Love u

Survival is a question hole tao beche achi kano Eosin?kibhabe?is it
something like a deadbody from coffin walking around whose soul is
dead?
Ami sotti bujhte parchina..kibhabe akhono respire korchi..
More bheche thaka na beche more thaka..
Asombhab kosto hochhee..
Hyan aj biswakarma pujo...news gulo jante pari ghorer maid servants er
doulate..as all of them went home for the occasion..
Blackbox er kono entry exit nai ..j we would expect a ray of hope...n
time has come to standstill here...it doesnt even move forcefully- the
only sound being the melancholy mournful cries of the mechanically
beating hurt..

Yesterday had a harsh experience of reality..tai r eshe janai ni..
I was always really protected from the external world never knew what
the outside is like...by my parents dada school friends asr seniors at
office whom i worked with and ofcourse mostly by YOU..
I had no idea whatsoever what real world looks like..its a learning for me..
And a right punishment i need to serve for taking my life my love my
security everything so lightly..
Cant write details here..update u later..
Sudhu jeno i love you and nobody in the world can ever love you even
10% close to me n probly thats why i always remain 1000 of light years
apart from you..
The intensity of love is inversely proportional to the ABILITY of expression..
And directly geometric proprtinal to the distance of SEPARATION..

Anek bhalobasha r subhokamona nio.
Love

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Good morning

Bishwakarma pujo Kobe? Aaj? Ami kichui jani na. Everything is meaningless to me. Just meaningless. Somehow surviving in a black box. Completely isolated and disconnected from the rest of the world. The box is tightly sealed from any ray of light of hope. There is no end to this darkness. Took life very light, and now the survival is in question.
How are you? Did you meet that entrepreneur? What did he say? Any better news for us? And hope?
Take care. Bishwakarma pujoy amar buk vora valobasha r pran vora ashirbad nio.

By chance

Yes i do remember how i went to US with my husband... I Do
by any chance do u remember 2010 biswakarma puja?

Ami webdynpro class niye konomote 1 ta obdi ofc kore came rushing to
my waiting hubby...i had day 1 periods bleeding heavily..how he took
me in my arms ak nimeshe sob pet byatha klanti bhoy tension udhao hoye
gechilo...kothao hariye gechilam sob bhule giye...akta onyo jogot
e...jeta chowa jayna sudhu upolobdhi kora jay anubhab kora jay..
Se akta sutir punjabi porechilo shorts er opor...khadi r moto...ar ki
misti lagchilo taake dekhte..just my adonis..
ar ami bhabchilam ei asombhab sundar manushta sotti sudhu amar?sudhu
amar jonyo haa kore bose ache..count korche each n every moment kokhon
bou asbe bari te..
Nije haate dim sedhho korechilo..chamoch kore khaiye dewa...mukhe
theke aksathe jol khawa.....kole newa..eghor oghor sob kone niye giye
pagoler moto adore dube dewa..ami bhabchilam bokar moto Sob kichu
sotti amar?kotha bolte parchilam naa bhalobashar sukhe bhalobashat
atisojye..was wondering am i really so lucky?so rich?richest of the
richest?
I have no answer..

Only openned the almirah to find the kash ful still waving n smiling
at me..the first gift for the puja season..akta adorer kash ful..
Parle ei bochoreo rakhish akta amar jonyo jotno kore tule..dite habe
na..sudhu tule rekho aki rokom bhalobashay!!!!

Akta college days r lal jama porechi ...patpate sutir...ma bollo toke
thik ager moto college student laagche..sudhu buk ar pacha gulo bhari
hoyeche...taate jama ta gaaye aro chepe boseche ei jaa...
Khub ichha korchilo tomay dakhate...as if ma r bari esechi..tumi
pasher ghorei acho...ami deke bolchi dakho to jama tay kamon lagche
amay..an i know am so damn sure on ur jaw dropped gestures..

kokhono hoyto parbo..
I love you...every time i breathe i feel like loving u more n more n more..

