Good night

-- .. I never knew some distant hardness merely on blog is directly prportional to helpless softness somewhere deep inside.. Feeling v lonely...love khub ghar byatha korche, sokale duto phn ii khola thakbe... U call on samsung if possible,,,love
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Baby, I love you

Uff, I'm feeling stiffness somewhere... While I'm reading the map of your body... It was really very sexy and arousing.. I really would have loved to play a map-pointing game with you on your beautiful body....

Love you so very much... Prte porte habudubu kachi...
Kal sokale call korbo.. If possible...
Good night...

Bytes of Love Bites

A very big one (it was purely black) no idway b/w black and red on right shoulder a part of which you have seen yesterday...

3 smaller ones on left shoulder
2 on right thigh
1 on left
1 on neck line..

Surprisingly BV dint have marks on them..they are nowadays very naughty and not easily daunted like before

My left shoulder has got 4/5 big red rashes ..no ideaa why..gham theke hote pare..but they are sore..
Next time jabe dakha habe jodi tokhono rashes ra thake thanda haat buloye sursuri diye dibi...

Love you
Pagol pagol

P.S. Kalke kokhn exam?

Love

Kothay?exam kamon chilo?ajke khub strange exp holo akta..
One family sought tenency to baba...on laxmi puja day ans shifted that
night stating auspicious ocassion to shift...he said he wud give the
requsite money next morning...and since then he has given any
money...almost 5/6 days...everytime stating next day...
It was going like this..
Today all of sudden baba got a call from thana ...
That person has filed a case stating j baba or kache theke security
deposit niyeche...n reciept dichhe naa..ulte uthe jete bolche....he
went to human rights cell..

Baba was so shocked ...j he almost had an attack in the thana due to
fury n anger..
But since he is v strongwilled he said i will not go by this...let me
go to court and file tresspassers suit...and then that fellow got lil
bakfooted..

He takes everything on him...i just hate him...baba k niye r para jaynaa..

Anyway akhon ki kore oi lok ta tola jay..setai chintaar..

Pagol pagol,,,,lok k sotti trust kora jaynaa...ar sotti koto baaje lok
hoy surrounding you just by default...

Love you take care

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Hi

Ami babar sathe Rashbehari r bari jachhi..need to seaarch n find some
old docs like old comp offer lletters...
Love you
study korte parcho?ami pmp r boi khule bosechilam ak paata o parini..

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Good morning

Akhon shorir thikache...
Kalke raate taratari suye porechila,,
just now ghum bhanglo..
Akhon fresh....
Love you so much

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Jaaan

I belive now u understood why i mentioned about the love bites so many
times to you...over n over again..
Coz someway i feel proud of them..feel like carrying ur love marks..i
knew u wud feel cute..
May be stupid but some distant way related to be an expecting mom...

Am not much well 2day... 2 baar bomi hoyeche...just now akbar holo..
Sleeping off now...

Will wait for ur call.. Samsung till i pick up..

Love u svm

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Love makes on your shoulder

Tor kadher uporer oi gol kamorer dagta amar khub sweet and sexy legeche aaj... Jani na, but some what loved it... Felt passionate seeing it there... I wish I could have seen all my love bites on every hidden part of your beautiful body...

Kal sokale call korbo... Around 7:30 to 8:00... Let me know if that is fine. Kon fon e call korbo janeo...

Love you so very much... My sexy jaan... Missing you...

You make me feel alive

My aroma makes u crazy...but i simply feel like life when u r even around!!!!
The rest of the time i simply need to carry the burden of existence..

I always carry you...every single instance...
I die for your every single touches...
Love to hold back all the love bites as long as possible!!!!

Missing you...dont know how long we can carry on this heartless survival!!!

Love you
kalke kokhon call korbe?

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Your aroma makes me crazzzzy

I hate myself. Who could I love and miss someone so helplessly. Going crazy. Every moment you are capturing every thought of mine and redirecting towards you and only you.

