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Hi baby

Hi eosin...missing u so much shona...everywhere everyway.
U cant do this to me...
U will change my life every moment every pulse n then let me alone die in it.
U just dont know what u mean to me... I owe my life to you
my love my life my soul mate my best freind my passionate lover my heart beat...
Missing you every moment n sub moment..pinning for ur embrace ur
touches ur soldering kisses n overwhelming love making...missing our
room missing our new found love making missing u on top of me...
Dying for u my love

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Its You only YOU... no one but you

Baby,
I want to tell you that every change in you which are fascinating you,  actually has been brought to you by no one but YOU... Do not share that credit with anyone, not even with me.... Yes, it's true that I was there beside you as a friend, but that much only... Your undying sprite which was standing ready to fight, fought an impossible battle against time and tide....

I got to know you in such an age of your life, where people tend to become rigid towards change.... They prefer to accept life as it comes than to challenge it... But honestly, you are among those few people who has the courage and willingness to swim against the tide... And that makes all the difference....

This fire inside you makes me crazy about you... Yes, you are so very true... There is a journey only once you start it... and moot point is, you have started that journey once again after a bitter halt of 8 years... and promise me that you will never ever stop again.... You will live up to the dreams I have dreamt for you....

Hope now you know and believe what you are... How potent you are!! How outstanding you are!! You have said it so correctly to someone during a fight, "If I'm proud about myself, then why not?"... this is so very true... never ever forget this statement about yourself.... You are different, so very different .... and far better that 99% of women around... Nature has crafted you during her leisure... With lots of care and
Sincerity...  So value her creation by valuing yourself... Else it would be an absolute waste of resources....

I can't express how happy today I am... You did it again... Chased and touched another dream of mine about you, only with the help of your will power... fighting against all odd..  in a situation where very few ladies would even think about doing this.... and you have done it....

Love you...
Always Yours
Eosin

Love and Life

"The life of every person is like a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another."

Power of Love? Power of Eosin?

amaro bhalo lagche class korte khub..karon this is a different type of subject..with so many real life and interesting case studies..which I am able o relate to.. Class is interactive also..atleast a window in the entrapped life..

tumi kheyecho to thik kore?akhon ki korcho?

I was just wondering ...I have not only wasted time in the past 8 yrs but garbaged my weekends staled the value systems and wasted my life!!!

And what I couldnt do on my own ...breaking free out of reguler mundane routines and stating clear my own voice and living my life in my terms.. what I couldnt do in 8 yrs.. you have made me do in just 1 single year ..

It might be just 2% of a change but still a beginning which was never there...without a start there is never a journey!!!

Is this power of LOVE?

Or is this power of YOUR treasured presence in life

..jar jonoye tomar sathe jara tomay sobsomoy by default paay ba pete pare tara puro puri appreciate korte na parleo...charte kimba chere thakar kotha bhabteo  pare naa..

But since you are so precious to me..I dont get you by default!!I need to earn each and every moment which I get to spend with you..

Do you remember the day when I told you one evening while coming back from your home I feel emancipated in your presence.. I meant every alphabet of  the word EMANCIPATION..

That time I never fully fathomed it.. but I could feel it foresee it!!

Emancipation coming my way along with heart drenching love..

Bikale kichu khabo naa..ichha korche naa...akebare B'Day te giye khabo..around 8

Tumi ki kheyecho pet bhore?ki korle saradin?

Love You Eosin Love You So Much

BTW: Amar right chin er pashe akta gobhir black spot..am just loving it.. do you recall it by any chance?
taje care

Updates

1. My jeans which baba gifted last year is not fitting me as its a low waist one..had to struggle to pull it up..

2. The trainer will come late at 10.. so I am relishing the waiting time in blogging

3. There is a v v chipku couple in the class.. quite amader moto..they are engrossd in their own world. I am feeling extremely jealous.. The girl is very pretty and the boy quite handsome..

4. Kalke bari firte amay akjon bollo " Didi tomay bidhyosto lagche dekhte aj...but khub sundar o lagche kano bolo to"... I found the an unknown reflection in the mirror when I checked.A different woman fatigued tired torned up but very very sweet and cuddly looking with harirlets covering all over the forehead...with a very sad tone overcasting her face"

5. I am wearing the black dotted baby lifter ... its also not able to cup them properly..

What are you doing nowadays with me with my body with my heart with my soul?They are all denying to stay passively with me...and revolting every second..

