Love

Next week will be better trust me shona...it has to be and will be
better..as we will not be together..no crossroads anywhere where we
can probably meet..

Accenture would be simply auspicious to you... A holy new beginning a
new life start of a new journey..it has to be good...you will do
wonders there..trust me..it would be the stepping stone of the dream
which I cherish for you..

Kamon acho akhon?ami kalke raate porpor duto channel e TV r shock ta
thithak nite parini..tomay blog ta konomote kore i simply passed away
in a very high fever 103 er opor.. sara raat mathay jol dheleche
sobai..bhul bokechi..ki bolechi janinaa...akhono 102 jor...matha tulte
parchinaa..ato bhari ar byathay chire jachhe..
Doctor dakhano hoyeche...he gave medicines...shud be ok:

Ajke amar CPGBA r first exam ta chilo..monta khub kothao akta kharap
hoye ache onyo sob kichu chariye..

I dreamt too big of myself a new car new home new degree new
life..everything with my new found happiness of independence...n all
these times life was sarcastically smiling at me ....and shattered
down all my dreams with a very tight slap..

1. Ajker robibasoriyo ta poro
2. dayita has brought the mouse pad will get it for you

Did ur fever get down?let me know how r you..whenever possible..
Till then remaining v v v worried..
Take care somehow...Love you

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Scared

Feeling so scared and alone Jaan... The entire world is against us now... Its dark evrywhere now... Ami pagol hoye jachi... Acc er theke kichu ultopalta hole amar suicide chara kono rasta thakbe na...
Jani na next week ta te ki lukeye aache amader jonno... Prochur mod kheyechi kal rate, dhum jor, tao collage jabo...
You take rest... I love you... Just take care... For me and JS... You are answerable to no one but her...

U knw what

U knw what v deep inside i simply want to be ur wife run ur family
make u feel at home be ur proud wife n even prouder mom of ur baby...
Thats it...
And i never knew that ..such a simple feminine heart i carry..
I know am just cursed n will live with that,,,
not able to rest but let me try..
Love u

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Yes

Wont give up...
But if u happen to hear that 'you have been doomed and nothing will
happen to you' 24 by 7 its a lil difficult to pull up..
Am in tremendous pain not for the insecurity only but there is nothing
fwd to look fwd to ..to be in touch with you...and am convinced that
she (nature) is all against me to make sure i really go insane and end
up in an asylum..
Entire evening was all alone in the room ...Jst sometimes back i
somehow pulled myself to the tv set...the first channel which flashed
was sony pics playing 'Goodluck Charm' i almost went mad at the
memories of my home theatre of watching the movie sitting on yor lap..
I changed the channel went to channel 17 dont know the name..it was
playing Titanic scene of Rose committing suicide..

I immediately fainted over the sofa....it was simply unbearable..

I know u will tell me i need to be practical and first get to
steadfast. With the basic needs of life....but when u are earning my
basic need is not my job but something else....

Sorry for sounding so immatured...cudnt help...i dont know how am i
still able to breathe normally after this incidence..is it just a
coincidence? Or some preplanned punishment..
Now the memories of MC are again killing me when I was about to face
reality with a lil courage,,,the 807 room the way we watched the
movie.. You did bulit my world there..may be a cardhouse but the
finest one cemented with love..

I will live in that cardhouse again given a chance over a palace anyday..
Love u
take care

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Just don't give up hope... Don't ever give up as long as your best friend is alive...
I don't know who they are but I'm sure, that they seriously wants to cause damage to us...
And we have to still keep on fighting... Can't stop swimming now... Too late for that... It's the darkest night ever possible in our life, but trust me there is a morning waithing for us...
I don't know who they are and what they are up to... I just shared what I got from Indra... And also not sure if those people and PG are different people or same, and will not make much differences in our life... We have keep on fighting...
Replied to your mail on updated CV... Please check... PMP information er cheleta aaj ashe ni, kal dhorbo ok....
Love you till my last breath... Can't see you crying

Take care

If not a peaceful life do i atleast deserve a peaceful death?? Am not
able to bear anyfurther..
Tumi dekho amar kichhu habena just kicchu naa.. Will be doomed..
Had to numb my senses...not able to feel the pain anymore..going to forced sleep
Pls take care..talk to later when in some sanity of mind..
Love... me

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Understood

Understood..
Only one thing is not clear that why he is getting the information that you are resposinble for my job quit and not vice versa and the mail is creating agrressive vengeance in him against you..
He is only against you so violently after this mail..

