A distant new year

Togetherness is far-fetched and harnessed by some other official
driver programs... My New Year resolution only lies in my strides to
step out from other peoples life and stay alone...
I would be happy inside knowing if not with my personna of love I stay with me and my unfathomable  undying feelings of love.
Last night I wished myself these lines before by the strike of 12 and went to bed.
The entire day again I would be at peace to be just with myself.
I only wish you a Successful New Year... Success in whatever you do..
Be it drafting your own life or acting your own life... Success that
really matters to carry on breathing and not quit breathing..
Love you very very deep from my intrinsic container of feelings called 'heart'.
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Love you jaan

Sweety pie, its a new year. Really don't know what is waiting for us
in this new year. A new year with only emptiness? Or a year of
togetherness! Not sure, only thing that I'm sure of is, my love for
you will increase day on day.
Pagoler moto chotfot korchi, jani na e vabe ki kore sustain korchi
ami. Love you.

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Happy New Year Love

 

Love as in Butterfly

 Love as in Fairy Tale

Love as in Ghost 

 Love as in Kiss

 Love as in Soul

Love as in Meaning

 Love as in Hand

Love is Life



Love you

Shona, i'm missing you so very much. All the time I'm thinking of you,
you and you. I just can't take you off from my mind for a micro
moment.
Jani na eta ki katachi? Eta r jai hok life noy. I have touched life
through you, even if that is for few moments. I know, what is life and
how to make it large. But this is even worst that existing.
You just take care. I'm very worried.

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The Canonization

For God's sake hold your tongue, and let me love,
Or chide my palsy, or my gout,
My five gray hairs, or ruined fortune flout,
With wealth your state, your mind with arts improve,
Take you a course, get you a place,
Observe his honor, or his grace,
Or the king's real, or his stampèd face
Contemplate; what you will, approve,
So you will let me love.


Alas, alas, who's injured by my love?
What merchant's ships have my sighs drowned?
Who says my tears have overflowed his ground?
When did my colds a forward spring remove?
When did the heats which my veins fill
Add one more to the plaguy bill?
Soldiers find wars, and lawyers find out still
Litigious men, which quarrels move,
Though she and I do love.


Call us what you will, we are made such by love;
Call her one, me another fly,
We're tapers too, and at our own cost die,
And we in us find the eagle and the dove.
The phœnix riddle hath more wit
By us; we two being one, are it.
So, to one neutral thing both sexes fit.
We die and rise the same, and prove
Mysterious by this love.


We can die by it, if not live by love,
And if unfit for tombs and hearse
Our legend be, it will be fit for verse;
And if no piece of chronicle we prove,
We'll build in sonnets pretty rooms;
As well a well-wrought urn becomes
The greatest ashes, as half-acre tombs,
And by these hymns, all shall approve
Us canonized for Love.


And thus invoke us: "You, whom reverend love
Made one another's hermitage;
You, to whom love was peace, that now is rage;
Who did the whole world's soul contract, and drove
Into the glasses of your eyes
(So made such mirrors, and such spies,
That they did all to you epitomize)
Countries, towns, courts: beg from above
A pattern of your love!"


""" Ami tomake ei kobita tar kotha boltam..
ei link tao dekho:

http://amolife.com/reviews/top-20-most-famous-love-stories-in-history-and-literature.html

Read this poem.. loved it

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Jaan

Down the darkenned solitary lanes
Holding the cold window panes
Standing with me and myself
Split between self and belief

The ripped off heart cries invain
In an inflicted grotesque pain
The bruised soul caged alone
Cutting deep beneath the bone

The promise of love hovering high
Even sight of togetherness seems to die
A reflection of the intense pain lies
In the blank reflection of each others eyes

Love or the loss of it whoever wins
Can we be together by any means
Screams of life succumbs to death
To mere responsibility deep beneath

The call for love from my life
And two little hands holding to strive
The innocent complete dependence
Or the lifeless lifelong existence

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Jaan

Kaj sesh? beriye gacho? to our home which nested us for few days of life stolen from each olther's life??
Mar kaj er pagol pagol oboshthya..kichhu milche naa..
gada porte habe to know set up the Interface Structure..
I have long lost the power to do any work alone..now need to do that so painfully horribly alone..

Where are you?? Jano sob jama kapore tomar fragrance..pagol kore dichhe..maxi porte giye hotat kore illusion holo je tumi ki khub kache?tahole pechon theke haat diye joriye dhorcho na kano???ato gondhyo ki kore asche?
smell of pure adrenaline rush...in every corner of the maxi...
tarpor bujhte parlam..the smell has stayed back whereas the person is far far from me..
not even in my periphery..nowhere.. I cant reach him whatsoever..
The passcode of reaching you accessing you is not given to me..I am trying to access you with a wrong key of life..though I know the entire treasure belongs to me and just me...The key is lying somewhere who doesn't know the value of the treasure inside..
And the trasure is lost without me..lost amidst eternity..

Khub kosto hochhee..sriti gulo chepe chepe dhorche..ghare mukhe gaaye nokh bosachhe akhon..jole jachhee gaa pith buk sob ..jekhane just 13/14 hours aage tumi touch korchile..

BV have become Chita this time..never knew..jama change korte giye dekhlam..
and Tuni teo anek anek bytha,which aare the only bliss in the dying desperate pain..

Love You
janina thik koto khani..

Jaan, love you

Good morning jaan... Yet another long fly back to the lonely city... Where I'll be waiting for you...
Feeling very down... Yesterday you have asked me to stay away from you... For my Safety... But am i even close to you some where?
I'll take care, but not sure how... You know that it life plans something for me, through some mare human faces like him, I have no power to escape that... Hence no point worring...
You just take care of your health... Your pressure is God damn low... Please eat well, no matter how bad it feels, just for me....
Call me any time after 6am today, when ever possible...
I love you...
By the way, I have read all your comments... I never knew that the Criticism/ feedback of any art work can be thousand times better than the creation itself... Loved each and every word, which were thoughtfully selected to make a average thing larger than life....
Love you once again.... But honestly felt delighted knowingly that you have liked all your gifts so very much....

Love

I dont how r u...since am really not well...
Pagol hoye jechhii..puropuri..
Both mentally n physicall absolutely numb in pain plus the fact u are
nowhere near..added to excessive cramps and anemic kind of bleeding..

He left home in the evening..no idea where he went..
But am v v scared for you...in case out of madenning anger he arranges
something plotting against u...
Please b careful jaan..
Am v v v scared for you..v scared..
Just leave this city and go off..where no one can get hold of you..
Dont worry about me..i will sustain somehow,,
love u n plz for heaven's sake take care..
By bro might try call u etc..dont take any calls and dont tell anyone
which city are you at present..say Delhi or any other metro whatever..
Love u so v much

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Pagol hoye jachi

Khub thik korechish, j aggressive chili. Tai bole marbe? I think you shold report to police and that would be helpfull reference in future.
I'll take care. Don't worry. But, toke marlo keno, ami mene nite parchi na. Matha dau dau kore jolche.
But jotoi chesta koruk, you stick to your point that he is putting false Allegations, as I was in the town and you got the information from proper Source.
Next week I'll come back on friday so that i can meet you on saturday. Tell him there is a chance that you can be there at Blr on friday, so that we takes a flight on saturday morning. I don't want to travle on the same time. Call you tomorrow, early morning.

Fwd: Hi

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From: AKKA RAIN <akkainrain@gmail.com>
Date: Sun, 27 Nov 2011 14:23:23 +0530
Subject: Hi
To: Akkainrain.cloud@gmail.com

Aj honey galaxy trip niye sanghatik hoyeche bari te..and one very old
gift of urs...the diary "a real poet in the artificial world"
as decided I was v aggresive...to show me the details why is he so
much headlong about my trip to HG..and i was very pushy.

I forgot I was dealing with a gender who is much stronger than me in
physical strength. The quarrel went entire night and late morning..
He hit me and my nose got cut in specs and it bled profusely..

This time I will keep police informed even if no action..but will keep
an information..
Kalke details e phone korbo..

U please take care...all ppl are very sensitized here..

Dont take any phones from unknown numbers if possible...and be very
careful dear..
I just dont know how to do what to do..
Thankfully ma baba aj bikele fire asbe..
Ami aj flat bolechi j i want divorce at any cost..but ami jani kichui
habe naa..oi maramari chara..

Anyway be cool...only time will heal and seal and tell what to do..
I just hope i can go out on the proposed trip to get some relief..i
realized ato gulo bari ache but amar to sotti kare kono thakar jaygao
naai...
U take care...love you so much
and even more missing u so much..

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Gifts or the thoughtfullness

Kuchi I loved them all ..ALL the Gifts..but you know for sure which one penetrated deepest..

But I am dying and moved at yor thoughfullness..I was feeling like hugging you for long hours and kiss you longggg before you can gasp for breath at the choice of each of the gifts..but as always we run terribly short of time..and I end up being numb and dumb!!!!

1. the watch its terrific.. and you are terrible..How could you ever ask for my permission to wait and buy..jodi haatchara hoye jeto porrer din..!!
Its such a beauty elegant and poised
I loved it.. I am crazzyy for Rose cold collections and its just that you scanned my heart inside and knew it for sure..
I never had a COLLECTION Watch..all were mundane stuffs for me..
But this is so very exquisite so "forveer new" so very dear and so very pristine like the pearls embedded in it..
I loved her!!!

2. Camera
Again I stood bewildered..How could you dear ..just ami jete pari (nothing s finalised as of now) seta bhebe ii tui pagol hoye geli..You went ahead and buy the sexiest camera for me..
Its so sleek,,Its so red Its so trendy Its so very mine..
I just dont know what are you made up of..
Human or Inhuman

3. By the way on a lighter done the freebie with the Cammy is yours!!Pur all earned freebies like the head phone / muffler are always meant for the other one.. This time no exception..
Its a very nice desiger Gent's Watch and a Wallet again..?
Should I hoard it for my son in law :))))
Will give it to you next time we meet!!

Ato jodi bhalobashih kano amay dure rekhechish Jaan..kache tene ne naa..
am dying here..amar akhon bhoy hochhe janish ami ar kono din mosit hote parbo naa!!
Am v v scared inside coz I feel very parched and dried up right there ..sob somoy mone hoy kichu akta atke ache ..and it will never come out and make me permnanently dry like winter leaves in fall season..
Spring will byepass me as am ignoring the best gift of spring.."Love"
Ami JS k akta ei hypocrit doityo dano r ashikhtto jongol e fele rekhe jete parbo naa..
atleast not at this tender age..but if you cant think of something magical with your magical power of love then 3 of us will die everyday!!!

