Sleeping like a Feather..on your lap my Dear

Forget about the subject line even a quiet slumber
Is something which has left me forever
Since such times I don't even remember

If someday someway life gives a chance
I would like to lie down on your lap
And feel secured feel happy feel myself
Dump all my tensions all my feelings
Good Bad Ugly ALL on YOU and feel

Feel like a feather in your clutch
Share all our stories under the sun
Together for endless moments
And feel ligh lighter and lightest
Till for the day the sun sets

And then in the starlit darkness
You make me feel like the princess
Quivering in your exquisite elaborate embrace
Under the canopy of night in a wild richness
Of a passionate erotic love nothing more nothing less..

Do well tomorrow..Tomorrow is a New day

Tomorrow is a new day
A new way to take life
Give your best my dearest
And world will come your way

ALL THE BEST for the Challenges
Exams of all sorts which has to face
Your immediate attention and Focus
Till such time I will be lost
In your dreams Your memories
Your aura You halo Your fantasies




Also with tomorrow
The long long wait will be less
To be at least be near you
With small chronicles of happiness


Out of this frustrated life
To be just beside you and be in your embrace
Even if for a moment the magic of a caress
Would again thrust forward to float aimless
And at least not sink till we hold on to US
And spend our life together!!!!

Neither Right Nor Wrong--Its Love which was Hurt and its Love who would smile the last

Eosin...
I could see you in brutal agony
Which ripped apart - your heart
And kept me numb tossing in pain
As I was so sure of that

A tight hug a gentle kiss on your forehead
Could have taken you out of the shell
In which you have crept, a sheild which you made
To fight all alone all the bruises from me
You shielded from the world but inside you bled.

You bled heavily and couldnot even share
'Coz YOU being YOU - you always care
More for me than your bleeding heart
I know you.. so dont try to act smart

But I feel restless coz over here
I am simply dying not able to bear
The fact that how did I hurt you there
Deep inside You..You who love and care
The most ... for me my dear
Do you think I can ever
Forgive me for that ...NEVER

Don't you dare Delete the blog..
I have kept a copy of the log

I will read it every time..I would need to
Punish my self And hurt me even more
Every day Every Time..
That's the minimum punishment I deserve from life


Waiting here with outstretched hands
To take you deep inside my heart
Such that you can sink deeper in your babies
And let them caress you as you want


Counting here every moment..
To just get your voice lent
To say something I don't know what
Something which can bring you comfort
If at all possible..to cure your wounded cut

Please push the black thoughts
Back of your mind...for tomorrow
As tomorrow would be a new day
A new way..which will bring shinning radiance
To You.. Put in your best
And outshine everyone in your excellence

I will wait till such time seen unseen
You come to me and I can take you in
Deep inside where YOU would reign
And make feel like the Queen

Perhaps I can never heal
The deep deep cuts will never seal
But I will know for sure
And those pains I must endure
For my Life for my Love so pure

You are the ONLY LOVE
Of my life in the very core
I say this without any 2nd thoughts
'Coz I know if this is life
This is it I was actually waiting for
You are the ONE who made my Life
And defining Love for your loving wife

And this is minimum reaction
Of the butchered pain
Trust me if you can I say again
I could never have dealt this
In a more comforting soothing way
Taking all the rotten wounds on YOU
And protecting me from the fire
Which is burning YOU ALIVE
In its engulfing flames

And you say ..to forgive You
What for..?? for taking all the pains on YOU
And bearing with me..when you are dying inside
I end up admiring you more and more
You are really really gifted know for sure
Made of some unknown elements
Which only Mother nature knows...
Some radicals some elements just imparted in YOU

Love You...

I loved this line, “Sometimes you lose midway to win the jackpot”… So very true
But unfortunately in my case I have lost after winning the Jackpot….
Anyway, please forgive me for my writing… I’ll delete the blog… yes; I’m in pain, more because I’m away from you and missing you…
Please check all comments in recent blogs…
Dying to meet you and get my well deserved, due caress from my Love…

Love You and I'll always Do...

No matter What....
You are my everything, my world, captivated in the most beautiful and sensitive heart...

Neither Right Nor Wrong.. Love for You Stroneger than Strong

You said you loved him. That rips me apart. But at least gives me the comfort that whatever you did; you did it for love not lust.


Eosin.. yes that time I had loved him .
Its not lust for sure... but also not love in true format which I got to know after I came in touch with YOU --YOU who became the alchemist and gifted me the entire perspective of Love and Life..and that's why I am over protective about YOU.....