If Parichay has to give him his (Parichay's) piece of hatred only against me why they are accussing you ..
They should simply say the reverse right..that I was playing with you etc...and you were trapped in the entire situation..

Asr will not take up that as reason of Quit.. he is almost 40 yrs of age to succumb to the information like we were in a meeting room f2f speaking and HR will force us to Quit.
Nobody in the world can do that..that 2 people in a meeting room "discussing something" and they were asked to resign..

Tried telling him that.. he didnt take it...
finally told them that HR had mail evidence that we were into a personal relation out of professional decorum..somehow could make a middle level peace..

Anyway for get it.. you just care..I will handle..
My morning stress is diluted now..with the other biggers stresses of a bleak future..

One important thing I have updated the CV and kept in drafts..please check it make needful changes and send back to me..

Delete the blog once you read it..
Update the blog one you could review and ammend the CV
Love..

Miss u

Miss u everyway...still bleeding you came in so hard :) paining
too..loving it though..

E bari te amon poristhiti as if someone is in deathbed..ami mone hoy
more jabo just mental death ekhane thakle..

Love you
missing you

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Love

ajke r din ta kamon jay dekhi..just jani na..
kalke raate Asr anek khon bose amar jonyo gada Telecom documents download koreche,,,
khub kotha katakati hoyeche..

o barbar bolchilo..why did I risk so much..knowing fully well why did I risk evrrything..how could I not think once before getting entangled into all these..
tate ami bole flat diyechi..nothing.. but love..

tate akdom bhenge poreche..
then he said am not able to see you like this..tumi aste aste depressed hoye jabe..o amay depressed dekhte parbe naa etc..or khub tension hochhe sob miliye..
ei gulo bolate ami ok bolechilam.. then leave me right now..let me stay alone and fight my own destiny..
I have messed it up so let me repay it..tumi ato kosto peyonaa..that too for my own deeds..

Taate howmow kore bhenge pore bole.. tumi amay erom bolte parle..
"ami tomay konodin charini---never..tomar bad times e ami chere chole jabo??"
Tumi ja khusi bolo..I will not leave you when things are not right..
Ok ..stay with me..as of now when right times again comes from you then you fly away from me..

khub kosto peyechi kalke sob kichu miliye tai kede felechi..ato blacked out kono dino asheni..
sob jayga theke sudhu negative news asche..everywhere
otherwise ami kadtam naa..tao aka ghore chilam..JS bujte pereche..I was in tears..

I have a feeling telecom companies implement SAP mostly for their FICO and CRM areas.
Will get CRM inputs from you..ajke ami Mum k school dite jabo..tumi amar CV ta aktoo thik kore likhe dio.. atleast first cut draft ta..with telecom highlights..

Ami fire eshe aksathe tomar sathe kaj korbo..thik kore porashona korbo..

Yes you are correct WE NEED TO SUFFER and MISS EACH OTHER..AT this point of time NATURE is not ABLE to see us HAPPY..

asombhob bhoyanok kosto hochhee..guriye bhenge jachhe sob kichu...
ar nite parchinaa just..
Love You
All yours

Jaan

I know she is a sweet heart and she can only take care of you apart from me.... Khub valo korecho ok gift kore.... She deserves some happiness....
That means my baby was crying, hence she asked.... Please don't cry baby, we have to be strong.... Remember "Game is never over till all the cards have been played."

Sweet Dreams

Good night... yes, we will work on the CV... Can't Asr give you some domain knowledge on TC? he was from that domain , and from user end as well, hence he should be the best person to educate you on the telecom domain.... Try that out....
yes, you can talk to Shiv, that is a good idea....
Good night and love you
All yours

TULIP

She has named the Lappy as Tulip..
She was over excited to see the RED laptop... named as Tulip as lips are red in color..as per her..so Tulip
Today was her Birthdate.. 8 ..so i told her its her gift..she loved it..overjoyed and she has lent me the laptop till such times I get a machine for me..

She is really a lil angel..I was down sshe was contnisouly supprting me seating silent beside and working on her assignments alone without a single word.. At last she was such a brave hearted baby...amar kole bose mathay haat buliye boleche.."ma tumi office i thako.. deri kre esho ..Blr jao..ami aar bayna korbo naa..ami kosto pabo..kintoo aka thakte parbo..
but you please dont cry..