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Love You

Bhalobashi jake take bole dio he was very hard waiting for his freind
who was as soft n wet and inviting without the knowledge of their
parents...
Though they didnt see each other they waited for their soulmate in
individual cells of prison with all possible sringer..

Ok bolo kalke ami akbaro touch korini ok....akhon haat ta k aghat
korte ichha korche..j akbaro kano amar bhalobasha r jinish ta k chuye
dekhlam naa..
Amar haat ok touch koreni o tao o nije boro hoye stiff hoye rock hard
hoye sob kichu chire khure beriye aste cheyeche or bondhu r kache j
bondhu tar o aage or jonyo byartho apekhhay nijeke sajiye rekhechilo
norom adrotay..

Khub bhalobashi tomay..khub
tumi amar kache amar priyo amar bor amar husband amar swami..akdom
shib jerom durga r..

meet korbo naa ak dino er modhye sudhu pujor aage ba bijoya r pore akdin chara..
Karon ami amar bor k ontoto akbar dekhte chai ak min er jonyo holeo
pujor soptaho tay..
Sei apekhhay roilam..bhalobasha nio anek anek upche pora bhalobasha

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Missing You

Yes, I'm angry on myself not on you... How could I take a chance with my Life, when I know that I simply can't live a single day without her.... and I lost her.... How could I do this to me? Why I failed to control myself????

I just love you Sona... Khuuubbb..... Ami tomar moto likhte pari na, parbo na.... But ami ekta kotha bolte chai... Ami jokhon e tomar sanidhe ashi, ami sob vule jai.... I feel something very very different....You smell makes me crazy.... You mentioned about your wet panty... I also want to confess something, since I smelled you today, I'm getting that smell time and again now, and getting a strong and hard erection, after ages.... Full erection... and dying to penetrate you all the way, brutally and vigorously ...... Sorry, if I'm sounding brash...

Kal sokale bazar jabo... call korbo... wait for me....

P.S. by any chance, do you remember how I took you with me to US?

Bhalobashi

Goto kal ar aj raat e tomar sathe kotha bole ami ar akbar notun kore
tomar preme porechi..khub sundar akta prem somman bhora bhalobasha eta
..tumi bujhbe naa.. Onyo matra r..
Gijgij korche bhalobasha tomar jonyo sara gaye mathay mone..

Sob kichu na holeo anek kichu nije haate sesh kore esheo abar j notun
kore prem e pora jaay ami seta jantam naa..

Jantam naa.. Nijeder proti dejection ta root cause for both of us..jar
effect te tumi rege gongone agun hoye gacho ar ami dujkhhe pathor..
Actually while we were both hating ourself for our excessive greed our
not being able to say no to each other which would actually led to
crucification our blindfolded love which led this cruelest slaugher of
ur only communication channel the way we killed our golden duck and we
were internally dying in that pain...u were angry like fire ur way and
i was sad like stone my way...
But again our core feelings were so v v similar.. To me myself n to u
urself were loathing each other...n we were fighting not able to come
clear on that..

Today was the first day that we dissected each other..u came and flat
told whre was i wrong and i also candidly expressed ur
shortcomings...n it cleared all..

At the bottom we were hating our own self..for being so
indiscreminate..n we were not able to come straight on that n were in
more pain..
Sotti to if u treat me as ur baby how cud you just leave me outside ur
protective arms outside that only place where u simply amay aagle
rakhte to fight the world alone..akbaro bhablenaa j tomake chara j ami
ajkal ar nishhash niteo parinaa..n that was the only place we
breathed...ar aktao jayga nei amader apatoto in distant timelines..
Same goes with me..i loved u so much..n i knew u cant stay without
me...u needed to see me even to get minimum grip of life tahole ki
kore aj ato dure nijer kache theke nirbasone pathiye dilam..
Jake khaiye na dile amar khabar name naa takei ami ato dure thele
dilam j she na kheye thakleo ami doure jete parbo naa..
Ar aktoo kothin hote parlam naa.. Choto khato na gulo amra kew kawke
bolte parlam naa...