I know you are also equally tied up and have no vent for thinking any solution.. but neither can I stop sharing with you...
You are also my only friend with whom I can fight till death ..achor kamor ja khucshi akmatro tor sathei korte pari!! R amader k ache bol!!
I will be there with you at every step of your life no matter what..but cant live like this orchids and cacti for the rest of the life!!!


Love You Jaan..with all my life!!!

Incredibly Credible

I cant help but be stunned at your creativity,I cant help but be stupified by your thoughtfulness..I simply stood awkard knowing not..
how how someone can love so much..treat her in such special delicacies of life....
Are you REAL??

The photo is mesmerizing..will make the spectator wonder for long about the creation and its beatific tunes behind it.. It reveals all yet says nothing at all...Its something by which you have taken your artistic persuits to altogether new heights!!!

1. The Subject ::
The subject itself is not just a woman lying undressed..but much much beyond that..let me try compose my feelings as a spectator to the painting..Its all about the Eternal Flame --the flame of undying love flame of waving paasion and flame of timelss waiting for her Love to hold her and take her in her reassuring embrace..

2.The Sur realism::
The part facelessness..You tend to know who is it!! yet cant say..everything is kept unobviously obvious in the canvas..the painting has a very very subtle soft caressing mystery in it..
It gives a chance to unleash your imagination to any extent yet you cant say it all..

3. The Pose::
The woman is dying to be get loved and caressed every muscles in her body acehs for that ..her slight uplifted face pines for a kiss her jutting out nipples longs to be hold and squeezed and caressed for long..her cross legged lying down position indicates her timeless yearning for something hard and crushing inside..and yet she theres no single loving hand to wrap her around..
You know but you cant claim anything..that's the wonder of the painting

4. The Melanchly Tone::The photo says of the helpless surrender of the Woman for love and the strangling pained heart of the painter, his indignant screams his strength and vigor which remains caged !!! yet reveals nothing at all..

5. The Choice of Colors::
Deep and bright hues with shades of darkness prevailing depicts the personaa of the painter..his neural state his unexpressable extreme passion his stressed mind and also the intensity of his love which remains bottled(subject of the painiting)..

6. The imagination:: Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..Its so true..The photo reveals that!! The unseen curves and crevices which the subject doesnt know, unknown angles at what her own body parts lie..the long lost objects of love and adoration ..
It softly portrays everything through the eyes of the artist.. Yet says nothing at all..

7. The Love :: which the photo doesnt say loud and clear but proves in the onset of colors and masterstrokes of paint and brush..
How can you draw someone when she is ligt years away and have no reference in front???
How can you miss your love so much and put your desperation in such vivid expression of colors only???
How can you spend long long sleeplees nights tired and fatigued and exhausted and nailed and crucified and yet give birth to such a marvel..???
How can you love someone so much that you always feel this is nothing I can still love her more and more and more??

I will keep on wondering and I will never have an answer..
I dont want to have an answer...through my pea nut size of brain!!!
I am too deeply moved and shaken from inside with this thoughtfullness and expression of that ONLY on a CANVAS!!

You are not a Human

jaan..
i nevere knew if a person can love someone so much...
can feel for someone so much
can care for someone so much
can stretch for someone so much
can actually see the unseen self of someone so much...
ur paointing left me stunned today...breathless speechless motionless...
it captivated me...ur artistic self made me cry smile and just wanted me to celebrate life and love in joy and yet kept me numb in pain..
as u say i cud never answer whether am the luckiest or unluckiest person in the world love...

Wish me, It's my birthday....

Good Morning Jaan...
Many many happy returns of the day. Today is the date when you did arrive for me in this world.
This is the day, when I got my life on the face of the earth. That is why, this is also my birthday today, Love. So, wishing us the best on our mutual birthday.
I love you. Only yours, forever.

Love You So Much

Love You so very very much..I have kept shut..
And will do what u said attack of defence..
But he suddenly asked so was slightly offguarded for abt 10/15 secs..which is by reflex..when he asked about HG and not HY..
You just take care..
Feeling emotionally crippled...Tomar jonyo ato chinta hochhe koste more jachhii..mone hochhe matha fatha chire fete beriye jachhee..
Tar modhye ei sob ..ami just nite parchilam naa..so blurted out to YOU again..
Am sorry darling..didnt mean to add to your tension ...but invariably failed..as I always speak my heart out to you..
Was there any more interrogation from your end any further?Just asking to find out if they communicated or not..

Just Take Care..
I am just hoping that I am able to be in HG onre more time till you are there..
Beyond this ar kichhuu bhabte parchinaa
Love
Take Care

Jani na

I'm not sure. Not able to think of something much. My flight is at 6:15. Call you at 5:30 tomorrow and will discuss about this. Till that time, just keep shut. And also remember, that attack is the best way of defence.
Love you so very much. Amio r parchi an. Just ask him, why do I show you any proof? Why are you asking for it? First tell me why are you asking all on a sudden, then I'll answer.

URGENT

I dont know whether these people have spoken or not...that you are there..
He wants to see some email/system msg /bill something of my BLR stay..
I said I have none as its internally done..but I will check if I can get something..
Please suggest somethings..if possible from your end..Am Not able to think or try put in something..
Things are pretty wrong..And I am not trying to mend up as well...
Just ar parchinaa..
Take Care Love You
Be very very alert

Back to be gritted by BAU not greeted by LIFE

Classes?i have reached safe n sound physiclly but crippled emotionally..
N back to the virtual world of blogging even as fresh smell of your
body your hands around me are still somewhere lingering..
Confused whether to this a a reality or that was a dream...or vice versa..
Love you so so very much
not able to write much

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Akta Lamba Blog

Reached Guest House after a long fight..Husband k meet kora j oto tao sohoj noy seta bujhte parlam..
Campus e geiyei janlam..oder Over booking ache tai they have shifted my stay at outside Guest House..3-4 km off the campus..They had sent a mail..but I havenot checked my mail since yesterday..
Luckily the cabby whom I left was on his road and he again came back and safely reached me the external GH..
The cabby was helpful in contrast to the Inhouse Staffs.

Esehei jama kapor chure fele..puro nisuto obosthay tomay blog korchi..BV gulo ha kore takiye ache blog er dike..

Ami bole diyechi.. Guest House e incoming calls allowed noy.. calls nite gele reception area te giye nite habe..else mobile
So that part is well taken care off...atleast as of now..



GH ta khub akta lonely place e akta hillock er opore..thanda thanda ..and pretty near to the airport..

Khub khub miss korchi toke..ektoo khani warmth er jonyoTumi asle bindas thakte parbe..this is open to All..kichui check ins nei..
I was just wondering tumi jodi akdin say Tuesday/Wednesday kaj bujhe ratre ekhane asho and abar sokale HG te chole jao and attend office in B shift ..
Think about it if thats an option!!!

Akta Indigo ache 19:15 to 20:15 from HG to HD fare 4485 (only few seats left).
jet Connect 19:10 to 20:45 4230
ar akta MMT special between 20:45 to 23:45 2990 (lowest price but airlines er naam nei ..cause of lowest price.

Next MOring Indigo ache 8:30<>9:30 at Rs. 4001
and Jetlite 8:25<>10 at 4001

Think about it..
If we can earn one more night of tiogetherness with these options..

The lonliness is killing..Missing you too intensly too deeply somewhere between..but also somewhat the lonliness is also satiating when I can miss you LOUD and CLEAR..
and can blog you naked on the bed..and wait for you in the same manner..
Just Love You
And dying to be in your arms

Reached

Reached..kirom adbhut baaje laglo tomay chara travel kore flight e.. Boddo aka aka laglo..khub beshi kosto hochhilo.. somehow still living wth the hope to touch thy life..in ur arms.. Love u svm. Just pull me to u with all ur might cant bear myself a

Hi

Boarding..take care love..
Will reach at 7.30..
Phm koro tarpor
love u

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Hi

Packing dun..will leave for ccu airport by 3.flight at 5.25... Reaching 7.25..
Love u..there r so many things to tell u and share with u..
Missing u too much
tomar class kamon cholche ?
Love u a lil too much..

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Khub Bhalobashi Tomay

Khub bhalobashi tomay..khub khub beshi..khub kosto hochhe..buker modhye
ar khub tibro jontrona hochhe ...feeling so restless..so scared so doomed so lost so pained so unnerved so strained..and yet so loved and again lost in love..
so proud in love yet so deprived of the most pride possession
so complacent in love yet so deserted
so matured in love yet so immatured
so flattered in love yet so shattered

janinaa kibhabe kothay kokhon kamon kore tomar buke abar jhapiye porbo..pagoler moto mukh ghoshte parbo tomar buke haat e arm pit e kadher niche..jhule thakte parbo tomar sathe..u know just hang around

You wait for me for eternity counting every moment
I wait for you to be with you to touch my life with you sitting on your lap wrapping my hand around you...hoping against hope and dying every moment expecting a better united tomorrow..

i have to come.. you just pull me with your invisible force to you.. i believe in you with complete trust n faith..and supersaturated love..

ami lokkhi hoye thakbo..i promise.. wont give a chance for you to complain..
wont hit you below the belt by falling ill or eroding myself off ..
I have known it too closely today..
My love for you and your love for me are to precious..too very precious..

Ami valobashi jake...

Good morning my Love... Today is my last day with you here at our city of birth, before I fly to our city of Love, with a heart full of hope that you are going to come there and meet me once again for another Honey galaxy.....

Yes, you are so very right... We are actually so deeply sad due to the seperation that we have suffered in last 10 days and for the next 7 days at least, that the togetherness for few hours seems non-existent in between... But I know that once I'm gone, you will curse your self for not holding me back and loving me during the transition....

I know you, I know how much you love me... And I also know that how confused you are while handling the array of emotions that erupts from your heart for ONLY me... You get immensely confused to prioritize your overflowing emotion for me... Whether to show the undying love first, or to show the unbearable pain, or to cry for unmanageable sadness, or to manifest the OVIMAN, you are completely in a mess... As the result you forget to speak, desperately search for words, and end up shredding those priceless tear drops... But the time flies away silently... And in some time I'm no more infront of your eyes... And then you realize that you, in the process of expressing and saying everything, you actually didn't say anything, not even that how much you love me and how badly you care for me... Bas, sob dukho, kanna mathay uthe jay tomar, kotokhone amay dekhbe, thik kore kotha bolbe tar jonno pagol hoye thako, r chotfot korte thako amar jonno... Tell me if I'm wrong...