Amar chokhe, thonte, gaale,
Tumi lege aacho!!

Jaaanuu

Good morning shona..
Kamon ache akhon amar babyling ta?aktoo ki bhalo?
I cant see u like this suffering so much jaan.. U r my love right?

Love you so v much..beyond everything..
Aktoo beshi kore suye naao aaj please love...pore call koro..
Just take some rest...plz
love you...love you so v much...
Just take care...

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Don't know which way to go!!!

R nite parchi na go.
Mone hoche jibonta golay atke geyeche.
Dom bondho hoye asche.
Sansh nite parchi na.
Uff, ki oshojjo jontrona .
Ki vishon dom chapa kosto.
Kobe j mukti pabo, adeo pabo ki na kichu jani na.
Amar r kichu valo lagche na. Ekdom na.
Sojher simana otikrom korechi onek din.
R kotota poth j nijeke e vabe chachrate parbo jani na.

Jaan, meri jaan

I'm fine, don't worry sweet heart. Just fine. Kichu hoyni. Haa ruti kheyechi, 4 ta. Kal sokale call korbo. Love you like anything. Love you more than my life. Pagoler moto kosto hoche. Chute jete eecha korche tomar kache. Buker upor aachre porte eecha korche.
Only yours, always. Take care.

Too Very Worried

I dont know...khub kosto hochhee..khub beshi..not able to fathom kothay kotokhani kosto hochhee
Ato shorir kharap ki kore holo?Sokale ghumabe kalke beshi kore..phone korbe naa..ami pore phone korbo..
Please this is an order..just sleep till about 9 AM

Akdom khawa dawa korcho naa am 100% sure..tumi boke na khawale khao naa ajkaal..

koto jor??mepechile? raatre ki khele?
I dont know nerves or no nerves.. you have to be well off..
Love You Shona
Just take care and get well

Baby, sorir ta khub beshi kharap hoye geyeche... Senseless moto hoye porechilam, now better...
Prochur jor esechilo, ekhon kom... Mone hoy nerve e chap pore geyechilo ektu....
I love you....

Love You

How are you now? Matha ghora komeche?
Jol kheyechile? bari giye khabar kheyecho kichu?Kalke theke beshi kore jol carry koro...atleast 2 bottles...!!

Porashona korcho?
Baba r haat wrist er kache anek ta pure giye abar tar opor er skin layer ta uthe gache..dogdog korche..
he is suffering plus gha shokateo deri hoy coz of Sugar..
anyway as the most frequently word for us.. Anyway to every alternate things!!

take care
Love

Vor holo, dor kholo

Good morning Jaan... Uthe poro... Ei sundor sokale, ghum vanglei, tomar gaa er upor pa tule, dudu te hat dhukiye chotkate chotkate, praan vore aage chumi khetam... Amar adure ottachare ghum vangto amar baby r... Tar por tomar norom tultule bogoler modhe nak guje, buk vore sara diner jonno energy nitam... Uff dinta darun jeto !!!

Love you shona...

Good Night

Good night Love..
Sleeping with the Samsung..
Too much scared and lonely to go to bed...

Will wait for yor call in the morning..E5 is sw off...so call up SS
If you can call>> give some more rings not 3/4 (>> than that) coz it lies under my pillow..and get to hear the tone for a while before I could be up..
I hate to see a loving missed call from you the first thing I wake up in the morning.. so make sure I take the call and recoil back in bed feeling cuddly in your voice..

Like yesterday :)

May be

A very deep insight... We need to discuss on this...
Love you, take care.

Got To Know

Today I got to understand while talking to you and doing RCA that its my mom who is the root cause of everything

She is acdemically a very good student but dumheaded simple and v v inncocent..
In her entire life all problems had only solution is dumping the problem to baba..and wash off hand..while my father was like a tree.. No one would ever know how many problems are nesting in his head like you dont know how many birds reside in a banyan tree.. The tree stands stable always!!!