J love ta amader life er sob theke boro gift setake aglate parlam naa
ar aktoo khani..jokhon sotti sotti sob kichu thikthak
egochillo...chakri bari gari porasona...sob...
Ak jhotkay nijera nijeder pa ye kurul mere beriye aslam..jate pray
hata tai duskhar hoye jay..forget abt running

Ai aki chintay dujone chotfot korchilam..ami chaichilam tumi bolo baby
sob dosh tomar n tumi chaichile amio tomay biddho kori..n like very
much like us..we were both burning inside in self criticism..

Ajker discussion tay ...ato chokh khule gache...self criticism eo j
aaram ache ..ami aage jantam naa...bhaolobashay bhore gache monta..tor
proti aro beshi upche porche bhalobasha..feeling drawn even more
physically mentally everywhich way.
Mone hochhe plz amay khub bok khub kore peta r tarpor tochnoch kore
pagoler moto ador kor!

And ys..
Sotti logic kaj kore naa...
Jokhon dekhi amar haat ta tor chul e bili katche ar duto chokh bondhyo
hoye jacchee garir dombondhyo obosthay gorome r oi gongone roddure o..

Ar jokhon dekhi with same state of mental trauma tension stress aged
looks fatigue indignity n humiliation bari fire just tor sathe 30 mins
dakha hoyeche bole akta ajana smile has lasted on my lips n my panty
is wet without even my knowing it..

I have no logic barring n undying chitchite bhalobasha..jei
bhalobaashar khesarot hoyto ei durotto..
N ami buhjte pari sotti sob chere sudhu nishhash nite geleo amar toke
chai..in this life..
Ami ma r bari te achi.. Kalke by any chance bajar gele phone koro.. Love u
only urs'

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Janinaa

Who am I to tell you Eosin whether our relationship was love+friendship+marriage all combined which failed as a whole or bits and pieces of them which failed individually..
Or may be all of them  every second every way with the very limited resource tried to combat against all odds till the last breath..till they were mutilated with brutality..annihilated perhaps..

You negated Love You negated friendship while our conversation in the afternoon..marriage is something which we never had..by social norms though deep down at the core of our hearts we were more than being barely married..

So perhaps the only relation we had boils down to fatal attraction or even more derogatory-- lust for each other and unlawful submission to basic instincts!!! which had only and ONLY negative catastrophic impressions on our lives..

You need not explain me anything..if you are convinced so be it..But don't try to manipulate me or discuss these things with me...This time probably the only topic to which I cannot be a good listener to your philosophies!! Not me ..you need an answer!!!

I DON'T NEED A NAME FOR OUR RELATION..And I know for sure what YOU ARE TO ME
I CAN FEEL IT ONLY WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES and THE FRAGRANCE FILLS MY HEART

Neither you are the best friend nor the best lover..It was gel of both the worlds which surpassed everything..probably not always able to compliment each other..
To my mind  we never failed as Lover or as Friend..We failed as LOGICAL RATIONAL Human Beings..

Janwar k ..kano kibhabe ami janinaa..neither I would need to clarify anything to me.

Why PC no one on earth could have drawn us apart from the fatal attraction to each other till it can be actually crushed by all earthly means..and that's what it is now..All the common methods which we have overused have now been blown off and the world can get 2 see the death of 2 souls slowly and steadily roasted on bon-fire...
So none of us will die now.'coz death would have been a bliss..

Now we are out of each others' radius of control having separate trajectory of life..as you said Time -- Time will prove what is was>>A pristine pearl drop which you keep on searching your entire life with hardly any chance of getting Or only negative failures at individual levels of the relationship..
Also time will say without each other how we measure the success of life!!! Or how much we can excel in work individually atleast for me I had long lost the habbit of working in sylo..
You have better mental strength and intelligence you would be able to get over it by some means..I will take time..perhaps an entire lifetime..

No this night perhapos never have a dawn..This time out of all the past incidence for the first time I am feeling that perhaps this night will never see the dawn as this not a regular night fall but a black-box..