I know you will not agree..but between that time and present I know for sure.. my love for you is unmatched unparalleled.

YOU ARE MY FIRST LOVE because LOVE happens ONLY ONCE in LIFETIME

The only LOVE I have ever possess for some one ever in my life is You...
I have got to know the definition of love and life together from you..which was very very hazy for me ..and you have taken me to that level of deep-rooted understandingof .....LOVE which is a very very pristine feelings..realizing from core..and it CAN HAPPEN ONLY ONCE

Yes I know that I’m not the only one in your life anymore. All the experiences with you, which are so very divine for me, they are probably only mere repetition for you.


Wrong...very very wrong.. All those feelings not actions which I have waited with my entire life to submit to some magical some divine feelings very very strongly from deep within..happened ONLY with you.. ..
I fell in in love with YOU and nature participated in that celebration..

Yes the actions might be repetitive ...not the intrinsic feelings... That came to me as the UNIQUE Gift of Life through your hand your friendship your vision your dream your closeness your protection your love your care...

Trust me..if you can... I was waiting for this all my life.. took wrong steps yes..in search of this feelings in quest of this divine emotions..and yes if you are not wrong once you will not know what you have been searching for..

So I did found you at last...and the journey ends here..with ONLY YOU -YOU- YOU and YOU


You are my only friend to whom I run to for solace. I thought I’m your only friend whom you miss, but I was probably wrong. So be it.

Again wrong Eosin..You are my ONLY friend who understands me to the deepest and reverse is also true.. No one in this worlds cares for you or knows YOU more than I do..
You are and will always be my best friend for whom I can bet my life.. (read friend not love)..

If I have written something out of my crippled mind of feeling loved every time (as we discussed) please don't hurt me further by rebuking it..An illness takes time to be cured..
Yes you are hurt for my attitude..very very hurt....probably I have lost you forever..But give me a chance...and be sure now you possess my mind my soul my body absolutely unscathed..
Its not my credit..You have gifted this new ME to Me for YOU a new Me which is untouched and purified in the fire of enunciation and LOVE!!!




Now I know remembering your special name by someone is more precious for you than all my Birthday gifts that I have prepared for you with my love and care. How easily you can say that you ran to someone because you were pushed by me? Is my love so fragile? Yes may be.


Again wrong!!!! If your love is fragile....then there is no Love left for anyone to define..
It was my crippled mind..my mistake my erroneous...my emotional insecurity..my weakness which drove me unjust drove me impulsive drove me wrong.
DO NOT UNDERMINE YOU.... I cannot take it..

Just be assured for the rest of your life...ALL YOUR GIFTS which evolved out of your creativity are my most POSSESSED and TREASURED jewels ...My last wish would be If I die before you and you get to know I wish if you can cremate along with my dead body...such that I ONLY possess them for ever and ever..

I cannot part with the feelings that I am not the only owner of your creativity..
Your gifts are more valued to me even more than anything else in my life more than my life.They carry YOUR CREATIVITY for me...I die for it..



If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
Prove me that I cannot doubt your commitment towards me.

You will never ever get a chance to even raise a brow my commitment towards you.. I am already DEAD without you and having lost your trust..If am again existing..its only because life has given the rarest chance to stand up to your expectation and that you were NOT wrong in judging me...and that you are UNIQUE in my life..

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
Prove me that I have chosen the gem of a person with the golden heart.


I don't know whether I am a gem of a person or not but surely I have a golden heart coz that heart is completely golden being filled with pure 24K love .You are not wrong!!

My past actions were wrong but not my feelings for you.. when I have told you "What I felt with you is UNIQUE I meant every word of it" ...its very very rare very very special and life defining for me..
I had been waiting for YOU with all my life..the road of life at one time was wrong..



If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
Prove me that you love for me is unmatched.


Its not about matching Eosin.. You cant compare like this .. My love for you is just LOVE in its purest format of 120% love... its not about being unmatched.. Its about pristine..unparallel


If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
Prove that Your love for me is unique.

I know its UNIQUE from deep down below...Only time can prove it.. you will get to know yourself and you will come and tell me that.. Don't go by my words this time....
Anything for you...

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
You have never shared the same feeling with anyone else.

You are wrong!! Its not about sharing same feeling with anyone else..
Its about what I feel for you is exactly what I have waited for with my entire life...
When I have come to know it from beneath I have lost you to my misdeeds..of a diseased mind
But I am also sure you yoursef will come and tell me someday someway.."Yes baby what you feel for me is really distinct exceptional the suffocating love in purest format..which I have waited for.".


