি  জানি এক  সাথে থাকলে এই তৃষ্ণাটা অনেক গুন  বেড়ে যাবে , কমবে  না একটুও ....
আমার  পাগল  পাগল ভালো  লাগে  তোমার সাথে; তোমাকে ভাবতে , তোমার সাথে কথা বলতে , তোমার  সাথে হাতে  হাত  রেখে  হাটতে, তোমাকে বুকের  উপর  ফেলে  পিঠে  সুরসুরি  কাটতে, আরো অনেক কিছু  করতে  , আরো সব  কিছু করতে..... এই পাগল পাগল ভালো লাগার  থেকে আমার  মুক্তি  নেই , তার  থেকেও  বড়  কথা, চাইনা  কোনো  দিনও এক মুহুর্তের  জন্য মুক্তি পেতে ....


তোমায়  পেতে চাই , নিজের  মত  করে, আপন  করে, জীবনের  মত....
দেবে  নিজেকে ? আমায় , সুধু  আমায় ????

Pagoler moto valo lage tomay

Shona,
Jani na , jantam o na ei Magic ta.... The Magic is YOU... Tor sathe joto somoy katai, trishna aro bere jay onek beshi.... Tor sathe kotha bolle mon ta aro chotfot kore kotha bolar jonno.... Ami bujtei pari na tor sathe thakle somoy eto druto ki vabe kate jay, obishsho goti te.... Kichu bojhbar aagei, dekhi somoy sesh....
Ei trishna ki kokhono mitbe na re, toke pawar trishna, tor sathe onorgol kotha bolar trishna, toke buke neye thakbar trishna, tor sathe joriye thakbar trishna????
Ami jani mitbe na... Ekhon vabi eksathe thaka ta mone hoy somoshar somadhan, but ami jani ek sathe thakle ei trishna ta onek gun bere jabe, kombe na ektuo o....
Amar pagol pagol valo lage tor sathe; toke vabte, tor sathe kotha bolte, tor sathe hate hat rekhe haat te, toke buker upor fele pithe sursuri kaat te, aro onek kichu korte , aro sob kichu korte..... Ei pagol pagol valo lagar thake amar mukti nai, tar thekeo boro kotha, chaina kono din o ek muhurter jonno mukti pete....
Tomay pete chai, nijer moto kore, aapon kore, jiboner moto....
Debe nijeke? Amay, sudhu amay????