Jhampu r jonye bachar jonyo amake external aids like khawa dawa r help nite habe naa..
As a freind as a lover as a wife as a woman more beche thakleo the intrinsic motherhood will sustain for her...and every moment of my indignant living death will actually pray for a better life for my child..

Don't worry about my dry health ...time can take care of it..I need to give some time to it and voila..

Fatal attraction... Tai hobe bodh hoy... Tumi jokhon bolcho.... But ekta jinish e khali bujte parchi na, eto kichu kosto chapeye amar khali tomar jonno chinat hoche keno, chotfot korchi keno, kosto hoche keno tomar jonno??? Segulo ki love na ki tao fatal attraction?? Tumi bolte parbe...
Tomar PC failed as a manager... Onek boro boro kotha bollen, ami jani uni tomay khub sneho koren... But,uni ba ki korte parten ei fatal attraction er samne, bolo?
Yes, probably I'm the best lover but while being that I failed to be the best friend... Failed to protect my friend... R tar jonno ami nijeke konodin khoma korte parbo na... Kono din o na... Ami jani ekta jinish for sure, tomar kach theke best jinish guloi ami peyechi sob somoy, r tar bodole, sob kere neyechi tomar kach theke...
Charo... Kichu valo lagche na... Why don't I die simply...
Love you, and will do that forever... I care for you... Missing you.... Dhongsho lagche sob kichu... Bish chari dike... R ki kono din alo dekhte pabo??? Na ki e kalo raater kono sokal nai???
Please kichu kaho, ei janawar tar kotha na vebe holeo, JS er kotha vebe tomay sustho thakte hobe... I love you....

Eosin

E5 e koto baar check korlam..no updates were there on the posts..even now after checking your blog..I re-checked in E5 ..there are no updates..but when I connected online I could get the blogs..

Sokal theke jor chilo tai online chilam naa..baring E5..and she betrayed..

Kichuu khete ichha korche naa..sokal theke just ak cup cha kheyechi..(I am habituated with that..so dont worry) but sotti sob khabar bish laagche..tomay blog ta likhe dekhi khete jabo..
worst part is jol kheteo parchinaa..dhok gilteo kosto hochhee..ghorer modhye fan o na chaliye bose achi..mone hochhe fan er hawa tar awaj er kan matha jha jha korche..prochondo sheet korche..


I can understand your suffering is even hell lot worse there..whereas I am only fighting home-bound isolation with no one to reach out you have to fight out constant external society inflicted isolation...which is really really traumatising..
Jol ruti kichu hoyto gola diye namche naa..Its very difficult to eat in an office premise where we had long lost the habbit of gulping down the food..It was an elaborate luncheon for us..even having water was an event!!!


I know its traumatising with all those people around where you are not feeling welcome..
So Bari theke jol and khawar niye eshe bhalo korecho..You just do NOT need any one's company..

But as per Maslow's hierarchy you have to bear up this to atleast get the Level1 Basic Physiological needs met..which is your bread earner..
Right now you are in the crisis of 4th level of need (self esteem) which you will soon recover with your dignity and power of knowledge ..just a matter of weeks..but don't even compare any other punishment where you might need to think about Leve1 ..things will change towards better now....with the silent blessings of your father!!

More so when my impact in your life is not vivid anymore >>things will fall in place..
I was really casting negative impact on your life which I never understood till I pushed you to limits....I had a fatal attraction on you which I realized so very late..only after ruining so much of your life

But probably the maximum damage is done and now it would shape up for a better future



Ota ICFAI Sikkim.. I will enquire ICFAI Hyd and let you know
Take Care
Love You and Love You forever..
PS. Dont worry about my health.. I will be fine..These are anonymous shock fevers will heal automatically in time..Its new to me but not new over the past 1 yr...

Keep faith..you will do wonders and these people who are avoiding now have to greet you with accolades in public recognition...
Love

Kemon aacho?