If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
No one ever touched you like the way I did.

No one ever touched me like you did.. You touched my soul my body ,my heart my mind together in unison which is the rarest combination which hardly any people get to know in their entire lifetime.I promise by my baby that when you have touched me..my entire existence has felt so virgin..and even today every time you touch me I feel the same...

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
Never felt so special in someone’s arms.

Its you Eosin who has proven that mental richness and physical richness come in unison...this is something I had never even known...I feel my life in your arms..and can make you feel Yourself in my heart...I know that
Its not special..its is IT ..It is Unique..

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
You heart beats only for me.

I will not answer this... You can listen to my heart beats and get the answer for yourself..just bear with me for some time..

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
This is not just history repeating itself.

There is no history.. It was my mental dis balance.. which you have cured!!!
If I am living for someone its for my love for my best friend for YOU.....
And I am sure before I die I will spend some portion of my life sitting on your lap...and whispering love in your ears..such that you are tired of me..

You are my first love..as love can happen only once..the end of this quest for feeling true love came late very late but better late than never


If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
No one would ever be able to love you more than I do.

I do NOT Care about others!!! I know for sure YOU LOVE me Eosin..and losing your love is the most scary feelings for me..if you stop loving me,,,Your love is more important to me than my life..
But yes even if you do not love me someday ....just keep in mind I will not take my life anymore but would respire only for YOU..
I would wake up in the morning breathing YOU and retire at night missing you...for my entire life..

You have asked for time, but I have already given you my entire lifetime. I’ll wait, rather wafting for you., My love, who is only mine, forever and ever and ever and ever…..

I didnt understand this part "I’ll wait, rather wafting for you."..
You need not wait for me...wait for getting to know my love for you...
Love is a feelings which is beyond all manifestations ....You will get to know someday what you mean to me...intrinsically feel it and You will tell me "Baby I cant take your love anymore"

You are my life (my life which has left me long before was a your first gift to me) my everything....I asked time.. to heal you of the deep wound I have hurled on you...
not for me..such that you be sure of the truth..

You are my FIRST LOVE my ONLY LOVE and UNIQUE
You are YOU in my life.. You are My Life!!!

I just want to prove to you with time that whatever I have said to you are TRUTH..not blank statements..

My feelings for you and how I have felt with you at every incident of first kiss first rain dance first holding hands first embrace the meaning of PASSION for which I was always to desperate everything everything were like for the first time in my life when it was with YOU..And when I say this trust me ... my feelings for you are scratch less and surface from very deep corners of my heart...

Just bear with me for sometime.. do not go by words..
You will not lose!! and you will take pride in yourself are not a bad judge of characters!!
Sometimes you lose midway to win the jackpot


...I am dying here because I know for sure.. You are in PAIN...and know not how to reach you
And I am getting mad as I am not able to take care of you...because I know no one can ever take care of you more than I can..

This was also unknown to me before..that I can be a CARING loving WIFE..
The very meaning of Caring I have felt only with YOU...

Not Right Not Wrong..Its LOVE and ONLY ONLY for YOU

Right or Wrong

You said you loved him. That rips me apart. But at least gives me the comfort that whatever you did; you did it for love not lust.

Yes I know that I’m not the only one in your life anymore. All the experiences with you, which are so very divine for me, they are probably only mere repetition for you.

You are my only friend to whom I run to for solace. I though I’m your only friend whom you miss, but I was probably wrong. So be it.

Now I know remembering your special name by someone is more precious for you than all my Birthday gifts that I have prepared for you with my love and care. How easily you can say that you ran to someone because you were pushed by me? Is my love so fragile? Yes may be.

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
Prove me that I cannot doubt your commitment towards me.

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
Prove me that I have chosen the gem of a person with the golden heart.

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
Prove me that you love for me is unmatched.

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
Prove that Your love for me is unique.

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
You have never shared the same feeling with anyone else.

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
No one ever touched you like the way I did.

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
Never felt so special in someone’s arms.

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
You heart beats only for me.

If you have ever loved me, please prove me wrong.
This is not just history repeating itself.

If you have ever loved me, prove me right.
No one would ever be able to love you more than I do.

You have asked for time, but I have already given you my entire lifetime. I’ll wait, rather wafting for you., My love, who is only mine, forever and ever and ever and ever…..