Process

What i understood they would look fwd more of domain knowledge, business process knowledge and areas where SAP in telecom is different than others.. the tweaks

Tomorrow I would try to talk Shiv if we can speak to any Erricson PM ..you also check if you know someone from Erricson account via Madhavan

ei muhurte matha kaj korche naa.. chinchine byathay chire jachee..
ITC te Aurindam k phone korechilam.. he is also asking for some domain exp..saying to put your CV in 10yrs cader domain knowledge is required which we never get in IBM even if we spend 10 yrs..

But he said he will sincerely try...(Aurindam)

Love You
Good Night

Will first make CV with you.. Anjan wanted a changed CV with highlights on TC.

Telecom

1. Do what you feel would be best. but a mention of bharti project would do wonder for us. feel free to talk to him (PC), please. We have to play all out now. 
2. Yes include everything, from Quick Scan, Shop Smart, UWL for Mobile, to Go mobile, everything.
3. I'll check for my repository and send you all SUP and MI related docs tonight or latest by tomorrow morning.
4. Yes, talking to Asr is a good Idea... get in touch with him for a complete CV and try to learn different process of telecom, like billing, customer support cycle, etc etc... and write them as your process knowledge from Bharti project there you have worked as ABAP SME as stretch assignment...

Telecom

1. is out if question.. I can write as an ABAP PAC I worked in solutioing in some projects of telecom account cant directly write ..asking Probal is out of question

2. Yes Go Mobile initiative can be good.are you also talking about Shop Smart?

3. Do you have the P@ARL ppt of MI whoch you took? It has SYBASE touch points

4. Yes trying to get some telecom domain..asr might be knowing he was from airtel..

feeling totally confused.. but only hope he said he liked the CV and some telecom additions might make it sail..
Telecom is the primary key,

Reply

Ok, got the update.... Little better news....
1. Get in touch with Probal da and ask him if he can check for any telecom project like Bharti Airtel or Vodafone etc... and if you can use that in your CV
2. I'll look for telecom material...
3. Enhance your CV with our Mobile Applications and show them as pilot projects for IBM Mobile strategy and you as the key player there....
4. Try to study on on Sybase Unwired Plateform and get good Idea and write in CV that you were part of GBSC SUP initiative ....
5 . Read some more on telecom domain, as Ericson is telecom domain company....

Baby, keep the faith

Jaan, we are going through the toughest time ever... and are fallen.... We are at the bottom most position possible.... There is only one way to go now.... Up up and up.....
I know this tough time will pass.... When and how, I do not know.... I do not know if the company I'm going to join will retain me or not, I do not know when you will get a good offer, but I know one thing for sure that the time of darkness will pass by.... As the mistake we have made is critical in nature, the suffering would be equivalent.... but at least we are alive and till the time we are alive, there is always hope....
Just keep our finger crossed and hope for the best.... We have to keep on looking towards the sky till the Sun is out again....
I somewhere believe I'm very unlucky for you, may be I'm wrong, but really can't take chance on that.... We will not meet each other until you get a good offer for yourself.... we will talk all the time, but will not meet... Please agree for few days on this for a better future of you and togetherness of us in the longer run....
Love you and always will be with you!!!

Updates

Anjan Da called up around 9:30
He said Amitabh has replied him saying he can only process the CV for an equivalent Band 8 position if I have some SAP Telecom knowledge.
Anjan da is saying to add some projects in the CV with some telecom ref. from IBM as stretch assignment..
and study SAP telecom in b/w....not sure of that..what to do..

If you get to surf send me some good SAP Telecom documents.
Love Me

Lost in Love

Hi  this is the first blog from this machine to my love...
Just take care ...
All sorts of bad news are only pouring in from all sides..pressure is heaving high..

HCL they told they are not having any open Manager position in KOL,strange though they said different yesterday..

Siemens also said the same.
CTS same.
TCS no idea
Anjan Ukil took the call after 4 calls and told he is in a meet and so would call back later...
Feeling very lost somewhere..

Just let me hold on to you..till such times I am able to float..
Just Love You
Take Care

Jaanu

Amar bhishon kosto hochhe re...khub khub kosto...
Feeling so v unprotected n uncovered..
Need a reassuring hug from u if that cud ease the pain..
Kalke raate abar jor eseche...anek ta..
Khub chotfot korchi tomar jonyo
love you

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Take care

Love just take care..
We dont have any one to hold on to barring us..
Remember my lawyer said when u r slapped by harsh reality and
challenged with existance problem then only u get to judge ur love..
We r in that phase now..jobless n v v panicked...entire world against us..
Matha kaj korche naa...sob jaygay sob kaj aatke thakche... Even the
laptop dint work out with us we r trying since such long time..
Ki j hochhee..
Are we really harmful to each other or our happiness is eyesore to
everyone including us that amader nijedre shaap nijeder laage..
Janinaa
feeling absolutely effortless
kalke amay plz plz aktto HR ta poriye dish...n PCR Workflows overview steps..
Thats critical for my acci interview..
Love you take care