I'm trying to fight out as much as possible. Very much worried about you, mostly your health.
Initially I was very worried about your job, but now I feel a discontinuation is much welcome. Take a break, talk to a doctor, complete the PMP and then join back a fresh.
It's a torture at office, trying to ignore, and shotdown all my senses. But this is the worst possible situations a person can land in to. On top of that a constant fear of yet another blow. Jano, aaj bari theke jol neye esechi jate pantry te na jete hoy....
Is this hell?
You please take care. Take good care of your health. Love you. So much.

Jaaannuu

Plz take care
Be confident
You will soon be radiant
a very warm good morning..
At ofc be carefree all those rolling eyes will stop rolling once you
show hovering confidence in yourself..
Dont cringe..and dont talk to anyone or even make gestures of being freindly
just wear ur attitude
read a hi-tech book if reqd in b/w breaks..
Love you..am sure if u trust in ur love u are going to tell me that
today is a better setter..
Take care...have a beaming future.

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Good Night

Fer jor asche..suye porchi..Good Night
Just Take Care...somehow I have a feeling that you are also having a temperature..but janinaa
Eyes are ablaze...but you know what I like the state of fever rather brought back to senses..where all the 5 organs simply burn me alive..
In a state of high fever atleast I be in trance and someway I feel like I am with you..you covering me..
holding me to your breast covering all my humiliation with your presence..
I dont know ..I am prpbably sounding lunatic....
Missing you so very much..I know I am sounding impractical..but really helplessly missing you..

Kalke theke are jor o thakbe naa..I dont know how will I spend the entire day..
Just Take Care Eosin..It seems I havenot met you or heard your voice for years altogether..
Tokhon phone ta abruptly  kete dile..and it seemed the entire world shut down in a fraction of a second..and all my senses ceased reciprocating pushing me to a pit hole. of blackness..

Love You

Hi

Kheyecho kichu?pls have something n let me know..
Trust me tomorrow will be better..
Just grit ur teeth and keep bearing the pain with the hope of a new dawn.
Am also trying my best to put up all my strength and float in the
time...cant swim now...but not even sinking..not dying..
Holding on to a wooden plank somehow no idea where it takes me..
Missing you so so so v much
take care
love you...yours n only yours
me

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Love

Am not applying to Acc. or anywhere rt now anymore.. Let me be on my own for sometime/concentrate on the PMP..If something  comes up with the already initiated process then different..but else I am not venturing out rt now..
You will also not be able to be there beside me..I am missing you every moment trying to grip you for standing up forget about walking..and failing each and every single time...
God has given the maximum punishment..the darkest time the weakest time ever when we would have perhaps needed each other to be beside us to  atleast provide mutual solace we had been strangled shackled and placed miles apart..

I am not able to take the pain anymore..
Just need to stick together mentally somehow till such times we can breathe once more in open air not confined in the rooms of any man made building..

Love You
PS. Please have something some food to sustain and fight the darkness if not live..even if you vomit.vomit but.still have..the 2nd helping..aksomoy dekhbe bomi hochhe naa
We have to live..in sylo for each other somehow..dont know when at all we will get to see the morning..but we will have to wait and wait endlessly..wait for each other and pray for each other!!!!

Shona

Jaanuu..I love you..and will love you till I die..
But please don't act like you are dead..If you are doing like this I will simply get crashed..

Nothing and No-one can deter you dear from shinning high and bright!!! Its just a temporary phase Shona..
It will pass away in oblivion..when you would stand up high with the power of your knowledge and esteem..
Even greatest of the worldmakers pass through darkest patches of life Januu..and they overcome it..
Do you trust me Shona?Close your eyes and please say you trust me..
It will be better my life..I promise you ..it will be better..and best..