Kal amio o vishon sad chilam, rather ekhono aachi... Kerokom jeno ekta domchapa kosto hoche buker modhe... Vishon kosto... Bujte parchi na keno... But hoye e choleche... Vebe chilam tomay dekhle kome jabe, but tomay joriye thakar por aro bere geyeche... Amar tomay cher jete eecha korche na go, ekdom na... Jodio jani j tumi ashbe okhane amar kache, but still ektu o jete eecha korche na...

We will meet today... Tomar sathe dekha na kore ami jete parbo na... But koto khon time manage korte parbo ta jani na... Love you

Khub beshi valobashi tomay, kablar moto valobashi...

Good morning

Love..pls cum a lil early to offc.nd to tak to u
kal ke raate i literally drank..
I was so indisposed he offered me a drink i took it in the hope that
will ease my pains a lil..but it dint and i became even more
indisposed...
Was awake till 3...he too..
No fights he tried to comfort me..but it was so obvious
rejection..that ended up in candid 1:1 bitter conversation..
Love you
just aay i need to talk to u..
Just talk
love

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IMP

Please keep some 2-3 hours free for us tomorrow during the noon
Somehow manage .....
Its v important..We might need the car as well..
Though I will keep mine..99% (couldnot get the stickers today closes at 5)
So please keep yours in case required
...But mone hoy dorkar probenaa..

Today everything I mean all the other human emotions were just suppressed and wrapped in an envelope of deep blue oceanic sadness which I was unable to fathom..and my expressions of love also lost its transformation in the chaos of all the held up pains and plight that dint get a chance to surface..
I suffered so much in this agelong absence of you that I almost abstained life altogether I really had no idea "how was I to your question of how are you" and when today I was really in your arms I honestly couldnt believe it to be real...Being still in that trance and lost state was unable to step out and touch the passion of reality!!!

Thik hochhe na re..Just hochhe naa
Love You
How much I have no idea..

BBS

My Town??
I will only have a town of myself even if for a day if that town permits us to stay together without worrying about people sneaking in our life..
Will wait for that...

Wait for me at HG.. with hugs and kisses and warmth of life..
I also will wait for my turn and hope to be in your town my town our town to meet my love my life my hubby
Janina kabe kibhabe
Just cant think about it..
Only thing I know we have endured and suffered a little too much denied of every small little bits of happiness and peace of life ..In return I truly wish if I get to stay some few weeks with you at the very minimum just to touch our own lives which has long left us..

Love You
Just Take Care

Baby

Jaanu, I'm back in your town... Finally... Train gada late koreche... Esei kono rokome 30 min e ready hoye class e jete hoyeche... R parchilam na, matha tolchilo... Last 2 days travel korechi....

Ei class theke firlam... Ekhon abar ekta project neye boshte hobe... Plus jama kapor sob kachte chapeyechi washing machine e... Getting prepared to visit our land of honey galaxy... Will be waiting there for my Wife and life...

Love you so very much...

Hi

Much better now.am out with baba for a his lawyers appt.
Will be here for the next cpl of hours..
Parle phone koro..jodi options hoy..
Feeling horribly down and lonely n v v lost and deeply scared somwhere..
Mone hochhe kothay akta dube jachhi..
Jar kono tol nei..
Kalke ratre khub bhoyer bhoyer ajob sopno dekhechi..
Akdom lost lagche
love..
Take care

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I die on you

Jaanu Buri amar, utechish? Peter batha ta ektu komeche? Crapms ta ki ektu holeo kom? Na ki bereche?
Ami train e ekhono... Toke pagoler moto miss korchi... Tor koler modhe matha guje suye thakte eecha korche... Vishon, tor peter modhe mukh guje, tor gondho nite nite, mathay tor anguler bili khete khete... Aram pete khub eecha korche...

I'm missing you like anything... Love you so very much... Toke dekhbar jonno monta chotfot korche... Toke khujte khujte chokh duto batha hoye geyeche....

I love you... I want to spend days and nights with you, in your arms, wrapping your beautiful body, in your warmth...

Hi

Idaning to amar anek lengthy periods hoy..ajo bari fire mostly for the
journey thru almost fields...(gram er dike rasta bolte kichu nei)
dekhi the exhaustion has led to heavy bleeding with huge cramps..
Fever cramps lonliness plus the fact we r nowhere accessible to each
other is really brutal and killing..
Akta khub khoto bikhhto moner obosthay shute jabo..
Majhe JS drawer theke tomar dewa se brush wala eraser ta bar koreche,,
and amar sathe ota nebar jonyo jhogra koreche..
Or boktobyo ota Santa Cl or jonyo eneche..XMAS gift..so its
hers..while i hoard it..

I was thiniking that u are also like the surprise elemet of love in my
life like Santa..who comes with bagfull of gift for me called life at
times very rare defines my life...my eyes glitter and sparkle my lips
lit up in smile i feel my natural self and then he vanishes in thin
air leaving me behind in a black pithole of frustration lifelessness
and neverending undefined waitng for another chance of relive my
life..

Take care
just bhalo lagche naa..suye porchi..aktoo baad
love

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Way Back..

Anek jor eseche raastay...atota rastar dhokole ba season change
hoyto..ba whatever,,not really in R&D moe for RCA of fever..
kicchhu bhalo lagche naa.
Sob kichu vague lagche..
Every day is like more n more intriguing..whether by time we are being
pulled apart more or drawn together none of us knows...
Khub kosto hochhe re..mon ta khun khub beshi lonely r udasin laagche..
FM e "hoyto tomari jonyo hoyechi preme j bonyo" gaan ta hochhilo..
Konodino parle lyrics gulo abar shune dekho..
Amar aktoo raag hoyeche tomar opor..raag naa abhiman mite be better word..

Ami esechi akdin barate tumi khushi hoyecho...abar tumi gechile trip e
ami khusi hoyechi..
Jak o ektoo bairer alo batash pelo eibhebe..ghorer dom bondhyo kora
poristithi theke..
Wow..
Amader nijeder trip konodino habe kina jana nei..tai hoyto eirom
respective family family oriented trip s e..we have to be discreetely
happy..or perhaps V UNHAPPY which we are scared to share incase the
unattanded burns and cuts and wounds open up and we are not able to
sustain!!!

Tumi Honey Galaxy te jabe shune one component of me is already posted
there..but remaining part is v v lonely apprehensive scared and
mutiliated coz nothing is in our control...the string is in the hands
of a mysterious lady or lord and we are dancing to tunes like a
puppet..and our love intensifying every day without any hope of
togetherness and certainity!!!!
Love you...just take care
matha ta fete jachhee...
Asombhob jontrona korche..thik hobar noi apatoto ami jani,,

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Love

Akhon jor anek kom...but aj beriyechi..sokal bala..jor ache alpo...but
managable..
It was a sudden decission...
Anita r bari sundarban debipur jogodhhatri pujo hoy..okhane
Just parchilam na ar orom bhabe thakte domchepe and turse fight every
moment..nervous breakdown er moto state praay..

JS khub excited gram dekbe bole..
will come back tonight..
Just let me know when u r back...n if we can meet somehow tomorrow
even if for 5 Mins

just love u...dont know how much

ps. Neither am enjoying the journey nor into it..am lost in u..
Neither u r near me nor that i can tak to u...but feeling horribly
lonely n guilty..lonely i understand but guilty..why..
I dont know?
Tell me do u feel the same?give me ur hands ...n tell me
do u feel the fire burning?
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Jaan

Jor eseche khub aaj...anek koste office korechi...from 8.30 till
6.30...praay tolte tolte bari firechi...ekhane to military school er
moto..just 5 days sick leave..
Akdom bhalo lagchenaa...
Power to withstand ta breakdown korche slowly..while on missing u so intensely..

Kalke boro kore blog korbo...
Tumi kokhon pouchabe?eshe janio.
If possbl will try to call
there are so many endless discussions with you..
Sudhu kotha r due clear korte hoyto 10 days kete jabe...onyo sob to cherei dao..

Love you...love you so much..

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Miss You

Khub miss korchi re toke.. am just not able to sustain this separation anymore..
Feeling v v helpless and fragile.. akta toka marlei churchur kore sob kichu bhenge chure guro guro hoye jabe..I will simply crumble into pieces..

Erom bhabe bor k chere thaka sotti sombhob? and when I know I have the world's best husband tailor made manufactured ONLY for me...with all my detailed specifications..so very perfect and well made that to meet Customer's delight God missed the deadline of delivery..but he was ecstatically happy and marveled at his own creation..

Love You so much...khub kosto hochhe khub khub beshi...thakte parchi naa..
blog e sotti sotti likhteo parchinaa..j kotokhani kosto hochhe...We have crossed that phase when you used to blog our feelings..

akhon ami dekhechi phone , blog ba sms e aar feelings narrate korte parina amra..coz we miss each other too much, too intrinsically..
virtually miss you bolle aro beshi kosto bere jay...sob kichu bhenge buker opor achre porte ichha kore..

buker modehye mishe giye "khub khub bhalobashi tomay" bolte na para obdi mone hoy jol khaini saradin!!!
Just Take Care

Jaaan

I cant bear one more week w/o seeing you...ami janinaa..things are
moving out of control..
Just think if u can manage something..
I dont know how what when..
I have to fly to HYD and work from there from Monday to Friday...
No is not an option here...already said to delay it by one week or
make ot bangalore..

To which the answer is NO from them..
Probly next to next week or early Dec I will be in BLR for some
days..again..but this week is HYD..
the SAP lead is going to spain next Friday for 2 wks and wants to work
being colocated at Hyd for the next week and then again he would be
back in BLR nov end and would want me to go there..

Check with your end if you can work from HYD next week.. Even if personally..
Just in case if at all possible... Or we can travel overnight to BLR
HYD next week..

Whatever it is...i cant spend one more week w/o seeing you..already
dead here in seoaration...cant take it any further..

Plz do something..am not able to think..
I totally fall back on you...
Just ar nite parchinaa

love you so v much...just dying every moment

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Jaanu buri

please, e vabe bolo na... I was not busy and immerse in phone call, I was trying to create a pretext about the call from accenture where using that isolation, I can talk to you...