Baby.. I Love You..

your babies.... Long after u left
are missing u ...where they have felt
felt they do live for someone far
not just hang but feel priceless with their father
its deep late at night..or a nwey day at 4 am
they cant sleep unless feel special in thy arm

lonf after u left ur words reverbate..
Keep me waiting for u even more desperate
might have played with life which was no life at all
but someone for the first time made life so special

these dying for you not able to stay apart
kills me inside but in opulence fills my heart
with some divine feelings of magic of love
that i love you wherever he might be in any state
my love for you will increasingly emanate

i miss u like a dying wreathing creature
but i feel proud my GA has cud gift me this nature
of undying helpless love like the pristine dove
which you can feel very very deep inside somewhere

n u know for sure.. What is this u were deprived of
all these years... Of your very own capability to love
kill him for love if you can... But be for him ONLY in the run
u may not get anything in return... But keep on loving like a nun

you are unique in my life YOU R YOU
n no matter what i wud keep on loving you
i wud be able to prove beyond doubts
that you were not wrong in choosing your soulmate
She will be ONLY YOURS putting life on bet
If you are for you she is even more passionate
She will be ALL yours and that day is not late
Believe in love and that should be our fate

---- I love you Jelly Just Love YOU..
You will not understand that right now
But I simply beg some time from you
To prove you are wrong..if you take everything in grey..
But something is beyond which might seem and may

You are the ONLY LOVE OF MY LIFE..b'cause this is LOVE
And that surely with little time and trust from you I will Prove

Thursday

Thursdays have always
Been unique in our life
In most of the adorable ways

Life may be short of just an year
But many of the Thursdays
Have been a like a shinning star
In the cloudy overcasted sky
Shiining ajar and proving
Its not always "The Last Lear"

Look forward as much as you can
You never know if nature has a plan

Give our best.. I know you Can
Shine in your own radiance
Speak with confidence
Its not about negotiation
But something beyond..

Its stating that "I am not getting"
Something
Which can and should be mine
If you use your power
And make me deprived
Its okay I will leave with a smile

But just wanted to tell you
I am aware of the facts and figures
And the real and concocted pictures..
You can't puppet me in a twine...

Also you can NEVER EVER
Subdue me with Power
I have more instruments stronger
My talents my knowledge my WILL POWER

May be someday
I will come back in my way
And can take charge of things
Which are now beyond my notion
And show you all
That I can keep an everlasting impression

Where are you?

Baby,
I love You...
    I miss you...
        I hate you...

You are Sweet am Not-E

Iff we have studied together
Perhaps we are doing now though very far
Not in this manner
But being with each other

Am sure I would have thereafter
Chosen the topics being lighter
And delegate the most complex chapter
To You with a smiley of wicked laughter

While you strive harder
To get into the crux of the matter
With solid brainstorming endeavour
I would have simply lied over
On Your back and murmer
With excitement, as if a thriller
I am reading, and whisper
Words of love in your ear.. :))

Disturbing you with a feather
Or seeking attention without a pointer
Making faces and funny gesture
Giving goosebumps and make you shiver

Disturbing yes but I would have
Done in an art to bother
You till such hour
You get up and overpower
Me and take me off and render
Me powerless in your vigour

First desperately and then surrender
As you cannot hurt me ever
In a softer lighter composure
Making me numb and a tired creature

Such that I get into a fast slumber
Helplessly and you being smarter
Resume your studies further
And when I get up later
I also get to study in rocking fear

But you being the best husband ever
Would let me study in peace and never :))
Do the same like my naughty behavior
And hug me and love with utmost care
:)))

Am in Cloud Chapter 1 its 10 past 1
Where are you my dear?
Studying alone in isolation
Or with someone in a joint venture??

Love, Life and Everything I need to be happy

Just be there with me, within me...
Don't ever leave me alone, I need you...
More that You need me...
Love you so very much, always...
Your presence around me,
makes all the difference...
Don't ever through me away, so far, that I end up hurting myself...
I can't take care of myself, the way you can take care of me...
Just Be There, I need you...

I was here

I was here
Sitting in same place same posture
Till such times..I cant bear
Anymore of the impending future

Aimless thoughtless
Slowly writhing in a painfully painless
State..till such times I feel knocked off
Out of my senses

I was here
Knowing you are nowhere
Nowhere in my life
Without any fear
Of losing YOU anymore
Because in the first place
You are not even there!!!!

Only Love in her overwhelming Power
Will keep me borne on your shoulder
Whatsoever
Like a phantom ghost or a shadow mere
Here there everywhere!!!

Query for You

Are we so sure Eosin that we CANNOT do anything??

Or is it like a silent agreement between us
That we have adopted
We WILL NOT do anything ??
Thinking of Good for all -as a PASS???