I can't see you like this dwindling..Never..I love you as my "Dont Care" Abir and you have to be like that//
Please rise up and have a nonchallant attitude..
You don't need those extra set of people who are giving furtive glances against you for the time being..
You just give 2 weeks time these same sets of people who are now sulking will come to you for help..
I can bet my words for that..
You just check out...Yes it is the darkest most in dignified nights ever and probably the longest too..
But over the mutual indignity of me or you its the humiliation of our love which is being molested now by so many people in public

So please Jaanu.. for the sake of love stand up..and never say die..If you tremble now our love will crumble..I will NOT be able to live ..I am already dead in humiliation and without you being anywhere close to put your hands around me..and things going so horribly wrong at every steps of life..and bearing everything all alone..in a cage..
But if you don't stand face UP..2 of us (me and our love) will simply crash like a paper basket in storm..
You have to embrace and protect us at any cost..I will not leave you or let you succumb..

Am very sure these people within a week or so would be simply grassroots to you!!!You will shine high bright with your own personality and dignity of knowledge..

If ppl are not speaking..make sure you also don't speak to them..afterall neither you have the mood nor the sentiment nor the time nor the intention to speak to them...
I hope I am still there lingering in your thoughts..when you are by yourself..
Those moments which are crowned by intense love and extreme care for each other are still persisting in your heart...so spend the time with them..rather than thinking of those stupid people around...
I am sure those undying love filled memories might be of some solace..

I am trying to do that..I am missing you so very much in my delirium that I am getting lost in you in a trance..
You might say overtly emotional and feminine..but I am helpless..

Khub jor chilo saradin.. akdom uthte paroini.. matha tulte parini....bar bar bomi korechi..
Akbar o blog mail check korte parini..E5 ta hidden rakha chilo..karo kache chaite porjyonto parini..
Just waited and waited and waited for a call from you the entire day...the longest day ever where I have not heard your voice for over 48 hours..
Phone didnt ring...My dry sleepless tranced eyes kept on wiating in vain..

Thought you were v busy with the joining formalities..so kept numb...but inside was burning alive...for your voice..

Love you so much ...till  I die..
Cant see you like this...dying here alone..
Feeling so very naked even under blankets and within the four walls..
Both of us were CRAZY for LOVE
And this is what we are paying for our LOVE
Just be brave my Love..I cannot live without your strength..neither can our ,love...it needs the deep internal courage of yours and warmth of my heart to atleast survive..
Let her please survive amongst all these darkest of darkest shades of life..

Hiding... Got to see few more familiar faces... I know them, very inquesitive in nature... Their eyes were telling that they are aware and not happy to see me here... Simply hiding from the rest of the world, the worst ever possible situation ... It would be very difficult to work here even if my profile passes the background check...
Why can't I simply vanish... Feeling like everyone around is discussing me...
Just now, someone infront of me who joined with me, called out my name over phone... Someone on the other side asked about my name, full name... He said he don't know...
Now everyone knows... Not sure whether I would be able to continue or not !
You take care...

Updates

Came here at 9:00. Going through the process. Feeling so unprotected. Not able to write anything. The hands are continuously trimbling. Feeling no strength in any part of body.
Not able to eat anything. Feeling vomiting all the time.
Saw few known faces. But not have courage to face them, what if they ask something? Feeling like every other person is watching me. Talking about me, and pointing and saying, see this is that guy...
Shivering inside. Feeling so cold. Not able feel the warmth of life, and will not be able to feel that again...
Ei sohor ta chere palate parle hoyto bachbo...
How are you? Who is your health? Fever subsided? Taken you food?

All the very best

Smile
take the world by your Zeal
Deal
All the problems
With the power of Will
Seal
The courage for truth to Unveil
Feel
Thats its Olny YOU who wins Still

have a glorified future..love you

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How r u?

Jor komeche?kheyecho kichu?
Plz have something...it would be a long day tomorrow ..khali pet e thakbe naa..
Sob kichu guchiye niyecho to?
Checklist miliye sob kichu ak jaygay thik kore rekho..all imp docs etc.
Polish your shoes
keep dresses pressed
have something light for dinner and sleep off early..have a lil warm
milk..before going to bed..
Keep things ready to have a clean shave in the morning..