I was also dying to call you, but failed... and now you know the reason...

Love you so very much....

Take care....

Hi

Waited for your call for a long long time...and also called up 4-5
times in a hurry as i was running out of time..
u were so busy and immersed on the other call..

Anyway take care..i will be putting this off at the verge when i would
not be able to rcv it anymore..you can call me in the other number for
a min just to let me know u are fine..
love

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Good morning love

Worried like anything...just dying in tension...about you..
Are u ok?plz update a line...
Am really not able to do anything not even able to breathe without
knowing how you are..
Plz drop a line
love you so so so very much
take care sona
my buddhu baby singh

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Jaaan

How r you?am no good...in an awfull state of mind...entire day talked
to you alone..numerous threads of discussion...some of which i got
answers when i spoke to myself in your voice n some remained untold..
Just dying to talk to you when my mind is far from being agitated
actually in turbulence of emotions...so many array of thoughts some
important some very trivial but to me so much worth of sharing with
you.....dying to share with you but not able to force myself n update
in blog...
Hope u had a managbly better day..
Take care
love you so so very much..
Good nite

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Insights

1. That was neither fever nor shivering..
I have faced this before not once but several times when i miss you
too intensely the mind knows i can be nowhere near you but heart n
body being dumb fails to contemplate the fact and manifests its
helpless frustrations in this format....i might be wrong but amar erom
hoyeche...3/4 times...

2. Am not worrying just dying... Worry kore kichu korte parbo
ki?nothing...u are in safe hands and custody of your family..
Neither can i carry you nor can i worry..so simply dying inside..

3.they are predictable ppl..but not only predoctable something beyond..
This is called "porecho joboner haate ..khana khete habe sathe"
syndrome.. They will not give you any space just that..

U can perhaps relate aage aage tumi bolte par anek anek somoy on
smaller pretexts or ma er bari giye thakto....but akhon ar ak din o
jabe naa..
One reason is in their absence we might communicate..
But also there is a deeper reason which is they know even if we to do
not communicate we spend better time being alone left to solitude n
non intereference..
Which is impossible for them to acknowledge that their companionship
is is no more desired even if we are individually alone..
And thats why they will never give that space to us...
Simply ghare chepe bose thakbe... Till you cant move ur head and
suffer from tremendous neck pain bearing the double weight...

Take care love

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Baby, I'm good

Baby, sorry sokale call korte parini... amar sorir ta ektu kharap chilo, tai uthte parini sobar aage... Tumi please chinta koro na, temon kichu e na... Kal rat 1 tay suyechi.... Hotath dekhi majhrate vishon vishon kapchi, duto combol neye o.... Maa pashe suyechilo, amar kapuni te maa er ghum venge geyechilo, tar por aro duto lep diye amay chepe chilo, tarpor aste aste ghumeye porechilam... Asole oi anti biotic tar effec e khub weak hoye geyechi mone hoy....

Ami address ta Vishwa k mail kore deyechilam E5 theke....

Ami jantam, people will invariably do this... NOJORBONDI... Sob e predictable... They are all very general and predictable people... Charo.. Valo lagche na..

You just take care... Love you so very much...

Love

Ajke mon ta khub beshi udash hoye ache..something beyond being sad..
blog e likhte ichha korche naa..kichui details e..may be effect of hormones..
Tomar address wala mail ta ami akhono paini..pore somoy pele ok directly pathiye dio or else let me know by sms when you send it to me..I will communicate to Vishwa..whichever possible and convenient for you..

Things are getting more and more and more constricted with every passing day..
My timings at new place of joining is from 8:30 till 6:30.. and people have already adjusted their own office schedules according to mine..one week in advance....
Ami sotti bomi kore felechi..hotat kore..eta jene..
Things are not difefrent ..they are all expected even you told me that and we discussed it.. Tao bomi hoye gache..really dont know what exactly went wrong hearing the info!!

Pet byatha aj kal puro period ei kome na.. Its a contunious phase now..
Joto khon Tyelenol er effect thake totokhon akta trance state maintained hoy and then again the intensity and reality of the pain bites..like all and any other traumas of life..

Blood report e Haemoglobin chara onyo kichu thik thak ache..
HG count ta kichu ta kom.

Ami hoyto aj saradin blog korte parbo na ppl have taken leave to spend time at home as if kalke theke ami bhoyanok busy hoye porbo ar baritei firbo naa..Life will change upside down..
serom akta gesture e..
tumi address ta pathale (amake ba Vishwa k) amay akbar janiye dio..

Love You Take Care.. Misssing you every moment and sub moments...
Wish you a managably better day!!!

Good Night

Hi Jaanu Buri,

CA keno, tumi j khane bolbe ami chokh bondho kore jete raji aachi....

Amay Viswa call korechilo aaj, tumi ok address ta diye dio... amar purono barir address ta dio....

Ami amar address ta mail kore dichi tomay tomar mail ID te... tumi ok deye dio...

Amar oi "Ami vebechi tumio o Vacation e" bapar ta eksathe khub anondo o diyeche r montao kharap koriye deyeche, why? You know both the reasons....

Ami thik aachi, tumi chinta koro na... just love me and wish that I can take you in my arms as soon as possible...

Love you so very much... Kal sokale call korbar chesta korbo tomay, SS ta songe rekho...

Ekhon pet batha ta kemoon? komeche ektu? Blood report gulo ki bolche....

Love you jaan, Missing you .... pagol er moto....

Good Nite

Love You take care
hopefully tomorrow would be a lil better and a little less painful day though the magnitude of solitude remains same...
the blogworld conference is from Nov 3-5 Los Angeles CA. Jabe?
Just Love You...Love You so so very much

Vishwa NIIT :)

Viswa Called up several times.. to know about your address and our contract paper..
It was a long story.. they did only sent my contract and yours was delayed..and I said either we will start working together else not...

So he was asking where to send your contract letter to me..
I was not sure which address you want to recv so I said I dont know his address..and he is on vacation..
Let him come back and I will discuss with him about the contract at length and then only I can send you the signed copies..To which he replied that "I thought you are also in vacation and I tersely said NO".. :)

Anyway after you are back we need to close this NIIT and if you get time you send them your address details or let me know which address you want your contract I will communicate to them accordingly..It will take about a week

No need to call taking pressure..I am just about ok DO NOT WORRY..
Am not well and down its true but that doesn't mean that I am weak and crumble :) You know that I am Even stronger when my husband is not around...

Love You
Take Care about you..am a lil concerned about your health and state of mind..after the accident trauma...

Baby I love you

Baby, you just don't worry about me... I'm managing myself some how... Yes, the accident was very unfortunate... And her condition was horrifying...

Bad luck and me is synonymous... Only person who can make me happy and make me feel protected- is YOU....

Waiting and counting time to see you again... Feeling very depressed... You are suffering in pain there and I'm not even able to talk to you...

Love you so very much... You take care...

Call

Am all by myself..parle akbar phone koro..iff (if and only if possible) feeling very worried..dont know why though.e.
boudi k to ami chinio naa..but still feeling very very worse.
khubii kharap lagche..
ki kore holo accident ta?
You please take care and come back safe..feeling horribly down..
and mssing you intensely..
Love You so very much..feeling like am waiting for you like 14 long yrs of banobas..

very worried

tomar kopale ki shanti nei kothao giye akfotao?
Every moment something or the other horridest scary incidents following you
everywhere wherever you go

amar akdom bhalo lagche naa..
Kichu bolar o to nei...
Ami thik achi..jerom thaki ei 5 or 6 days tomay chara ar ki..
Ajkal to notun upodrob thikthak clear hoyna kichu and 3 4 days cramps thake..
Khub monta kharap hoye ache khobor ta shune..
U just stay safe v v safe..come back safe to kol...
Mone hochhe bairer places suit korche naa..
Just being superstitious..and helpless..

Somehow manage things gritting teeth n be back..
Love you so so so very muuch and worried like hell..

Good morning shona

Good morning jaan... Kemon aachish tui? Sorir ta ki ektu thik hoyeche? Ekhon ki ektu valo lagche?

Amar sorir ekhon thik aache... But ekhaner khobor valo na... Kal sara din hospital e chilam... Boudir paye legeche... Serious injury... Hatu theke khabla mere mangsho uthe geyeche, 8 ta selai poreche ... Ami r dada sara din ei neyei dourechi... Tourist place, tao abar Sunday, kichui pawa jay na...

Anyway charo...

You take care... Love you so very much...

Good Night

Good night jaanu..
Suye porchi...khub cramps hochhe and intense pain...pet theke pa obdi
abosh abosh lagche,,,,

how are you?how was today?did you feel a lil better?matha r wound ta
thik ache?take care
love you so very much..
Love you for ever n ever
yours only

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Someday Sunday

Yes another lloooong drab horrible torturing sunday..
Ami konodin shorir kharap bolina but aj sotti shorir ta kharap..
Kal sara raat jege...chitkar chacamichi 99.99% monologues..but ghum to
ar hoyna..hence bhor 5 ta obdi du chokher pata ak korte parini.. It
was only when the shouting of alcoholism ceased i took an alprax and
sought help from the medicine....
Aj asombhob matha ghorachhe n tremendous neck pain...

As u said its phase 4 of the cycle when he tried to be to be v v
hunkydory n i protested vehemently that the fight broke out...
Anyway...this is my day to day life ....kobeo mukti pabo kina ba adow
konodino pabo kina janinaa...
But i will still grit my teeth n bear this hooliganism till such time
i dont have a new home if at all ever i can have only n only to
protect my baby...
She will be nowhere without my shade..

I just wish against all my wishes that the new company has frequent
travels short but frequent to get some taste of freelancing life...

U also take care...dont strain much ...your head injury needs a lil
rest and destressing..
Try give some

dont worry much abt me i will sustain somehow..at presesnt we are in
the deepest of darkest shades from every possible angle and need to
withstand each n every bit of it without any ray of hope near or
distant...
I cant even dare dream of a sunday someday when i will sleep the
entire sturday snug in ur arms and wake up cuddling in your arms on a
pristine sunday..
Love and only love you and love only you

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Amar pran vomra

Good morning Sony baby... Another drab Sunday... When I'm missing you so intensely...

Please, better you don't ask about my days... They are pathetic... When some one is on a trip to one of the beautiful place on earth, but fails to figure out what exactly is he doing here, it's the most pathetic situation one can be.... Every one is anticipating that I'm sick, and the head injury might be bothering me, hence a person like me is unusually quiet... But I know that is the actual reason... My projects are actually my life savers, I'm completely submerging myself into it...