I have grown up seeing her..and internally I also believed in my subconcious that Husbands are problem solvers...weight takers--whatever might be the problem..or countless of them...

Problems started creeping in when I found that the person I married was more of a reverse person who had always offloaded all the problems of his life on me and myself slowly bearing it as far as possible..
Playing the role of the husband in te family..be it baby's school to fixing driver to run the family drama everything..

And slowly became tired fatugued and lifeless in the long run..

My mind never knew what dependence is ..where as my heart knew what exactly dependence is...

And finally I got my life my love in you..on whom I started depending with my entire life in every steps of life..
As I told you Complete Blind Trust.. that if you say there are 4 walls around you "Cant you see Baby.. I will not be able to see but believe yes when he is telling there are the walls ..onky thing AM not able to see"!!!

But it was not my cup of tea and it was snatchedd off from me one fine morning leaving me like a lost but overtly pampered child in the crowd...
Pampered in love to the extent of elation and oblivion and then thrown off to struggle and fight out everything alone..

Love You Take Care

Just feeling too dejected with everything..every little thing of life

Ami aar parchinaa go nite..just dying in every possible format possible...

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Shona, monta vishon kharap hoye aache re... The afternoon and evening was magical , and time after has completely stopped.
Love you.

Kojagori purnima

Ki korcho?amar sei 5tay ghum bhenge gache alarm e...ar aslona..tai uthe porlam..
Aj lookhhi puja..ajke agray taj mahal dakhar din...
Aj ker purnima ta india n sub continent e y sobcheye mayabi mono mugdhokor...
Omor khoiyam e ache ajker raate ghumate nei..sara raat chander aloy
bose sura paan korte hoy somrosh er ar priyaa r osthyo odhorer..

Tui nischoi ghumachhish...am feeling so scared horribly scared..alone
n deserted..
Love you
take care

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Good night my fairy

Baby I LOVE you... I know what goes on through when you take care of anyone otherthan me... Hence I know your state of mind...

Toke veja chule amar pagol pagol valo lage... Veja chul, khola pith, r sudhu ekta towel jorano gaye... Jeta ami kichu khoner modhei khule ni tor gaa theke... Uff, just likte likhte I'm getting an erection... You can easily understand what happens to me when I actually see you in front of me...

Love you Sexy... Love you so very much... I miss my curves...

Dying to see you and make love with you Jaan... Good night...

Good Night

Are you not much well? No idea ...am feeling a lil uncanny...
AMar nijero shorir ta kirom laagche.. ga golachhe bomi pachhee...and prochondo bhoy laagche..aka ei ghore thakte kirom haunted laagche..

suye porchi..if I can manage some sleep..
Love You
Take Care

Ki Korcho

Khub jolchilo shorir er modhye..bhison bhishon kosto hochhilo...was gritting my teeth whle acting like a robot all through..
sob kichu miliye khub abosonyo laagche..abosonyo na abosad konta thik?
Sanjoy Da phone korechilen --kichukhon kotha bollen...
But somewhere PC didnt call..I felt a lil different coz normally he does..
anyway..
snan kore just aslam..top top kore chul diye jol porche..mathay orna joranoa jerom mayera kore..khopa types ....snan kore eshe anek ta sidur porechi..and guess what..nak bhorti sindur puro lal hoye gache nak and thoth..
Am I missing you or just feeling like a an animated figure??
Dont know..ajkaal nijeke khub beshi achena laage when you are not around!!!
ofcorse needless to mention you are not there with me light-years away..

Love you shona..

Sorry for missing your call..akhon khub mon kharap lagche mised call dekhe..
jano phone ta pashe niye suyechi akdom matha r pashe tao shunte paini ring..
Asole 4.30 r somoy shuyechi to tao saridon kheye...mone hoy akdom gada
ghumiye porechilam..
kal dupure 6 7 hours ghumaleo ota thik ghum chilo naa
...asr bolchilo proti 15/20 mins porpor seizures moto hochhilo..but i
was not awake..o chepe chepe dhorchilo barbar but still i was
incessantly shivering..n crying with hiccups even being in deep
slumber..