Kokhon berobe kalke sokale?
Just take care..dont think about anything else...
Be like Arjuna... See the bird's eye which is Accenture n nothing else..
You have to have to shine like the Sun there..

Love you so much..take care

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Valo nai... Sorir khub kharap... Jor aache.... Pagoler moto kosto hoche.... Pray korchi sob somoy morar jonno... But jomeo amay r chube na....
Ami book and pen mouse tomar hat theke nebo... I'll meet you very soon... Probable that's the only reason I'm alive... So keep them with you till that time....
Love you Sona
Only yours, forever and more

Valo nai... Sorir khub kharap... Jor aache.... Pagoler moto kosto hoche.... Pray korchi sob somoy morar jonno... But jomeo amay r chube na....
Ami book and pen mouse tomar hat theke nebo... I'll meet you very soon... Probable that's the only reason I'm alive... So keep them with you till that time....
Love you Sona
Only yours, forever and more

Valo nai... Sorir khub kharap... Jor aache.... Pagoler moto kosto hoche.... Pray korchi sob somoy morar jonno... But jomeo amay r chube na....
Ami book and pen mouse tomar hat theke nebo... I'll meet you very soon... Probable that's the only reason I'm alive... So keep them with you till that time....
Love you Sona
Only yours, forever and more

Nothing

Nothing will happen to me.. Pagol o hobo na morbo w na..nothing
happens to withces or venomenous scorpions

Ato kichu kore eshe sudhu kichu jor..setao ak soptaho pore..amar orom
jor hoy shock fever types which you are aware 2-3 baar aageo
hoyeche..nothing major..
Ami precisely jani ei jor ta amar kokhon hoy..
Sara dupur khub temperature chilo..akhon thik achi..lok jon k birokto
kore marchi..ami sotti kawke shanti dite jonmainii..

Tomar jor komeche?kichu kheyecho?
Class sesh hoyeche?at home now?

kalke sokale paro nischoi tomay drop kore debe..go with her, ei
shorire aka travel koronaa oto ta dur..
Good old or new lucky dresses porbe..nothing of mine..
Tumi j hay legeche bolchile ota amader at anycost chipke aksathe
thakar tibrotar jonyo..hay hok eye sore hok whatever..oi togetherness
er stigma jokhon nei...tokhon ar hay er byapar nei..

I was just thinking about me..that as a woman maximum possible
endurance and cost which i had to pay for my madness for love thru
entire life has been paid.. I always searched for True love in life I
am proud now that i did get it and paid every value for it..which is
absolutely understandable ...something for which you have waited for
entire life will always come with the bait of life..
Only thing which is only bothering now...i have got everything in life
now- maximum love and maximum indignity..both..my cup is full...

I risked everything for our togetherness..ruined ur life and also
mine..now when only the negativity of life is there with no positive
rays of hope of being with you why should i live at all
just to bear the burden of life???may be..or may be my payment is
still due though am bankcrupt!!!!!

Just take care..
Sob kichu bhalo kore guchiye nio..
Taratari ghumiye poro

Take care.. And take care from ppl who can do that..i will never be
able to do that for you realtime barring sending virtual msgs..

Love you...till such times life doesnt let me go of her grip...

P.S The selfish gene n mouse pen has both come..will courier them this week..
Plz inform paro that you have kept them ordered before..to avoid further chaos..
Love.

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Jaan

Khub ekta valo nai... Jor kore class korchi... Matha chire jache, bomi pache, jor 101 moto... Jol o khete eecha korche na... Jani na ki wait kore aache in coming days amader jonno... R koto kharap dekhte hobe tao jani na.... Keno jeno mone hoche amra prochur haay kuriyechi oneker, ekhon tar payback korte hoche.....
Jani na r kono din swavabik hoye parbo na.... Khub nikrishtho jib mone hoche... Jani na...
PMP khoj neyechi, cheleta monday details gulo amay mail korbe...
Love you and take care jaan...
Tor jonno amar khub chinta hoche re... E vabe to pagol hoye jabi tui amar e moto...