Anyway, both of us are in equal situation ... One is at her place, other one is some place else... That is the only difference...

Eto koste matro ekta din katlo... Long way to go...

Na re jaan, tor blood pressure ta sotti khub low... It's actually scary... We will visit a specialist as soon as I meet you there... I'll not take a no from you... Dorkar hole amio dekhabo karon AMRI e pressure mepechilo 90-130.... Dujone dekhabo... Tor khawa dawa barate hobe... Khub obhela korchi tor sorir take...

I love you... Very much worried about your health... Baki test result gulo janabe... Weight koto ekhon tomar? Komeche na bereche??

I love you so very much... Just take care and love me....

Twilightrain

Missing u intensely..and love you so v much..
Dont worry on the low pressure its just temporary..emnite with the
level of tension we accomodate normal expectation is high bp....so
averaging out it wud soon be normal..
:)
how was ur day..
Am just about surviving...just hoping to be in ur arms somehow someway
someday...

Take care
good night

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Jaan

Sona, just take care.... Eto low pressure... Amar khub chinata hoche re... Love you so very much

Good day

Have a good day love..
Try keep out of tension as much...
He came with me to apollo..for the med chk up..had a big fight related
to that..i compelled to come on my own...but dint happen..

Anyway most of the tests are done ...waiting for the next sets post breakfast...
Have come for breakfast now..

Blood pressure anekta kom eseche..
55 by 90
rest all ok...
Blood reports will come later..

Love you take care..
Dont worry much about me here..i will manage somehow..

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Wow

Uff, jaan... Bachali... Kal ami jantam offer letter ta asbe, but sara din pagoler moto wait korechi.... Finally ese geyeche... Love you so very much...

Medical test, bah!! Yes you need a full body check up... Khub valo hobe ei somoy hoye jabe... Keep me posted...


Love you so so very much baby... You too take care...

Love You So very much

Love You Jaanu..
Take Care .. Wish you have just a safe noise free trip nothing more nothing less..
Have got the App. Letter from Wip. late in the evening..
Since I sw off all internet connections didn't know when it came until Rashmi called me up much much later..to inform about the Medical Tests to be done asap.

Joining on or before 2nd Nov. post completing the medical tests.
Tomorrow will be going for medical tests early morning...Will not be able to update the blog as I will not carry E5 in front of others..Will share details once I am back.
Also Will share with you App. Letter details once you are back.
Love You
Yours only

Babuli

Jaan, good night... Ektu o valo lagche na re... Tui ki korchish, khali se kotha mone hoche...

Ami train e ekta alada seat neye bosechi... Baki ra sob onno kuup e ,, ami alada ... Ek mone sar din ekta project er kaj ses korechi, laptop e...

Nijer moto chilam sara khon... Ektu o valo lagche na...

I love you so very much...

Take care and good night...

Jaanu

Baby, I love you, love you so very much... Khub sabdhane thakbe, till the time I'm coming back to you...

I'm really sorry that I shouted on you, but you know that I'm also being tested patience...

Love you baby... Khub chinta hoche tor jonno... Missing you... Just love you....

Wipro r news ta elei amay text korbe...

Love You So very much

I Love You so very much.. I don't know really how much!!
You are the first Love and only love of my life :: As per my theory love happens only once in lifetime else it doesn't rest of the world is made of relationship..absolutely digital..as many other bullshit theories of mine ALL or NONE
Dont ever question my love for you ..never..ami bolleo tumi korbe na..just korbe naa!!You know that I cant take anything negative words from you..
I can face all the negativeness of the entire world..,,kadteo parinaa karo samne barring you..jar jonyo loke amay witch bole je ato kichur por chokh diye jol pore naa..ki mohila re baba..
So ami jodi kono muhurte khub helpless feel kore kichu negative bolio ba you have to endure that!! You know for sure within 5 mins I will succumb..

Even jodi kokhono aksathe thaki..tokhono naa..

We never express our pains to anyone else in the world that is our genetic trait even to each other we always try to suppress our stigma of pains..
The tip of iceberg is always that the other person sees and the rest is inherently felt deep within and which we rightfully refuse to discuss..

You know ami akdom numb hoye achi..I told you over and over again..that I am so fragile and so pained that am I don't even have the power to talk/speak discuss in the fear of breaking down..

But still at times we fail to do that right ??and instead of direct confrontation like other people we are stupid to get into self inflicting pain mode.. You know this awkwardly similar trait of ours for sure and perhaps better than me.. I need not elaborate neither in any mood to do so. !!

Just 2 lines.. tumi akbaro bhable naa na j kirom kimbhut kimakar poristhite amay fele rekhe jachhoo..in every respect every step of life be it personal or official..
oto gulo harsh strong bitter kotha bole chole gele!!!
Just vanish in thin air!!


This long long week and the weekend jekhane official personal heart related mind related each and every matter I have to simply die and face alone...and also ensure things are not blown up out of proportion by whichever means such that
1.Our love is not humiliated once more in open public and
2.Other sets people who don't even matter to me have a peaceful trip..( I don't care about you so keeping you out of this loop)

And if that means at certain tiny aspects to come down to terms and keep people pacified at this end I have to I have to grit my teeth and do all these things which I would have never done at other times..

And over the entire period of time and you would be so very far off in some distant
island..simply unreachable..

I know normal days eo ba kothay pashe thako.. but there is still a difference right? atleast normal days e khub kosto hole ba problem hole ami atleast jani you are just a phone call away or some hours away..whatever it is you would ensure you would call me up and take me out of all my concerns worries pains or equally share the emotions of some rare species called happiness..no matter what..

Sobai tader kotha dukkhher kotha wish er kotha frsutrations er kotha sundar kore bolte pare..akopote..may be coz those are "legal" so..

We can't by nature also as well as per law!!
And we fail to understand each other end up hurting even more..

Just Take Care..amar matha jha jha korche... Its better you are off samne pele mere feltam!!!!

Dying to make love

I love you... Matha ta tolche na duniya ta bujte parchi na... Just toke feel korte parchi ashe pashe... Chulta khola, shampoo r darun gondho asche, sara gaye toe pagol kora gondho ta, ekta deep cut nighty pore soyong maa durgaa amar samne... Ki tar ruup, ki re ruper chotta... Ami pagol hoye jachi...

Tar por sob khule fele, sesh sutota porjonto, toke nishpeshon korchi amar sorbosho diye, sompurno powurush deye... R arame , abeshe tor dom bondho hoye asche....

Mone hoy nesha ta ektu beshi hoye geyeche...

I love you and only you... I love everything of you...

Sweety pie, you are only mine, and one day I'll claim my property from the rest of the world...

Love you so very much... Fuck you deep and hard, really hard....

Oh my love...i just wanna die in your arms.

Khub akta kosto hochhee...thik bojhate parchinaa kirom tibro intense
pain ta..sudhu matha ta blank out hochhe na kano janinaa...
Perhaps u r able to somewhat block ur senses with the aid of the
alocohol,,,am not able to..

Love you likhte ichha korche naa blog e
kole bose duhaate gola joriye mukh ta buke tene niye ghare r kache
chumi diye nokh gulo chule r modhye dig kore kane fishfish kore bolte
ichha korche bhalobasho na plllzzz....anek anek pagol pagol kore
bhalobasho...
Amar kache dress tao chokhe vashche dujoneri ...seat tao..ghor
tao...serom dress amar nei tor o hoyto nei...

Now that am a lil hazy with the pill...sob kichu chokhe vasche...in
utmost vividness...only u are nowhere reachable...
amon bhabe jaate next moment e more gele mone hoy this wud have been
the best possible time best possible way to die!!!

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I Love You

Sonu baby, ami berolam... Sorir ta khub kharap lagche... Ami jani eta serious kichui na, just mental problem... Ami toke ekta gota week access korte parbo na, sei voye ei sob hoche... Don't worry...

I'll keep the aircel on till the time I can take call... Please call there if possible....

Ami kal sokale call korbo... Tui call nebar moto state e thakle SS ta on rakish... Else SW off kore dish....

Love you so very much jaann...

Missing you shona...

Morning jaan

Jaan good morning,,
shona plans might be shifted a lil bit..most probly ppl from kalighat
wud be bak by 8.30 or 9...so if i leave after this with the excuse of
giving bhog to ma r bari can meet u longer..
So u can come out of ur home around 9.30 say..without
rushing..targetting to meet around 9:45..

Or else delaying is difficult from ur side then we can meet around in
the mornng like tuesday for abt 10 mins..nearby..

Let me know whichever possible from u..

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Love You

Jaan, Love you so very much... Missing you even more...
Ami kal sokale tomay call korbo... and earliest bereye jabar chesta korbo... Jabar pothe dekha kore nebo tomar sathe... Tumi maa er kache chole asbe by 8:30am...

Love you... good night... take care...

Missing you

Khub kosto hochhe ...very very deep..
Tomar to aka thakar kotha naa...amar o na...
amar sathe aksathe thakar kotha..life celebrate korar
kotha...togetherness e dube jawar kotha..but here we are dying simply
craving for each other...without any hope of meeting or speaking to
each other anywhere..

Akhon to phone er verbal communications o amader against e jachhe...

I knew you were alone for a substantial period of time i just knew it...
Kintoo edike amar amon caged condition j ami nora chora korleo amar
individual steps follow kora hochhe...
chari dike aatoo alo..ato khushi...never meant for us though...parked
for the normal children of nature,,

wipro niye chinta korini..it was a little sad fyi..
Am just missing my loving husband..
Jar sathe ami chipke thaktam..jar kache theke hate mehendi portam, low
cut sexy salwar kameez kintam ,.khub sajtam...ar saradin khub
passionately ador khetem nijeke puro miliye diye tar modhye...haat
dhore thakur dekhtam..taake moner moto kore sajiye ditam..diya ditam
amader chotto bari te aksathe..joriye dhore ghumatam, shantir
ghum....ar glowing plump bou hoye komor joriye proudly blushing wife
hoye barate jetam...

But nothing of that sort gonna happen..
We will sink our night and days our passion our lifeblood in darkest
gloominess...and tear us offf... Give explainations to our phone calls
or bare minimum moves of life to reach out to some legally bound
counterparts..