Akhon thik achi..much much better..
Tumi somoy moto phone koro..ektoo holeo kotha bolbo..na hole aro kosto habe..

Love you
take care -- drive safely pls will be worried.

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Good morning my Love

Jaan, called you up. Probably you were still sleeping.
I'll call you again around 10:30 11:00. Keep the E5 off, if its not possible to talk.

Not able to write a single word. Not even able to think anything to write. Really falling short of words.

Simply going crazy, tor jonno chintay... Ki korbo kichutei bujte prchi na... Should I take you to a psychiatrists for consultation... This way you will fall seriously sick... I'm very very scared... really feeling helpless ...

Love you so much.
Take care, just for me.

Good Night

Aj saradin even in the long hours of sleep had multiple siezures of the MC trauma..somehow not able to come out of that episode in my subconcious..

Had and still having horrifying mental state whichi is not known to me...When awake its still better but when not fully conscious or in some kind of sleep driven state the motion like pictures are coming in forefront and causing bouts of shivering muscular relaxation etc..

Dont know how to really get out of that deadly 5 mins of life and deal with that ghost of memory upfront..

so trying to postpone the going to bed part as far as possible..

Love You
Take Care
Hope tomorrow would be a better day.

Call your tomorrow

Asole ami aircel ta on korini...
Thanks a lot that you slept after ages...
Call might not be possible...
Take care...
Love you...
Doing nothing.. Actually was not able to.. Now as I got your message, would try to study a little...

Hii..

Sms was sent to your aircell number..at 4 am not sure why u dint
get..anyway...oto deadly hours bole normal number e pathainii..
What r u doing?love u.

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Love You

Love..
Kalker porpor 2 tu alprazolam affected today feeling somewhat feverish.. slept off around 2 and woke up at 8:45 and still feeling like a zombie..
Oi Interview ta abar dekhlam..really felt much lighter..
Nobody woke me up not even JS. She was told not to disturb me..
Akhon aktoo raastay jabo..just dombondhyo lagche bari te tai..ghar byatha ta komeni..hoyto aktoo hete asle better laagbe..
Parle Phone koro..

Love You Take Care

Baby

Shona, where are you? No update. Sorir ta ki abar kharap holo? Or just
not feeling to communicate? Worried. Please let me know.
Love you, only you and you. Take care.

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We shall overcome, very soon

Feeling shattered after talking to you. Actually I haven't received any sms from you, hence was trying to call you since early morning. But your cell was switched off. Hence was not able to talk.

Whatever ever happend to you yesternight, probably i saw it coming. You were extremely depressed for last few days that you have stopped talking to me even. Yeasterday was out burst of it. Which is quiet normal. As you are so brave and mentally so storng, you were able to hold on for such long time, before out brusting finally. Given your situation, any one, including me, would have done this long back and would have continued doing every day. I really respect you. You are a woman of strength.

But I know that we shall over come. We shall overcome big way. You are putting your best, and make sure you do the maximum you can do, even if after that we fail, we know that we have tried the level best.

Keep the faith. I know its a long path that you are traveling and traveling alone, but at the destination you will get the payment. Life squares it up, all ways and always. Just keep walking.

I know, I can do nothing to support you, neither I can hold you on to my chest to give you my share of strength. Nither can i take your hands in mine for that long awaited reassurance. But still I say that I love you, I care for you and I'll always be there with you. Even if that with my few dry words. Because you are to precious for me to let go for a moment.

Love you. And trust me, we will be able to join the dots in future looking backwards. How, that we don't know now, but I know we will be able to win it for sure. Just listen to your heart and do what you love the most. No one can take you out of the dark room, but YOU. I know you will be able to walk out of that darkness on your own, because you have that power in you.

Love you so so so very much. Watching you all the time, silently.

Only yours.
Love.