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Love u

I hav alo drunk a bttle of beer n a alzolam...no not for anythimg else
but just to share a part of ur immense pain...
Talked to him abt divorce..things r flared up..
But again not to get u in my life...but to be beside u to prove my
love to you...
Want to be with u till such time i can prove my love n its
purity...till such time u r convinced that its u ..u ..and u that i
love..n hav loved all my life..
Am ok to take any test for my love...but not lose you
love u... Senses slowly getting blurred barring my love for u which is
riding above every senses..
Love u abir...love you
talk to tomorrw whn i get to wake up

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Love

How are you? Grilled Sandwiched? Khub kosto hochhe re tor jonye re.. Amio o toke baby bhabi Eosin..
baby kosto pele kirom chotfot kore bolto mon ta..

Am ok here.. admonishments in place from multiple places..Not sure whether he got any calls from anywhere...anyway am not bothered..as long as all these cals are not coming b/w us am really not bothered.
And am thankful that am out of IBM. Enough is just enough.
But v v v worried about you, your health and mental make state..

Posted resume to Mithu for HCL Hmadri for Deloitt
Talked to Mithu at length..she said one thing.. to her Acc promised her Kol then jst before joining they were changing to Blr.
She said for one of her friends they even changed location after joining...so I was a lil scared about you.
You please also keep a search for other offers.
Giving you PWC Id who heads SAP ..you can write to him or any one else whom you know.
Also you may like to send CV to Himadri for Deloitt.

For Erricson AR has joined there as SAP Head with his right hand ID. The comp is starting new line of busines in SAP ands only taking few good ppl... So keeping my fingers crossed

jdattagupta@deloitte.com
ambarish.dasgupta@in.pwc.com

Our laptop has come.they will give at 12 tomorrow..they called and confirmed..
Cant live without you.. Today we were a litte happy after the trauma....happiness just breathed..and immediately throttled ..we were brought back to ground reality by tight slap..
Amar sotti tor jonye khub kosto re..ar koto kosto pabi tui ami jani.. more so amar jonyo ar koto kosto pabi..

Why out of millions and millions of people in the world you are the chosen one to get these mental trauma several times in life ..always right from birth..

And also when I want to love you with my everything then also you get beaten scratched..tortured..
Am I a curse for you...

I love you Eosin..Just Love you
And I know how much you love me Shona..

Please be with me,,, I will surely be able to clear all your clouds of doubts of mind in your mind  if any and would be able to make you feel proud and the proudest wife and proudest mom of your child.

Love You
Write back later..

Sona

Baby,
I'm right here, right beside you, watching you all the times.... When you are awake, and when you are asleep like a sweet Baby..... You are my heart beat.... PRANVOMRA....
Amar nijer upor amar khub raag hoche jano... Ekta bivotsho nightmare er sriti, tar upor amader chakri nai, the future is most uncertain, j ku pagol hoye jabe ei poristhiti, amarao tai hoye aachi.... But still jokhon theke jenechi j tomar sathe dekha hobe, sotti bolchi, after this long long wait, feeling a little happy somewhere deep inside.... Am I a psycho ?? I think so... Mental....
But I love you so very much....

Whr r u?

Am drop dead worried....pls drop a line moment u r here...feeling like dying..
Take care
love u

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Eternal Flame

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?

Amar khub khub sheeet korche Eosin.. Can you please please take me in your arms and cover me up such that I dont have to see anyone else again in my life..barring you..
Amar akdom bhalo lagche naa....khub bhoy korche..kost hochhee....mone hochhe andhokare hariye jachhii
Dying to talk to you tomorrow..
My Love..

Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Janu

Na , khai ni.... Tumi j time e bolg korecho, ami thik ek e time e tomay ring korechi... But tomar bolg ta na dekhe???
Tumi nijer jotno nao.... Acc k contact korechilam.... khub ekta warm response pachi na.... Not very sure J offer ta still thakbe ki na.... Sokal theke du bar call korlam, she is telling , "I'll call you later", but call kore ni....
But ja hok ekta kichu hobe.... Tomar dik theke kono response ele janabe.... Dying here for You, my sweet little angle.... My baby wifey.....

Baby

Not able to sleep a bit. Missing you little too very much my Jaan....
Please try to be mine and only mine ASAP....
Love you so very much

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