Joy goswami r line e:::
Kal ki habe kali ii jane ..kal er ghore shoni!!!!
i will try to be at mom's place in the morning...evening would be
difficult..as people have leave till monday...i also dont have office
whose shelter i can take..he will be going to Kalighat early morning 6
o clck and come back around 10... We can meet in that slot if u can
leave for office say around 9.
Thik over it an let me know...u can call me up tomorrow if
possible..phones will be on..
Love u n dying for you..

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Jaanu

Ami tana sara din tomay call try kore geyechi... The fon was switched off... Er majhe kon fake put kore cell on kore blog kore deyeche sona ta...

I'm missing you... Missing you so very much...
Dying to talk to you... Aaj barite onekta somoy eka chilam, nijer moto...

Wipro r ta neye chinat koro na, ota thik hoye jabe... Amader to soja vabe kichu hoy na, tai etao hoche na....

Love you jaan... Just take care...

By the way, most likely kal eka office jabo, jodi hoy ferbar somoy ami tomar sathe dekha korbo... Let hope for the best...

Jaaanu

Amio kichu korchi naa....oi r ki....just kichhuu bhalo
lagchenaa....vague lagche..
U just take care...
Intensely phone korte dakha ta is really a lil cause to hv tension
around..u need to answer kake phone korchile etc...
Timelines are weird n v v uncanny...
Be aware
ekhaneo same tensions cholche..
He is planning to move to ground floor flat and cleaning spree is
around..and tension quarrels etc.

I dont know how when where I can meet you..things are very dicy n volatiele...

Till now no news from Wip... They are on leave today n tomorrow..so
nothing can move as of now...

Am feeling as lost as u can imagine..cant even speak to u for some
moments to ease the pain...
Love

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Baby

Jaanu, Ki korcho? Ami just kichu korchi na... vabla mere boshe aachi... Kichu korte parchi na...
Sokale amar Sasuri Bazar e geyechilo... Amay naki dekeche ami khub intense vabe phone e kotha bolchilam, tai naki dake ni... I got to know after coming back home... I little tension is going on around that... as usual... tired of every thing...

I love you... Missing you... need to smell you to breath again properly... Jani na seta abar kobe hobe... Waiting for you..

Kothay tumi?

Jaan, kothay tumi... Ekbar sara dao... Please ebar ektu contact koro... At least an SMS... Dying in tension...

Love you so very much...

Love you jaan

Kichu bujte parchi na... Sob ki rokom ek e pattern mene hoche... A very uncanny resemblance ... Last year er ek e time, tor barite sei jhamela... Catastrophic situation... Tar modhe amar trip... Ek e destination... Khun uncanny lagche re...

E dike maa bar bar fon kore khoj korche j amar chuti holo ki na... Ki j boli decide korte parchi na... Tor offer tao golay eshe atke aache... Uff, ami r parchi na, ekdom valo lagche na...

E bar jodi jai, and maa, dada and boidir samne abar sei aager barer moto nightmare fiire aashe, ami ta hole pagol e hoye jabo... Sojjer to ekta limit aache... O jeno kichute na jante pare ami out of town... Matha ta chire jache re...

Please give me a call for 10 mins when you have time... I really need to talk to you before I finally say yes or no to my mother...

You take care... I do not know how... I'm really very very worried for two of us... Under this mental pressure we will not sustain much long...

Wipro offer ta close koro, ask them when you will get the hard copy of the offer letter and the other details of joining like joining time and contact person....

Worried like hell... Feeling trapped in life... I really don't know what kind of game life is playing with us, and where would it end? Probably with any of our death!!!

Love you so very much Baby...

P.S. inspite of all this, you were looking extremely beautiful today in that red dress... Chokh ferate parchilam na...

Love You

Love You Jaaan...
call korte parbo ki na janinaa..prochondo jhogra cholche re..sei ak routine ak pattern..calling up parents etc..
new baynakka is JS er mathay haat rekhe promise kora that I wont communicate with you in any forms..
R na hole he will commit suicide etc and write you and me are responsible for his death..and ruining his life
JS k ghore niye giye bolche j ami ok niye berie giye tomar sathe thakbo..and amader itor lifestyle e o nosto meye toiri habe..moreo jete pare..because we will not take care of him..
Telling her tor ma more jayna kano rather than being somebody else (read your name)kept..
O bolche j na ota to amar ma tumi kano bolcho more jete...I love ma..
She cried like hell..fupiye fupiye kede jachhe bechari.
feeling sick at nerves...
Amra hoyto sotti happy hote parinaa...Is it that Shona??to be happy you need to have legal permission?? Think about it!!!

Tui long drive plan korechili naa?? You will have plenty of them with your legal family while being on trip ..and everyone will think YOU are happy...as THEY will be happy and LEGALLY wrapping YOU with so called care and comfort..YOU are SUPPOSED to be HAPPY

Happiness is not our cup of TEA.. we will die like this..

I am telling you..if at all thats an option tui study ta complete kor..and I will simply pack and go..and then fight out..loop er vetore theke fight kora aombhob..ar jekhane every step we are getting caught by public in wrong foot when emotionally we are drop dead down..

Our love getting raped in public every instance..ami nite parchi naa ar humilitaion..of our so precious love..
Oboshyo tui deputattion e gele the other venom of our life will follow you wagging her tail acrrying her legal power..
so i really dont know and cant hope much!!!Lets just die..

Dying for you

I have reached. Please call as per your convenience. I love you and love only you...

Khub mon kharap lagche. Kichu valo lagche na. Amra ki ektu o khushi hote pari na re jaan!!!

Updates??

what do you mean by sob kichu thik ache??
Thik nei..ki thik ache na ache ami janinaa ..ami thik nei,,just nei..
Am tired of dying everyday.. cats and dogs jhogra hoyeche,,,prochondoo..
Am simply fatigued and weary.. If only I could get some peace somewhere..

We were (mostly he was) quarreling for long long times..saying so many things.
Was telling me j ami koto niche gechi .coming from a good family etc ..
wagera wagera..breaking the family home and ruining so many lifes..including yours'..
Was telling n number of times j tumi amay several times refuse koro..reject koro..tao ami kano somostyo self esteem khuiye tomar pechone pore thaki..
I have upfront told him..that ami ok chara bachte parina.. tai ok phone kori..
and it doesnt count to me what is feelings for me..
I get immense amount of peace in him..in confiding in him..and I cant live without communicating with him

And can never survive that day..when I would know I will never ever get to communicate with him..

Things went out of proportion...we fought like anything ja hoy..
amar details dite bhalo lagchee naa
feeling extremely down..
more so as probability of meeting you tomorrow becoming more and more bleak ..feeling too caged too indignant..

I might not be able to reach Salt Lake tomorrow..shedding all off.but I need to meet you to survive..
I can go to Mom's place 8B beauty parlor anywhere..tell me a place and meet you..during the morning 9 AM??
If you can make some options...
ami jani parbe naa.. You also are caged have no EXCUSES to come out just like that..
We cant go out somewhere JUST LIKE THAT>> WE NEED EXCUSE to LIVE our LIFE even if its for 10 mins..

kalke habe naa porshu habe naa.. tarpor din o hoyto habe naa (Thursdays being nightmares at present) Friday tumi thakbe naa till next Friday..jobe firbe tarpor weekend tarpor next Monday dakha holeo hote paree..coz we will again take the shade of our Office Umbrella ...


Perhaps need to drink tonight to keep me knocked off..
Talk to you tomorrrow..

Love you so so very much...beyond everything..
Not asking how is your wound.. I dare not ask YOU!!!


P.S>> I have thought about deeply and I am sure ELOPING is the ONLY OPTION if at all else we need to die every moment ..roasted in bonfire alive!!!!

Jaanu

Jaanu baby,
Ki korchish re shona... Sob thik aache to re... Khub down lagche... Please 1 line update dish baby... Khub kosto hoche re...

I love you

Hii

Call at ss if posbl in the morning ...both will be on though...wish to
start the wk with your sensuous voice..
Love n kisses..

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Good Nite

Love You Janu..shuye porchi..
will wait for you on the other side of being awake someway somewhere
Love

Love you jaanuu

I'm not good either... Blog korteo valo lagche na... But tao majhe majhe blog check korchi jodi tumi post koro...

I need to hear you sweet voice... Waiting for tomorrow... Love you so very much... Take care...

How are you Jaan?

How are you shona..
amar khub mon kharap..just like that bhalo lagche naa akdom.. feeling so very lonely..and parched,,
Take Care Love

Need to love you not blog you..

Feeling horribly down jaan

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Love you feeling down

I knew it was a deep cut..iit diye thetle diyechilo mathar oi jayga ta...
Nahole skin level e injury hole oto bleed kore naa...

Khub khub mon kharap korche..akdom bhalo lagche naa..kanna pacche
remembering every minute thing

pore kotha bolbo..khub kanna pachhe
kichhu korte parchina akhon..blog korte bhalo lagche naa

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Love you jaanuuu

Dressing done... Back home...
Lokta dekhe bollo kota shelai hoye chilo??? Mone hoy wound ta besh govir e hoyechilo... Anyway, ekhon onek improve koreche... Thursday te chan korte parbo boleche... Anti biotic ta khub strong and valo....

Love you, you take care...
Drive safely...

Jaan Updates:

E5 was auto switched off I never knew...mone hoy bag e chaap pore ba kichu..ba hoyto ami kokhono off korechilam ON korte bhule gechi..
Anek ratre suyechi to..otota kheyal korini..
Plus haate poka kamre rash gulo r jonye alegra kheyechilam..otay mone hoy khub ghum paay!! :((
Sorrrry jaaan..kan dhorchi..I am feeling so horribly sad to miss your wake up call..In fact I was awaiting it in my adha tortured sleep..SS was deliberately sw off to avoid conflicting calls..

Reached the venue..aj khub trendy dress kore esechi..dress to Kill :)
Dont get J ....I actually thought of you while dressing..The thought just flashed in my mind...
Since yesterday every step we are always just few steps away..If by chance we get a chance to meet..
Habe na..but still..

Tomar exam aj daruuuuun habe..
you know why? Coz I got to notice I love you more.. raastay aka drive korte korte aschilam..and I was missing you like my heart is not in the car trying to reach me running after the car while my body was painfully driving..

Reached the venue in flat 17.8 mins..
But the melancholy driving was not bad either coz this is a life gifted by you to me!!Independance take charge of life as far as possible?? Falling down but trying to stand again..may be you fell down again but still you keep on trying to standing..
was the first to reach the class..
Love You Jaan..Love you so so very much...if possible give a call any point of time in this streamless motion of time molecules..
Will wait..with all my love

Loveeee you

Baby, Good Morning...