6. Engg days er akta baje classmate dekhi ei class tay.. its pretty disturbing..coz he irritated me all the 4 yrs in campus..even the sight of this person and the fact he is in this class with me is so very repelling

Tumi ki korcho?amay miss korcho ki?ami tomay pagol pagol miss korchi..matha jhimjhim korche...ato miss korchi..

ei building tay and ei floor tay khub khub nostalgic lagche...pantry ta ..pantry te pizza momo khawa 3 o us joriye bose thaka..the other pantry where one evening you kissed a mesmerized silent sobbing me..for long long suffocating time...

ekhan theke akash dakha...akta adbhut ghupchi room 2/3 days chipke kaj kora...gada gada gada gada golpo kora..and so on..

Do you remember?

Do you understand?

Do you feel the same?

Do you feel my heart beating?

Do you feel my touches?

Best Investment

I'm with you..... All along your journey ...
You Study well... I wish your experience to be most enriching...
Always remember one thing they say,
The best investment one can do is, investing on self enrichment....
The best investment is, to invest to gain knowledge ....

And you are doing the right investments in life....
I'm proud of you Jaan....

ALL THE BEST...

Love You

I hate myself

I hate myself when I have to kick you back and compel you to stand and struggle when all you want is a little secured slumber in my breast
I hate myself  when I have to nail you hard and force you to perform mundane duties of life when all you want is some innocent rest

I hate myself when instead of caressing you I have to dig my nails in your dreams
I hate myself when instead of loving you I make cruel gestures to move and perform acts
I hate myself when instead of being your love I make you to to abide by drab oppressing fact

Love you

Ki korcho?akdom bhalo lagche naa...just bhalo lagche naa... Feeling
nauseating to life barring yur stupendous results which is like a
splash of fresh air!! Else feeling too low...not able to cope up with
life or the lack of it!! Khub negative lagche sob miliye...
I dont know whether at all i will get you in life but dont know why am
really feeling extremely low sulking n negative..dont knw what time
has in its store for me for us ....
Dont know how would i sustain till tomorrow!!!
After the bandage is removed thr is an extra pain n stiffness in the
caff muscles...arising from the mould..not able to walk in rythm and
hurting while walking..but that is managable... What is not managable
is my mind and heart and the eerie venomous feelings with what it is
clouded with!!
I will never be able to have any peace in life forget about happiness
forget about togetherness .... I feel am cursed and bringing so much
of pain n negativity to you....you who have loved me more than anybody
else in this entire world have spelt the words of love n life for
me...
Not able to come out of the trauma...
May be the prolonged separation and the intensity of missing is
creating the pitfall...but really not able to come out of the
blackbox...life has stopped just at its doors..
Just take care,forgive me for everything..
And note that my love for you increases every moment inspite of all
negative forces!!!!

Love

Not able to sleep...still locked in ur arms
Cannot come out of the evening n its magical charms...
Dont know why
Felt like it was again the first day of july
As if first time you entering me
It was as divine as our religious deity
U were looking so v handsome n mighty
Filled me deep inside with a soft serenity
But equal restlessness splurging out
An enigmatic unique feelings all thru out
I can close my eyes n count every second
Remember every move n ur sweaty scent
Still in those memories locked for ever
In our own sad independent hour.

Missing u even more - like never before..

U dint answer my question so far
were u drenched..did u take warm water?
Love u n missing you
dying to die with you
in an eternal flame
Aablaze in memory frame
its raining here n u are nowhere
missing ur warmth lying dead
tossing alone in a damp cold bed
Are u sleeping or missing me rt beside
I wish i could be there holding u in pride...
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Sent from my mobile device

Feeling You

Your face faded in oblivion behind the closed doors

My heart bled with the strike of a steel sharp sword

As it in the moment my passive mind made a note

My love is going far off from me for time untold


The next set of hours hours I will be in a darkened fort
With none to protect me around the night so cold
Even if I die cannot reach out to him neither can he

If he is writhing dying in pain  can ever ask for me

Till such time we will meet again in our small cubicles
With time to be measured in fractional miniscules
Could Iconvey my love through this open space

When he would be reading this it I will be far off set

But I would know when the letters he would access
A cold damp breeze would lovingly caress my face

I would feel curled up in his soft soothing touches

I would feel secured in his strong suffocating embrace

I would know my love is there waiting for my kiss
With arms outstretched and a smile on his lips..
To take me in his arms and get satiated in bliss

And time to stop still and those moments to freeze

Good morning Love

Wish you a day with lot of sunshine n warmth a big blue sky for the
akka to spread the wings... Woke up v early in the morning...around
6.watched the sunrisefrom the highrise but didnot enjoy.
Was pining for someone

Good Night

You have MADE my life nothing more nothing less..before long it was no life at all..If this is hell I love the hell..Hell is reality Heaven is Virtual.. I am not a virtual person..

To be with you..I do not need a heaven..neither does she.. she would be very happy with you ..I know that for sure.. but she is not that lucky either that she can be happy in life..anything but happy!!!


Just take care..Good Night for now..
Would wait for tomorrow!!


Love You and Just Love You