We will think and think and think of everyone
Who are involved in this
You will go on performing tasks at your end
Myself will be taskmaster at my bend
We will think of their pains their miseries their sufferings
And we will not be able to hurt all these show runners

And that's why in forlorn
We will hurt US and slowly get lost in oblivion
Like 2 justified Morons.

And everyone else will subsequently win
With the strongest a deep rooted buy in
That they are successful in taking both of us
OUT of each others quadrant
It was only a small nadir of time....
And their feelings for us are actually more powerful
Than OUR feelings for us.

Let me know if its a decided treaty
We will not discuss anything then in insanity
But just take life or the lack of it
As it comes everyday every way till we die or meet next!!!

Its ME when I am someone called LOVE

True Love is some strange feelings when you end up loving the person more when you are vehement hard enough to hate him/her.

True Love is bull headed you cant simply be angry on him/her when you have enough reasons to be so,and end up just being worried.

True Love is horrid you are dying and writhing in pain you want him/her to live happily and peacefully.

True Love is silly in a comma or a trance you tend to hold on to that particular smile of someone which you know for sure cant be yours even for a while.

True Love is gawky awkward when you keep on dreaming holding hands of Love without being able to fathom the underlying nightmares in the dreams.

True Love is mystique when you are mentally so rich that you can derive pleasure out of anything and everything that will make the other person happy even if its for a minute.

True Love is ghostly when you are happily agree to be haunted for the rest of your life and exhange your entire life long survival aftermath with some transient memories in the sand dunes of time.

True Love is stupid when you hate yourself for loving the other person so much and helplessly let your existence be solely ruled by him/her who is not even a part of your so called Life.

True Love is numb when you yourself cannot heal your own pains but completely surrender it to be healed in the hands of someone else, and you never get a chance of that and your pain rots and you are okay with that.

True Love is dumb when you blissfully end up supporting the other person when your life is at stake.

True Love is manipulative when you feebly find yourself speaking in the voice of the other person till such times he/she has moved far far off from your life.


True Love is overpowering when you see someone else is taking your love from you, you think of that I might have created some vacuum inside him/her that's why he/she is not happy with me and you set free as you want your Love to be HAPPY.

True Love is bohemian as she never cares for adjustments if both the people in love are equally happy and satiated love breathes in the oxygen of unadulterated bliss but the moment it becomes adjustment and rulebook she vanishes silently.Life becomes existence.

True Love is uncompromising as she will not ever compromise with anything lesser than LOVE.She will rather kill herself than asking for an adjustment!!!

True Love is some feelings which no one else even the person who loves you can imbibe in yourself unless YOU discover it silently for you and desperately become puppets to her magical wand. You have no other option anymore.

Helpless Slumber

You would wake up before time
Lest I would wait like a statue
To ensure you rest on me
After long hours of fatigue

But I know ..how helplessly I
Fall asleep on your chest
Over the slightest predicament
Giving on you ALL my weight ...

I don't even remember time
I hold on you like a tiny chyme
In the chandelier,, as you softly
Whisper loving words or just look at me
In a reassuring silence
That you are always there for me

And long after I wake up
From that deep deep slumber
I found you exactly the way
I have left you ....

But the smile on your lips have broadened...
And deeper in your eyes the contentment..
Because no matter
How severely stiff you have been
Carrying me for endless hours
In the same awkward manner..
You have seen me sleeping...
Sleeping peacefully.. like a baby
A sleep which none other than you can bestow!!!

And then??
Then as I get up from the
Silhouette of the dreamland
In those mystique midnight expand
You carry me seamlessly
To an unknown state of ecstasy

A peaceful mind a refreshed soul
Discovers an eerie suffocating love
Mesmerizing her Bewildering her
In a frenzied euphoria in your embrace
Locked in each others arms and fragrance
We get to discover each other once more

From soft light cadence of composing caress
To frenzied art of love in a wild frantic madness

Not even thinking once of yourself
How cramped you have been like a shelf
Carrying me till such time I wake up from my sleep
You reassure me when I open my eyes
That you love me -with the delicate kiss
That You love me beyond anything else

Not by speaking the words that
Could have a mention
But by avid manifestation
Of a reinforcing love
In the most natural way
The way in which love has known
Its age-long celebration..

I miss desperately you Eosin...miss all these moments.. all these gestures of yours..which you have never ever spoken to me..also I have not mentioned verbally to you... but I have seen all of these in your eyes deep-rooted,, and felt with my eyes when they did meet yours with complete surrender!!!!

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Wanted to share.
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