Sokale uthe call korechilam, onek bar... Tor sob phone bondho chilo... Maa er bari chili, tao tor sob fon bondho chilo, sorir thil aache to jaan?? Little worried...

Wish you have rocking sessions today as well, and build up the queue of stories that you are going to share with me....

Amar batha kom, folata aache.. Exam ses 1 tay. Ferar pothe dressing koriye firbo... Dont worry... Just love me...

Khub beshi miss korchi... Sara gaaye naak dhukiye tor gondho sukte eecha korche... I never knew someone's smell, only smell can give me such a strong erection....

Love you so very much...
Only yours... Forever

count

next time keep a count. .. eta besh thikthak legeche..
abar mail er moto habe na to??thats the only fear
good night
love you soooooooooooooooooooooooo much...
only urs cuddly

Kisses

Good night Sony...

Ghumiye poro Baby... Ami suye porlam...
10 kisses on lips, 10 each on Budhu and Vutum... 10 on Silky Tuni...
10 on your neck, 10 each on both shoulders, 10 on the sexy pachu...
and a bucket of 100 on rest of the body...
This is just to start of with before a elaborate love making...

Good Night... Love You, so very much

Reg Byatha Kome GIyeche

I dont much trust you about your confessions on health :)
good j osudh kinecho!!!
What about Dressing..kalke to 11 theke exam!!!
I need to see to believe..which is difficult :(
amay ki akta poka kamreche haate..kirom thikthike moto hoyeche ota theke..baba osudh ene diyeche...lagiyechi..

Mon diye poro..Love you and would keep on doing that..
Will tell you a story tomorrow..(not the trainer one..separate)
Love Me
sobar aaage j aage shobe good nite kissie diye shobe!!

Batha kome geyeche

Fire esechi... Oshudh kinechi, onek gulo dokan khuje tarpor peyechi... Exam thik chilo...
Ekhon kal ker exam er jonno porchi... Onek pora baki... Tumi e-learning kore nao mon deye...

Amar sorir ekdom thik aache, chintar ektu o kichu nai... You just don't worry, just keep loving me... That will completely heal me in no time...

Love you so very much sona... Kal 11 am theke amar exam.... All the very very best for your tomorrow's session... Hope you enjoy even more...

Only yours...

How are you baby

Exam kamon chilo?Kalke sokale dressing korabe mone kore and osudh kinbe ferar potha...without fail.
Class was really wow!!! Trainer was effective..I really loved the class..
The trainer has a strange story which he shared with the class..Will tell you when we get a chance to speak..Class was still 6:45..
Reached sometimes back..
abar ektoo elearning niye boshi..JH ra South CT gache with her mamia and cousins Date..
so free..

You take care...and would you be driving?amar chinta thakbe..mathay batha korche akhono anek?na aktoo kom?

Love You Jaan
Take Care Please

Love you only you

Wow!!! You loved the class. I loved that fact. Even happier now.

I'm good. In the class.
Love you and take care.

Drive safely.

Only yours. Pore sob details e sunbo jaan.

Hii

Loved the class..really loved it..
How is ur exam?
Love me.

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Love

Yes u r v correct....ami akdom akmot...

What i meant is since you are not well just dont take encourage any calls...

Kothay kotha baare..so simpli avoid ad ignore things which are
unimportant and not related to us..

u should speak minimal now...and that applies to everybody... U just
need complete rest..ad rest your injured head...doctor tomay eta
boleche hoyto to be in bed rest...
And for head wounds u should not speak and listen much just to put ur
brain/head at peace..

Kalke tomar barir ashanti niyeo amar ak comment chilo,,,j just rest..
Ur health first..

Osudh kheyecho?porashona korte parcho?
Dressing korecho?legeche naa khub?.. Bleeding hoyni to aar??
Remember aj osudh kinte habe amader!!!
Plz update me...worried as hell..
If possible give me a call..anytime possible.
Khub chinta hochhe about ur dressing etc.....take a pain killer if
possible..just to ensure sanity for exam...
Love u jaan..more than me..
Just love you..
Chintay more jachhi

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R parchi na or nakamo nite!!!

This time you manage... Or paglamo r jonno ami onek suffer korechi... But r ami entertain korbar mood e nai... O tomar kach theke koifiyet chaite pare, but amar or kache kono koifiyet debar kono daay nai...

In case he call me up, Ami flat bolbo j amar tomar sathe kono kotha hoy ni, tumi amay call koroni, amio o kori ni... And more over he can't ask me any questions as I'm not answerable to him...

I have enough entertained him in past, in the fear that he would torture you... But later found out he did that anyway, no matter how I treat him...

Hence this time I'll not fall pray to him anymore and simply deny about any telephonic conversation with you in recent past... Dujone enough somossay jorjorito, r or nakamo nite parchi na...

Love you so very much... Take care...

You make sure that you stay at your moms place today... Else tumi bari firle o tomar sathe abar jhogra korbe, and then would call me up to disturb me... Please don't go back to your place today... Karon kal sokale tumi emnitei bereye jabe... R tumi samne na thakle or amay call korar kono motivation nai...

Jaaanuu

Jaaan just be on guard..things r not right at my place..also saturday..
U r not well..am really really v panicked for you..
Just relax study n dont take up any calls..
Have ur medicines...
I have told that u were injured and in hospital from where u called up
and probably now as well u are v sick..
So dont call him...
In case he does ignore...
Am out of home so have no control over things..but class tao shanti
mone korte parchina..
U just take care..
Love

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Good morning Love

Valo nai re sona, ekdom valo nai... Monta vishon khushi and udash hoye aache eksathe... Tomar kache chute jete chaiche, toke kole tule nite chaiche... Pagoler moto lagche, eksathe thakte eecha korche vishon...

Sorir thik aache... Mathar folata r bathata bereche... Hater batha tao khub beshi, injections er jaygatay... Else sorir thik e aache, chintar kichu nai...

All the very best for your class... Love you so much... Amar jaanu... Always yours...

Good Morning Love

Honey how are you shona?Lil better..khub mon kharap laagche..2 din tana dakha habe naa..kothao hardly habe...

sokale uthe ektoo e-learnings gulo niye bosechi..
simplilearn is simply amazing..pore details e bolbo..tui dhuke dekhish..
khub lucid way te sob kichu bojhano..

Take Care Jaanu
LOve you so very much..so so very much..

Love u

Yes we think as one..not alike...
Ghori camera pantu lens laptop anek guchho guchho jinish kinbo...
U just get well soon...plz i beg of you..
Get well shona am not able to bear this pain on you but killing me
like dry ice..

Osudh kinbe kalke mone kore...
Love u dear..take care

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Jaan

Abar ashanti holo kano?matha r ei condition e .... Its really
detrimental for the injury,,,i dont doc must hav told u complete
rest...both mentally n physically...anyway ki r bolbo bolo... Our life
has become that way only!!

Osudh kheyecho?akhon porte habe naa...suye poro...early morning theke
uthe porte boso...

Plz rest...amio kichhu porte parini...mon ta tor kache pore
ache..chinta hochhe khub beshi...express korte parchinaa..
Chokh bondhyo korle rokto vasche..

Anyway...try to rest..love you and only you always forever....amio
shute jachhi..porte parlam na..

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Just love you

Sonu, ki korchish? Online courses gulo korcho to? Mon deye kore nao, jotota paro.
Ami pora suno korbar chesta korchi. But khub ekta hoche na. Barite abar oshanti hoyeche, khub frustrated lagche. Ami tor sathe thakte chai. Khub beshi kore chai day by day.

Love you and just take care.
Next week amar ghori kinte jabo kintu. Ami khub happy aaj, amader pochondo eto beshi mele, sotti unreal. Biswas hoy na, duto mon e vabe connected thakte pare ki kore. Just love you, even more.

Good morning my LIFE

Tui janish na jaan toke ami ki poriman valobashe.... Literally nijer praan er theke beshi valo bashi... Ami toke boraborer moto pete chai... Permanently... Jate jokhon eecha ami tor upore chorao hote pari, jemon eecha chotkate pari, joto eecha ador korte pari... R tui kablar moto takeye thakbi, kichu korte parbi na....
Kobe hobe seta, when you will submit to me forever!!!

Updates:
1. Ami ekdom thik aachi. Mathata ektu alur moto fuleche, batha o aache , but chinta korbar moto kichu na. Manageable.
2. Ami office jabo na. Eka thakbo barite. You will somehow come and meet me. Ki vabe korbi, ami jani na. Somehow you ensure he goes office and you can come over to see me. Ami jani na, but you must give me my gife for our new job, the gift of YOU.

Tui amay j kotota valobashish tar 1% jodi ku sune fele thake, tate amar sotti ektu o kharap lage ni. Hoy to seta sonai uchit, to come out of the mind set that we are out of sight hence out of mind.r seta niye tui kono explanation dibi, setao ami vabte pari na. Ami khali voy pai j tor upor kono ottachar na hoy. Tai kukre jai voy, karon oi jaygatay ami jhapeye pore toke protect korte jete pari na.

I love you.

Osudh

Osudh khyecho to?
Offr ltr ami nijei dekhini...just chked the mail from E5..
They will send appt letter tomorrow..will fwd everything tmrw..aj
raate mone hoy koste more jachhi
love u gd nt

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Jaaaann

I really dont know how much of stress somebody called God plans for me
each day...we were supposed to be happy today....
And this is what we got in return in the bargain of life...
Jhogra na jhogra r urdhye sob...
But he didnt misbehaved succumed to shell...am not in any mood to
bring him out..parbo na just...
I have taken sleeping pills tonite just to ease my nerves..and the
nerve tabs also..
Pagol hoye jaina kano k jaane..
Asojhyo kosto hochhe tor jonye..cant to anything when all i want is to
just wrap you up in my breast...

Love u good night..putting my phones off as am not in any balanced
state tonight anymore..
Cant take the pain anymore..
Love you
you just take care
i dont have anything else to say love

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Good night Jaan

Baby, sob thik aache to o dike. Tor sathe jhogra koreni to. Tui bolbi ami toke call korechilam. Tor sathe baje babohar korle amar khub kosto hoy....

Tor offer letter ta forward korish, osubidha na thakle. Dekhtam ekbar.

Love you. Batha ta ektu bereche. Ektu. Don't worry. Call you tomorrow.

Ami thik aachi

Ki suneche? Kon somoy? Details dio please. Ekhon ki condition barite? Please details e janao.
Kaku bari fire eseche to? Police jhamela koreni to?
Sotti r parchi na.... Asole aaj ami vishon beshi khushi hoye geyechilam, tar jonno compensate korte to hobei...
Tomar joining date kobe?
Please update.

Love

Just take care... He overheard all our conversation which I was
telling you over the phone...when you called up.. I was emotionally drained off and was screaming over the phone to you my desperate words pf love...
JS phone was in my bag..somehow it got connected to his number and he could hear all our conversation..
I just dont know how can these all happen..Its too uncanny..and can happen only with us..

I just dont know how much stress can i take...in 1 day
plz beware...love you so v much... I will tell him he has heard
is not that much will try to lighten the matter and try to keep things cool..

Will tell that you were not well hence I was speaking to you..
U plz take care...and dont worry..
Sleep Off..
All my love

Good Morning Jaan

Love ...
Was just wondering how do I wake you up in the morning if given a chance...
We were supposed to wake up together this morning...in our honeymoon city..
But then realised i wudnt have got a chance to wake you up as I would
have been love locked in your arms...and coudnt move....or may be when
I open my eyes find you hovering me on so so so very lovingly....

Love you so much dear
missing you tooo intensely
sei kokhon bhenge gache...missing your hands on me..

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Perhaps

sokal 9 ta te phone pawar kotha...but don't know!!
As our time being slaves of whims and wishes of solely 2 other people the legal trespassers into our lives and they would ensure they would always breathe so close to your neck that you cant even move your own head and eventually might forget that how you as a human being how exactly used to breathe!!

We dont even have a mouthful of sky!!!

Love You missing you real too much..just too much..I hardly have any words to describe my feelings right at this moment apart from saying dejected and feeling like spitting at me and my own survival (anything but not life)..jor jor lagche..just not feeling any better..only source of some solace being JS..
suye porchi..

Dont keep any plans (if at all you are still planning) for tomorrow..kichui habe na..plan na kore jodi 30 mins o dakha hoy it would perhaps bring back life to 2 dying wriggling creatures..

Love You so v much.

Sweety Pakhi Amar

Soni Baby, ki korche???
Ami baby k pagoler moto miss korchi...
Baby k khub se chotkate eecha korche...

Kal sokale call korte parbo ki na jani na...
9:00 nagad bank e jabo ekta cheque drop korte,
tokhon tumi kotha bolbar moto condition e thakle
E5 ta on rekho... Ami on pele SS e call korbo...

Else office e geye call korbo amar Jaan ta k....

Praner theke priyo re tui amar... Vishon beshi...

Good Night Love

No new news..only perceiving the different shades of dark as and when they are coming on the way..
Love You
kalke kotha habe..khub fatigued laagche..suye pori..though too scared to sleep..

Take care

yes, the PMP thing is very disturbing.... Apart from that any thing else you got to know since we last communicated today? Please let me know...

It it a bad start, no doubt...but we are probably already going through the worst possible time... Few days are little dark and few are darker... Different shades of darkness, that's it...

Love you and missing you so very much...

talk to you tomorrow... ekhon khub down lagche, kotha bolte (likhte) valo lagche na... Miss You

The week starts

Had a very negative start of the week.. Someone (fate??) laughs at your back you never know!!!
You are just a puppet

Good Night

Miss You..
What are u doing?Another looong drawn wk to start off
Will be with the SS.. if you gt a chance u can call till 8.
Love

ZNMD

kalke dekhlam movies ta..it was a good watch..but not a cozy watch..like the way it used to be..in some rooms some movies with someone

there are so many dialogues in the movie which we have spoken out so many times unknowingly in allmost similar lines..

Also those 3 three snippets which someone captured for me and showed me so much of speciality sometimes back again in some very known yet unknown rooms and the entire time is snapshot somewhere now with so much of intensity...deep very very deep the depth tearing apart!!

Love You So Much

Shona

Khub kosto hochhhe re Jaanu..aktto barabari level e
bhalo lagche naa akfota..feeling so devastated..nothing happened in particular but am feeling like sinking down and down in melanchloia...
Is this depression?? I have no idea..
I feel this is denial of life altogether

Health is fine..barring the neck pain..
Actually missing you so much every micro-moment that my whole being is refusing everything myself around!!!

Everymoment I am dying to talk to you..but I know I need to wait -wait and wait..and wait...

Wait to talk
Wait to walk
Wait to meet
Wait to greet
Wait to love
Wait to be your of
Wait to hold
Wait to unfold
Wait to share
Wait to care
Even to wait to worry
Or show my fury
Wait to be with you before I die someway somewhere ..I have no idea how when where thats gonna be possible..but I can only wait as of now..

The frequency of meeting or talking to you or even be 30 mins excusively with you is becoming so very bleak with each passing day that slowly a very deep deep sense of insecurity and lifelessness is engulfing me from all sides and am not able to pull myself up from that inspite of maximum effort!!!

Love You Baby
Do Take Care
Missing you so very much..dying to talk to you
Love You
Your's and only yours'

Jaanuuu

Baby, ki korcho... Ei firlam ei matro...
Khub klanto lagche...
First exam was not bad, not excellent either...
But the second one was really very bad... Little worried about flunking... Hope that would not ne the case... Wish your love some luck....
How was your day? How is your health?
What you did the entire day? Studied? Went out some where? Slept ? Took some rest?

I missed you all the time... Khub kotha bolte eecha korche sara din... Khub beshi kore... But jani , I have to wait for some more hours beforee I get to hear your melancholic voice....

Love you so very much Baby... Your my love, your are my life....

Take care...

Good night

-- .. I never knew some distant hardness merely on blog is directly prportional to helpless softness somewhere deep inside.. Feeling v lonely...love khub ghar byatha korche, sokale duto phn ii khola thakbe... U call on samsung if possible,,,love
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Baby, I love you

Uff, I'm feeling stiffness somewhere... While I'm reading the map of your body... It was really very sexy and arousing.. I really would have loved to play a map-pointing game with you on your beautiful body....

Love you so very much... Prte porte habudubu kachi...
Kal sokale call korbo.. If possible...
Good night...

Bytes of Love Bites

A very big one (it was purely black) no idway b/w black and red on right shoulder a part of which you have seen yesterday...

3 smaller ones on left shoulder
2 on right thigh
1 on left
1 on neck line..

Surprisingly BV dint have marks on them..they are nowadays very naughty and not easily daunted like before

My left shoulder has got 4/5 big red rashes ..no ideaa why..gham theke hote pare..but they are sore..
Next time jabe dakha habe jodi tokhono rashes ra thake thanda haat buloye sursuri diye dibi...

Love you
Pagol pagol

P.S. Kalke kokhn exam?

Love

Kothay?exam kamon chilo?ajke khub strange exp holo akta..
One family sought tenency to baba...on laxmi puja day ans shifted that
night stating auspicious ocassion to shift...he said he wud give the
requsite money next morning...and since then he has given any
money...almost 5/6 days...everytime stating next day...
It was going like this..
Today all of sudden baba got a call from thana ...
That person has filed a case stating j baba or kache theke security
deposit niyeche...n reciept dichhe naa..ulte uthe jete bolche....he
went to human rights cell..

Baba was so shocked ...j he almost had an attack in the thana due to
fury n anger..
But since he is v strongwilled he said i will not go by this...let me
go to court and file tresspassers suit...and then that fellow got lil
bakfooted..

He takes everything on him...i just hate him...baba k niye r para jaynaa..

Anyway akhon ki kore oi lok ta tola jay..setai chintaar..

Pagol pagol,,,,lok k sotti trust kora jaynaa...ar sotti koto baaje lok
hoy surrounding you just by default...

Love you take care

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Hi

Ami babar sathe Rashbehari r bari jachhi..need to seaarch n find some
old docs like old comp offer lletters...
Love you
study korte parcho?ami pmp r boi khule bosechilam ak paata o parini..

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Good morning

Akhon shorir thikache...
Kalke raate taratari suye porechila,,
just now ghum bhanglo..
Akhon fresh....
Love you so much

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Jaaan

I belive now u understood why i mentioned about the love bites so many
times to you...over n over again..
Coz someway i feel proud of them..feel like carrying ur love marks..i
knew u wud feel cute..
May be stupid but some distant way related to be an expecting mom...

Am not much well 2day... 2 baar bomi hoyeche...just now akbar holo..
Sleeping off now...

Will wait for ur call.. Samsung till i pick up..

Love u svm

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Love makes on your shoulder

Tor kadher uporer oi gol kamorer dagta amar khub sweet and sexy legeche aaj... Jani na, but some what loved it... Felt passionate seeing it there... I wish I could have seen all my love bites on every hidden part of your beautiful body...

Kal sokale call korbo... Around 7:30 to 8:00... Let me know if that is fine. Kon fon e call korbo janeo...

Love you so very much... My sexy jaan... Missing you...

You make me feel alive

My aroma makes u crazy...but i simply feel like life when u r even around!!!!
The rest of the time i simply need to carry the burden of existence..

I always carry you...every single instance...
I die for your every single touches...
Love to hold back all the love bites as long as possible!!!!

Missing you...dont know how long we can carry on this heartless survival!!!

Love you
kalke kokhon call korbe?

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Your aroma makes me crazzzzy

I hate myself. Who could I love and miss someone so helplessly. Going crazy. Every moment you are capturing every thought of mine and redirecting towards you and only you.

Amar chokhe, thonte, gaale,
Tumi lege aacho!!

Jaaanuu

Good morning shona..
Kamon ache akhon amar babyling ta?aktoo ki bhalo?
I cant see u like this suffering so much jaan.. U r my love right?

Love you so v much..beyond everything..
Aktoo beshi kore suye naao aaj please love...pore call koro..
Just take some rest...plz
love you...love you so v much...
Just take care...

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Don't know which way to go!!!

R nite parchi na go.
Mone hoche jibonta golay atke geyeche.
Dom bondho hoye asche.
Sansh nite parchi na.
Uff, ki oshojjo jontrona .
Ki vishon dom chapa kosto.
Kobe j mukti pabo, adeo pabo ki na kichu jani na.
Amar r kichu valo lagche na. Ekdom na.
Sojher simana otikrom korechi onek din.
R kotota poth j nijeke e vabe chachrate parbo jani na.